6. Shen Zi extra: Qingshan people outside the mountain (Part 1)...

Shen Zi sat in the passenger seat and tilted his head. Seeing that there was a circle of chattering boys and girls chattering outside the car window, they were obviously drunk. The deputy squad leader of the year asked everyone to get in the car in vain, but no one listened to him.

"I said, you," the boy sitting in the driver's seat said a low voice, surrounded by a faint smell of alcohol in the car. Chen Wei suddenly remembered a word he had never understood when he was reading, "slightly drunk".

"What?" She didn't look at him, and looked directly at the windshield, just like she was staring at the blackboard.

"I'll ask you," he suddenly put his hand on her shoulder, then turned her chin, and breathed hotly on her face.

Chen Zi opened his eyes wide in surprise. After living for more than twenty years, no one has ever treated her like this.

"I ask you, do you have any regrets now? Even a little bit."

They all asked. Everyone.

Shen Zi, have you ever regretted it?

Shen, you are the hardest of all.

Shen Zi, have you never gone out to play?

Chen Zi, are you learning in your dreams?

Shen Xiao...

Chen Yi knows what they want to say. Chen Yi, genius is 99% sweat and 1% inspiration. You said that you have achieved this, why did fate still make you a mediocre person by chance?

Chen Zi, you failed the high school entrance examination and became angered at the general high school level. After three years of high school, you finally entered a local university. Chen Zi, don’t you resent? If you had known this, you wouldn’t be as good as enjoying your youth happily and playing enough money. Chen Zi, don’t you regret it later?

Shen Zi, don’t you regret it?

"I never regretted it." She said softly, without any angrier, and calmly.

The boy in front of him no longer had the hippie and sloppy faces and sloppy faces he had when he was in junior high school. He drove his BMW X5 in a brightly dressed manner to attend the class reunion. Shen Yan saw the magical magic of time in everyone, only she, as if she was still in the years.

She was taking the postgraduate entrance examination and before coming, she was studying in the provincial library, so she was the only girl with a backpack on her backpack. She was still plain and had a low ponytail that had not changed for more than ten years; a blue ski shirt, frameless glasses, white velvet hat, thin and expressionless.

The restaurant has the largest private room, and 40 junior high school classmates came, all of which are all scattered among all walks of life in society, drinking for three hours of wine. She sat in the corner, hiding in the shadows.

Even she herself didn't know why she came to the class reunion. She has never appeared since she graduated.

Maybe it was the mean aunt who said, "If you continue to learn, you will be stupid. Anyway, you can't learn anything. Make more useful classmates. The most important connections in the future. You still want to stay in school until you grow old." - she was powerless to refute. She was already mediocre and had no confidence and capital to fight.

Although she never gave in her heart.

However, she knew that although the words were unpleasant, it was somewhat reasonable. She should indeed look at the outside world. Her parents were old, and the road to changing their destiny was gradually narrow enough to see tomorrow. Perhaps, she should really stop and look at others.

"Do you still remember who I am?"

After getting the understatement of Chen Zi's words "No Regret", the boy smashed his hand on the steering wheel, took out a pack of cigarettes, thought about it and stuffed it back into his pocket.

"Do you know what I'm asking? Do you dare to say you don't regret it?"

Among the people who came to attend the class reunion this time, four people drove their own cars, so after dinner, everyone agreed that the girls took the bus, the boys played by themselves, and went to the largest KTV to sing together. Chen Yi first walked out of the hotel, stood at the door and blew the cold wind. Behind him, a group of boys and girls who said they were tugging with their brothers and brothers. Everyone was drinking red, and only she stood alone by the revolving door.

It seems like a handful of unheated snow in this small northern town.

"Shen Wei!" She looked up and said that a boy from the car clan had opened the car door and called her. She was stunned and felt a little embarrassed, so she walked over.

I originally wanted to sit in the back seat, but he was forced to the passenger seat. He also sat on, closed the car door, and isolated the laughter and joy under the neon lights outside.

The warm wind was very strong, and she said gratefully, thank you.

This boy looks strange, but she seems to have a little impression of it. In my memory, he seems to be a boy who likes to fight very much. Anyway, the group of boys sitting in the last row all look very similar, and their behavior and personality are the same as mass-produced.

Then he asked her suddenly, "Do you regret it?"

Chen Zi could only smile awkwardly, "I remember you."

If she had changed her past, she might have ignored such arrogant questions with a cold face.

"Is that?" The boy's tone was a little rude, "Then, who am I?"

Silent and speechless.

It seemed that I had expected this a long time ago. The boy laughed, slapped the steering wheel while laughing, then pointed at his nose and said loudly:

"I'll tell you again. The leaves are blocked by the eyes, and there are people who follow you outside."

Two strange idioms emerged from the mouth of this boy who was obviously not very educated. Chen Yan felt like he wanted to laugh. However, no matter how mismatched it was, it was not as good as back then.

When he introduced himself in front of her, he couldn't even say the word "one leaf was blinding".

Do you remember that year?

Chen Wei once laughed at herself that every year she was no different from the previous year. She studied, took exams, and slept day by day. It seemed that there was nothing worth remembering, so she didn't know what she had forgotten.

However, at that moment, the memories came over me like a leaf, covering her entire vision.

If you ask Chen Zi’s impression of the word “childhood”, it is probably a scene where he is not connected to the village in front and the store behind him.

She sat on the back seat of her father's bicycle. It was cloudy and hot, and the swallows flew low.

Dad's bike was riding very fast because they didn't bring an umbrella. Shen Zi was a little sleepy, his whole body was lying on Dad's back, and his eyelids became heavier and heavier.

"So? Don't fall asleep."

She responded softly, and after a few seconds, her upper and lower eyelids fought again.

"So? Don't fall asleep."

Dad said for a while, and she felt weaker and weaker, but she did not sleep. She knew that Dad was afraid that she would put her feet into the rear wheel just like last time because she fell asleep, and she would be so slimming her skin.

"Zhi, stop sleeping, look where is this? Beijiang Park. Will your parents bring you to Beijiang Park for fun next Children's Day?"

She tried hard to open her eyes. On the left side of the road, the gate they were passing by was indeed Beijiang Park. The sky blue carved arches, and an inflatable cartoon dog more than one person tall on the left and right, sticking out his tongue and smiling at her.

"Okay!" She smiled, feeling no longer sleepy.

Later, her parents didn't take much time to accompany her to Beijiang Park. The first time she entered the gate of Beijiang Park, it was already a spring outing organized by a third-grade school. When she was a child, she fantasized about taking photos with her parents with the inflatable dog at the door, but when she was really standing in front of the door, she found that there had been rows of phalaenopsis pots.

Chen Zi and his classmates stood at the entrance of Beijiang Park together. Looking at the gate that had been away for a long time, he suddenly felt a little aggrieved. He remembered the promise that had not been fulfilled, and finally showed a look of willfulness and reluctance on his face, like a 10-year-old child.

However, she is very sensible and never made trouble in front of her parents.

When she grew up, she knew how to look back and pity herself. Chen Wei couldn't help but feel a little regretful. Is she a little too early to be sensible?

However, a process that is so simple and complicated is irreversible. She has no choice.

Chen Yi remembered that the summer of the year when the high school entrance examination was approaching, he met Yu Zhouzhou in the city's largest book market. At that time, the two of them were looking for the same unpopular compilation of the high school entrance examination questions in previous years.

The hodgepodge of pirated copies and small shops often found a lot of good books, and the prices were fair. If Shen Yi had any leisure and entertainment activities back then, it would be just an hour's bus to stroll around the book market on the other side of the city for an afternoon. She was drowned in the messy sea of ​​books, temporarily forgetting the endless goals she set for herself and the endless future.

She was one step later than Yu Zhouzhou. The owner found a wrinkled test paper collection from corners. Facing the burning gaze of two girls on the side, he said the price and asked them to discuss it together.

Chen Wei was silent. She always liked to solve problems with silent oppression. It was not a strategy, but she didn't know how to do it.

Yu Zhouzhou showed the same versatility as the rumor. She flipped through the exercise list, then pushed it to her and said with a smile, "I bought it and it's a waste, just to ask for peace of mind. Let me give it to you. If you do it, lend me a copy."

Chen Zi nodded and paused when he was taking out his wallet, "You really don't want it?"

Yu Zhouzhou said solemnly, "Don't... it's too dirty and wrinkled."

This is the truth? Chen Yi wanted to laugh, but probably his expression was still very cold.

Sometimes she feels she needs an interpreter.

Yu Zhouzhou is superior, happy, has capital, talent, can be lazy, can play cards without reason, can be disgusted by an important exercise book, can be too dirty.

It is impossible to be so sanitary. No matter how dirty or unbearable the things she recognizes, no matter how hard it is, they will get them. She doesn't care about the skin, but only cares about the purpose.

Later, she failed the high school entrance examination and sat on the empty windowsill with a sneer. She watched Yu Zhouzhou carefully restrain the joy of the winner in front of her, and did not dare to show sympathy that might hurt her self-esteem, and was at a loss.

They all misread Chen Zi. They thought she would be unwilling to be jealous.

No one understands her.

In fact, she never cared about being the first in the school year. If she could achieve her goal and pass the Zhenhua exam, then there would be nothing to say even if she had always been the tenth in the school year. She had been working hard alone and never relaxed, just because she had a greater grasp of achieving her goal.

That's all.

But now, these are not important.

She asked Yu Zhouzhou, do you know what your biggest advantages and disadvantages are?

Maybe it was because he had never talked to her on his own initiative, Yu Zhouzhou thought carefully for a long time, but still shook his head.

Shen Zi smiled and said, but I know mine. For me, the biggest advantages and disadvantages are the same.

However, Yu Zhouzhou didn't ask. She didn't know why she restrained her curiosity and said with a smile, "You know, that's great, you're better than us...

She thought for a long time but couldn't say the central words. But Shen Yan understood.

It seems that from the moment she was born, everything that Chen Yi had to bear was destined. Is it because she was born like this, or because she had to bear it, that she became like this? This problem is like whether a chicken lays an egg or a chicken, and the cycle is endless.

If Yu Zhouzhou really asked that day, she would tell her three words, trying to be determined.

Chen Yi didn't know if this word was invented by himself. It was not an end, not an ambition, not an ideal.

It's just an attempt. Her greatest strength and deepest flaw come from the same aspiration.

Does Yu Zhouzhou still remember the unconcealed surprise on her face when she said "I must pass the Zhenhua exam"?

However, that happy girl will never understand that Shen Yan's life was full of too many "musts" from the beginning.
To be continued...