“When I first returned to Beijing, everything was fine.

The emperor took care of me meticulously. Every day, he asked the imperial chef to make pastries in different ways and cooked soup to deliver them to me. Your grandfather abides by our original agreement. Almost every day, a letter from home was sent back, describing how difficult his life was and how lonely he had after leaving me..."

Speaking of the sweet past, Lin Sa felt that the eldest princess was talking in her sleep, her voice was so unreal, or it was the past, and it felt that she had sealed it for too long.

"I think about it now, that period may be the happiest day in my life.

I have both family affection and love, and my brother and husband are both good to me, and my children are both good, except for the occasional pregnancy reaction, which makes me feel a little uncomfortable, but it does not affect my mood at all.

I thought a happy life would be like this forever, but unexpectedly, just as the child was about to be born for more than a month, I suddenly received a bad news:

Say that your grandfather, who has always won all kinds of battles, lost his tracks in Xixia, and his life and death are uncertain...

When I first heard this bad news, I was reluctant to believe it. How could something happen to him, who had always been invincible, and he was still alive and dead? This means that in the rest of my life, I may see him again, which is something I never dared to think about before...

I was anxious to hear this news and didn't eat any food. Later, I made a bold decision. I was eager to save my husband, ignored everyone's obstruction, and stood up in a carriage and secretly left the city overnight.

I had only one thought at that time, that I must find my beloved. He once promised me to love me for the rest of my life and protect me until I was old until my face was wrinkled and became ugly, and I would also be by my side every day.

How can such a person disappear if he disappears or disappear if he doesn't say he doesn't see him? I will never allow this to happen to me. Therefore, no matter how much the price you pay or how much you suffer, I will find him. I will live to see people and die to see corpses.

But I was so young and energetic that I could not think of it. Because of my willfulness and ignorance, reality then gave me a heavy blow:

My daughter was born prematurely on the way...

But because I happened to walk to a mountainous and forest area, the environment was so poor, the child was born prematurely and was weak, my mother was not prepared enough and could not provide her with timely protection and take care of her health and well-being. When the emperor's men arrived and took us back to Beijing, she had been born only ten days ago and left me ruthlessly.

It is even more difficult for me to accept this fact. Such a beautiful little life is a piece of flesh that fell from the tip of my heart. The villain I have been guarding for so long, and I have lost it.

After that, I blame myself day and night, blame myself for being too willful and selfish. At critical moments, I only think about my own selfishness and did not care about my daughter at all, so my daughter got angry, abandoned me, and left alone...

For this reason, I was seriously ill and lay in bed for half a year and couldn't get out of bed. When I was alone, I always think of my poor daughter, and I cried to death every time..."

When talking about the scene where her daughter died shortly after she was born, the eldest princess was obviously very excited and was sobbing that she was almost speechless.

To be honest, Lin Sa felt very distressed when she saw the eldest princess like this. She wanted to get up to comfort her grandmother, but she was afraid that she would break the atmosphere that she had finally created.

After all, for her grandmother who has been in a high position for many years, it may give her the opportunity to express her feelings and talk about the pain she has been holding in her heart for many years. It must be more comfortable and happy than listening to a few words of comfort.

After thinking for a long time, Lin Sa finally suppressed all the impulses and lay there motionlessly, choosing to continue to be a silent little listener.

"Looking at how sad I was, everyone was saying that my Yun'er was a blessing. She died before she was born, and lost her life as soon as she was born..."

After a moment of silence, the eldest princess calmed down and spoke slowly.

"But everyone didn't know that there was actually Yun'er, after Lin Yun, who beat me, left, almost all the blessings and happiness of our Situ Yun were taken away by her.

The loss of my daughter is just the beginning of bad luck for my future days.”

Speaking of this, the eldest princess let out a few long breaths, as if she was about to exhale all the resentment she had held in her heart for many years.

"A few days later, that is, about half a year after my Yun'er left me, suddenly one day, news came from the border that your grandfather's body was found in a desert. He was really gone and was penetrated by someone's chest...

This time, the coffin was transported back quickly without me leaving, but what I didn't expect was that it was not just his body that came back, but another little life who accompanied him into the mansion.

He was held by an old woman, and in his cradle, such a small one was not much older than the newborn kitten. When he saw me, he seemed to realize something and cried endlessly.

After the woman learned about my identity, she was even more arrogant and gave the child directly to me, claiming that she was the young master in the mansion.

When I saw this scene, I was stunned at that time. I grabbed Deputy General Dong who had returned from the spirit and asked for a long time. Finally, I learned a rough idea from his words.

It turned out that after I returned to Beijing to take care of my baby, your grandfather accidentally rescued a woman during an outing. The woman was injured and stayed in the mansion to recuperate. Then the two fell in love over time, and the lonely man and widow soon had a beginning and end.

And when he disappeared, the woman had been pregnant for more than four months.

Later, when he didn't come back, the woman gave birth to the child alone, but she unfortunately passed away soon due to severe postpartum bleeding...

It was only after this that I realized that my husband's departure was not the worst result. What's worse was that he had another lover on my back and let other women have his children.

Oh, isn't it ridiculous? This is the man I love deeply,

In order to marry him, I did not hesitate to have a breakup with my brother. When I heard that he was missing, for his safety, I went to find him with my nine-month-old belly regardless of my life and death, and even lost my daughter.

But this is how he slapped me hard with this most vulgar betrayal in the world.
Chapter completed!