"That day was just like today, with fine snow falling all over the sky, and you stood in the pavilion next to the purple cherry tree, waiting for me..."

Chen Baiqi stretched out a hand, and a snowflake landed on the tip of her slightly curled little finger.

"You played the piano for me, cooked wine for me, and carefully arranged a lake of beautiful lotus water lanterns for me in the palace..."

Chen Baiqi's words re-spread the lost time in front of Chu Cangyue's eyes little by little. As the time intersected, the scenes were reappeared so clearly, as if they were in a dream.

Chu Cangyue was both happy and sentimental, but she didn't know that Chen Baiqi had cruelly tore the scar sealed deep in his memory until it was dripping with blood.

She opened her mouth and whispered in a hoarse voice: "You asked me if I wanted to be with you, but I rejected you. Chen Sandao... doesn't want to be anyone's concubine, even the king of a country."

"You were very angry at that time. You said that if you didn't obey me, you would stay with me alive."

Chu Cangyue's face turned pale little by little as she recalled the past in her eloquent voice.

"You asked the palace guards to arrest me. I don't want to be your enemy, so I can only escape in a hurry."

"...That night was just like this moment. It was extremely cold and snowing. You stood on a high place and looked at my embarrassed eyes. At that moment, I understood a word, it is called the biting cold wind."

Chen Baiqi tilted his head and stared at his face, with a well-placed sneer on his lips.

"I thought you were just getting angry out of embarrassment before you attacked me. I thought that after you calm down, we could have a good talk. Then we would be calm and reconcile as before. Although I can't be your wife,

But I will still stay by your side throughout my life and help you become a wise king."

"I just didn't expect that I would never have this opportunity again."

The fake smile on Chen Baiqi's face suddenly became sharp. She stared at him coldly, expressionless: "Then I encountered interceptions and attacks from all directions. There was no one around me, and those people didn't leave any room for their attacks.

I ran away in panic and resisted all the way..."

"That night, the quiet Chu Palace seemed to have turned into a huge cage. No matter where I escaped, there was no way out. Every one of them wanted me to die. I didn't know how many wounds there were on my body, and I didn't know

How much blood was shed..."

When she saw him looking back at her with wide eyes and disbelief, she burst into laughter: "Your cronies, your soldiers, your Chu Palace, the people you sent to pick me up, the entire Chu Palace turned a blind eye to my situation.

...The final result was that I died on that day with all my wounds."

When Chu Cangyue heard this, she felt as if she had fallen into an ice cellar, feeling chilled from the top of her heart to her toes.

What is she talking about...

The grief and anger that Chen Baiqi had suppressed in his heart for a long time seemed to burst out at this moment: "I have been asking myself in my heart, maybe this is not your fault, you are innocent, you were concealed, and you ended up like this.

I don’t know who to blame in the end, and I shouldn’t blame anyone. I should just swallow this bitter pill silently!”

When Chu Cangyue heard what she said, her head pounded and her whole body turned pale. She felt that such a long dream was too cold and cruel.

"I..." Why can't I remember?

Did he really watch her being killed?

"I...I never wanted to harm you..."

He couldn't believe it, but he felt that he was about to touch the truth that he had always thought he could never find. He felt the blood throbbing like crazy in his temples, and his head felt like it was being pressed by something and was about to explode.

He scratched his head and dug his fingertips deeply into his scalp. He thought hard and tried hard to go back to the past.

Soon, some buried and broken images rushed into his mind.

After his courtship was rejected by her, he pinched her impulsively and said harshly to her - If you don't obey me, then stay with me alive. After she was surrounded by many guards, her slim figure was lost and fled.

…

His hands and feet were trembling a little, and he staggered back a few steps, staring in shock.

Why...he didn't remember these things before, but he remembered them now?

That day, "he" stood alone in a tall building, with his hands behind his back and a cold expression.

A guard came to report.

"Lord, Chen San dares to resist the order and escape, what should we do?"

He remembered that "he" had a gloomy look on his face, pondered for a moment, and said ruthlessly: "Order an immediate curfew for everyone in the Chu Palace, and she must stay no matter what the means."

The "him" in his mind is like him, but not like him, because no matter how much he desires to keep Chen San, he will never "use any means" to force her to stay.

But he remembered that he did say such things.

So...did he really harm her?

It was he who made her suffer from all sides in the strange and cold palace of Chu State, and finally died tragically in isolation and helplessness under his ruthless gaze?

Chu Cangyue lowered her head, feeling a painful tremor all over her body. He murmured weakly and hoarsely: "Then, that day, I drank a lot of wine, and I can't remember many things. I always thought... I thought you were

I have already left Chu Palace."

"I really want to keep you by my side, and I have never thought of using any dirty means..."

He defended and explained repeatedly.

He couldn't speak any more. He felt like there was a fish bone stuck in his throat, and he was choked. He raised his head and said, "Chen San, I am sincere in my sincere love for you!"

This sentence is like a helpless confession, but also like a roar of collapse.

Chen Baiqi seemed unable to bear his gaze. She raised her head and felt that after hearing his answer, she was exhausted and even her eyes were wet.

Finally... finally I know.

It turned out that... he really didn't participate in that hunting, he... was just deceived by Sun Yang.

It turns out this is the truth.

She finally let go of something that had been weighing her down, but...she still didn't feel relaxed.

There is another thing that she has always suspected, so let's put it to bed today.

"Sir, although you have always said you would make a contract with me, in fact you just want me to be by your side as a woman, right?"

Chu Cangyue didn't expect that she would suddenly ask about this matter. Her long eyelashes froze and her lips trembled a few times, but she couldn't utter a word "yes" or "no".

But how could Chen Baiqi, who was familiar with him, not see his expression.

Her eyes dimmed little by little: "So you let Sun Yang transfer Si Jiang and all my personal soldiers away. You wanted me to lose the claws to resist, so you asked me to deal with the late king's affairs privately for you."

Young Master Chu Yan aroused the suspicion and dissatisfaction of Sun Yang's faction, so you put my father in charge of the Chen family, which kept me in check, so you purged the people in the Chu Palace... You had already planned to imprison me.

By your side, right?"

Chu Cangyue was speechless for a moment, feeling speechless.

The deepest secret he had always kept hidden in his heart was finally revealed by Chen Baiqi.

He closed his eyes weakly.

"Chen San, I was wrong, I was wrong..."

Chu Cangyue only felt that with every question she asked, every nerve in his body was cramping and every cell was being split.

If I had known this... why bother in the first place?

She was the first person he fell in love with. She was different from all the sisters-in-law he had come into contact with before. She was too powerful and too mysterious. She always had an unpredictable side to her. He would raise his hands when facing her.

At a loss, he would worry about gains and losses, he would feel sad and happy, and he would not know how to deal with this feeling, especially after he lost all his relatives and loved ones in the world, he could only reach out and grab her instinctively

, not letting her escape.

Now if he could get her back, he would rather give up for nothing!

He just wants her to live well!

No one knows, and no one can understand, how much regret and hatred he has!

Chen Baiqi looked at him, seeing his face twitching and distorted due to inner pain, and felt an unspeakable sadness in his heart.

All her efforts were just to become his subject and a general. He clearly knew that. He knew exactly how persistent she was about this matter, didn't he?

Everything was now spread out in front of her.

After she figured it out, she finally no longer had to dwell on the past.

The moisture in Chen Baiqi's eyes was quickly blown away by the wind. She put away all her emotions, looked at him quietly for a while, and tried to take a step forward.

After one step, her cold and stiff body was finally able to turn like a rusty gear. She stood in front of him numbly, step by step.

Chu Cangyue felt a shadow falling in front of her, and then she realized it and raised her head.

Chen Baiqi half-crouched in front of him, stretched out his hand... and held his cold hand hanging on the ground.

"Sir, don't be obsessed with resurrecting me anymore."

Because I already can't go back.

Chu Cangyue was held by her equally cold hands, and she felt an electric current rushing from the skin of her fingertips to the bones of her back. The perception was so clear, as if "she" was real.

He couldn't help but grabbed her and held her tightly.

"Don't blame me, Chen San..."

He tried hard to identify the figure in front of him, but everything about "Chen Jiao Niang" who appeared in front of him was always hazy.

Chen Baiqi was silent for a while and then said, "I'll take you out."
To be continued...