I can't guess or figure out what the source and end of our lives are. But no matter what, I will never agree with a person's suicide. No matter how big the setbacks they encounter, suicide is something that a coward does.

Because our life does not belong only to ourselves. Life is beautiful to us, at least we can feel the existence of oneself, which is the greatest miracle given to us by nature.

No matter what triviality, sadness, crying, or despair we encounter in our lives, we must believe that it is just a long stop, grit our teeth and persevere, and there is a longer road waiting for us in a further place.

Because after the wind and rain, there will be a more gorgeous rainbow.

But if you fall under the storm, the rest will only rot and smell.

The weight of life is really too heavy

After walking out of Yunzi's community, I saw a taxi still waiting for me in front of the gate. After getting on the bus, the car turned toward Dongdian City.

I was sitting in the back seat of the car, and my thoughts were difficult to calm down for a long time.

What Yunzi said before before leaving kept echoing in my mind:

I really don't want to leave. I'm afraid of death. I'm afraid of losing everything in this world.

When I faced her, I suddenly felt a sense of despair, and that despair was permeated from my heart bit by bit.

The firmness and absolute power almost made me speechless. I stood there, my palms were cold, and I felt desperate and lonely, and even wanted her to stay in the world.

Even though I was in a state of confusion at that time, I still recited the Sutra of Saving People, because doing so was her best destination.

But why am I so resistant to death now, but yesterday I made up my mind to kill people? Is it said that because I borrowed the power from the Xuanhuang Earth Sutra, I have become so different from myself that I don’t even understand myself?

I leaned on the back seat and looked at the night outside the car window, feeling extremely melancholy in my heart

The most terrifying thing in life is not that I can’t see my own future, but that I have seen my own future, but I can’t change it. The five disadvantages and three defects of the Xuanhuang Earth Sutra. Is my future in their hands?

No, I'm not willing to give up

I must find the reasons why this person who practices Taoism commits five disadvantages and three defects, and the Xuanhuang Earth Sutra devours my mind and nature, and the method of remediation

Young man, it would be better to go back to the taxi driver in front of Dongdian Bar and looked at me and asked, interrupting my thoughts.

I nodded:

Yes, just send me back to the place where I got on the bus before.

When I arrived at the entrance of the community, I walked out of the taxi. At this moment, I suddenly saw a couple walking out of a taxi behind me. The man seemed to be drunk, and he was walking staggeringly while keeping chanting in his mouth:

Li Xin, do you know how cruel this society is now? How much pressure is there for me? I work hard and work hard. It is normal to go out early and come back late. There are not a few days of vacation a year, and my monthly salary is only more than 3,000. Think about it, which girl is so willing in the end

I married and supported the drunk man, and answered the man without stopping for a second.

And I stood aside and clearly saw that the drunk man cried without stopping for a second

Then, none of them spoke and walked into the community together.

I watched them gradually fade away, and a strong sense of loneliness that I had ever had suddenly filled my whole body. I admit that I was a little jealous and envious of them. I admit that I miss An Rushuang again.

Although my life is still going on, it does not mean that she is not important in my life. I miss her, and the illness of lovesickness is already in its terrible state.

Sighing, I couldn't help but speak to myself:

My love is as clear as the clouds, my heart is so full of joy, my heart is so happy, I am so leisurely. After saying that, I raised my legs and walked into the community.

After returning to the fat man's house, I quickly washed up, then set the alarm clock with my mobile phone, lay directly on the bed, and fell asleep.

The next morning, I was woken up by the alarm clock on my phone. After washing up, I went to the fat man's room and called him up.

We had breakfast together, then went downstairs together and headed straight to Qingzhu Temple in Beijiushui.

Along the way, the fat man drove the car very quickly. We arrived at Qingzhu Temple before noon. When I got back, I unexpectedly found that the door of Qingzhu Temple was still locked.

This shows that in the two days we left, my master, Master Qingfeng, and Mr. Lu, had never come back.

I opened the lock, pushed the door and walked in. After returning to the room, I immediately took out my cell phone and called Master Qingfeng.

I wanted to tell him the phone that the real person might be a traitor, but the phone prompted that it was not in the service area. Where is the Taoist Master Qingfeng going now?

I thought to myself, and at the same time I edited a text message and sent it to him. If there was a signal on his mobile phone, I would definitely see it.

After sending a text message, I called the fat man to go directly to the nearby town to buy some things. I was not going to delay any further, so I immediately set off for the Maolan Karst Primitive Forest in Guizhou to find the female corpse in the ancient tomb and find out the truth.

After the preparation was made, at noon, the fat man took me to the airport.

Senior brother, you really plan to go to the ancient tomb of the primeval forest alone. If something happens to you, you won’t even take care of it. What should you do by yourself? Fatty still feels worried when he looks at me.

Auspicious people have their own appearance. I looked at the fat man and joked.

You should hurry up and knock the fat man back to me.

I smiled and said to him:

OK, Fatty, I won’t tell you too much, you can go back first, I’m going to call my parents, remember, if our master comes back, you must tell him about Gui Zhenren. Before leaving, I gave him another advice to Fatty.

After hearing what I said, the fat man made an OK gesture, indicating that I can rest assured.

After parting with the fat man, before boarding the plane, I took out my cell phone, called my mother, chatted with her for a while, hung up the phone, turned off the phone and boarded the plane.

Preparing to go to the Maolan Karst Primitive Forest in the southern suburbs of Libo County, Guizhou.

I didn't talk much, and I had nothing to do all the way. By the time I got off the plane, it was already past three o'clock in the morning. I first found a hotel near the airport, and after washing up, I fell asleep.

When I woke up the next morning, I immediately went to a nearby outdoor goods store and bought all the equipment needed to go to the original forest this time:

Backpack sleeping bag moisture-proof pad gloves hat changing laundry sunglasses lights bright flashlight kettle, personal hygiene products, personal medicine boxes, lighter compressed biscuits solid fuel climbing rope, marching shovel compass thermometer, map, etc.

Because in the Maolan Karst primeval forest, not only is the terrain dangerous, but there are many ancient wild animals such as monkeys, deer, South China tigers, wild bulls, bears, leopards, white monkeys, etc., I have to make complete preparations.

After the things were ready, I returned one by one, put them all in my backpack and took them back, preparing to find a local guide today to lead the way, and the Maulan Karst Primordial Forest in front of me.

Near the station, I searched for a long time but couldn't find a guide. Because most of the people in the craft work of the craft are part-time jobs, and it is the off-season for tourism, so there are not many guides.

More than an hour later, I finally contacted a local guide after inquiring, a young man in his twenties named Huang Xiaoming.

After meeting, he left a good impression on me, very talkative, eloquent, and the price was not high.

After finalizing it, we took a bus to the Maolan Karst Primitive Forest in the southern suburbs of Libo County.

At around 10 noon, the car arrived at the southern suburbs of Libo County. After getting off the car, Huang Xiaoming and I hired a tricycle together and asked him to take us directly to the edge of the Maolan Karst Primitive Forest.

We got off the tricycle, and I looked up at the dense forest in front of me, and a very strange feeling appeared in my heart, with a feeling of change of things and human beings mixed in it.
Chapter completed!