That day, my mother and younger brothers and sisters died tragically in front of me, and Lei Yan himself soon fell into a desperate situation. At that time, a girl in black fell from the sky, like a god, swept away all the monsters.

She is Chuxue.

She asked her, who was completely desperate at that time, if she wanted to live, if she wanted to have strength, and if she wanted to take revenge.

Lei Yan suddenly saw hope.

Yes, he wants to take revenge, kill all these monsters, and does not want more people like him to appear in the world.

Anyway, he has nothing left and only himself, so it would be better to give everything left to the boss he identified, that is Chuxue.

So from that day on, the only person he respected was Chuxue, because it was she who gave herself a new life, and everything in the past was abandoned by him, and he fought for only half of the world from then on.

He has never been to this place again, because all he has left here seems to be sad.

But now, he has returned here again, trying to find the answer that he has been deliberately avoiding.

He went to his mother and sister's room to search. The clothes in the cabinet, cosmetics in the drawers, and the little toys in the bedside table were all placed there, most of which were thick dust.

However, Lei Yan did not expect to find anything from these commonly used places, otherwise his sister would have discovered it long ago.

So he began to flip through some places that were not easy to think of, behind the cabinet, under the bed, and gaps on the floor...

His movements were very fast and even a bit wild, because this was a dangerous area and alienated species might appear at any time. Lei Yan did not want the final clue to be destroyed by them.

Finally, when he turned to his mother's pillow, he paused his hand slightly, then he reached into the cotton wool in the pillow, and took out several envelopes from it.

It turns out that these letters have been hidden by my mother for so many years.

Lei Yan heard his heart "bang" and his hands were trembling a little faster.

He unfolded the first letter, which was a long letter, and it looked the oldest, and the letter paper had turned yellow.

To your beloved wife:

I don't know how to tell you, and I don't even dare to go back to see you. I'm afraid that once I see you again, I will be reluctant to leave.

So let's explain it with this letter.

When you receive this letter, I am no longer an auditor Lei Yan, and I will work in a new place as a new identity.

I can't tell you where I'm going, because they are all vicious and dangerous.

This task is very important and affects the lives of hundreds of people. It is responsibilities and is unshirkable.

But... to you and the kids, especially you... I can only say, sorry!

I have thousands of words to say, but find that I can't say anything, because I may be away for many years or may die halfway through.

So I'm not sure if I can come back...

So sorry... I may not be able to fulfill my obligations as a husband, a father, or a relative.

If you are willing to wait for me, no matter how long or no matter how far away or thousands of miles away, I will run back at the moment of the mission.

If you don’t want to wait for me, then find a reliable person to live a good life. It’s my fault that I can’t give you a complete family and you don’t need to be burdened.

As for the children... please don't tell them about me, just act like I have disappeared temporarily.

I don't deserve to be their father, and I can't let them be frightened by me. They are still young and forget that I'm fine.

In this way, even if I can never come back, at least they will not be sad.

If you have to say, just wait until they become an adult before telling them. At that time, they will definitely be stronger and more responsible. I also hope that there will be real pillars of them.

If I am gone, remember to notify me during the worship, so that even if I am already in the fountain, I can still feel at ease with a smile.

By the way, I'll tell them: I love them, I'm sorry.

My colleagues will deliver my salary to you on time, and I can't use it outside for the time being.

If anyone bullies you, just tell my brothers that everyone is a good man and will not stand idly by.

You are very afraid of the cold. I have asked them to help repair doors and windows before winter. Remember to wear more clothes and not catch a cold.

Don't treat yourself badly. My salary is not small and you don't need to keep it for me. I hope your life is good and don't worry me.

Be sure to take good care of yourself, seek medical treatment in time when you are sick, and be careful when going out.

Yan'er's fifth birthday is coming soon? He kept shouting that he wanted a toy pistol. I've bought it for him and will send it in two days.

The child was very responsible. As the boss, he now knew that taking care of his younger brothers and sisters would definitely grow into a macho in the future.

After giving him the toy gun, remember to tell him not to bully others and to be a truly kind and brave person. The same goes for other little guys. I am gone. They need your guidance, please.

During the Chinese New Year, remember to buy new clothes for the children. Yan'er and Zhu'er like to eat pork ribs, Long'er likes to eat sweet and sour fish, Xiao Yu'er is still young, and I don't know what she likes, but I think girls should like sweets, right?

I will entrust my brothers to help you deliver these things to you. It is too tiring to buy New Year’s goods, so you should not resist them alone.

If you continue, you will definitely think that I am nagging. You actually know all these things, right? I won’t continue to annoy you.

If possible, I will find a way to send you a letter to report your safety, and brothers will help you convey my news to you as soon as possible.

I have another request...

That is, don’t tell anyone where I went, and it’s best not to let people who are not close to you know my relationship with you.

I'm afraid it will bring you danger.

So in the next days, let’s assume that I have never existed.

Just remember, I love you, I love you.

Sorry...I'm not your qualified family...

I can't bear to leave you...

Bye now.

There is no signature, but the mother must have recognized her lover's handwriting.

The last few lines of the letter were stained with tears, and they couldn't tell the difference clearly. I didn't know if it was the mother's tears or the person who wrote the letter.

Lei Yan stood there blankly. It turned out that his mother never said there was any news about him. Is that person's request?

My mother must have wanted to wait until she and her younger brothers and sisters are adults before talking, but unfortunately the first thing that came was the Broken Night.

He opened the next letter with his trembling hands.

It was my mother's reply, but she couldn't send it out.
Chapter completed!