Yan Su ignored what she said just now and still closed her eyes.

Eva knew that he was stubborn and stopped persuading him. She took out the glass tube and test strips from her bag: "Your mother asked me to come and check if you have been taking drugs recently."

Yan Su opened his eyes, snatched things from her hands without saying a word, put the test paper in his mouth and put it in his mouth for a while, and quickly stuffed it back to the glass tube and returned it to her.

Eva looked at the transparent small glass tube: "Well, no."

She was once again in a daze, thinking about how miserable he had during his time to quit drugs. At that time, there were other illnesses and pains. She was simply a terrible waste, living in purgatory every day. At first, the doctor considered the serious injuries and severe pains elsewhere on him, and suggested using morphine and quit something else when the illness was cured.

Yan Su refused and was tied up day and night. Such a tall man curled up, trembling, vomiting, and even fainted.

Who would have thought that he had survived silently and stubbornly. Now, he lives well in front of everyone.

Most people who are addicted to drugs will relapse because they lack willpower. Eva put the glass tube back into her bag and smiled suddenly. She almost forgot that he was Yan Su.

"I'll leave first if it's okay." Eva turned around and left, and turned around after a few steps, "Where are you going next time? Wouldn't you just stay for two or three days and leave?"

No one responded.

Eva endured it and quickly returned: "Hey, s.a.yan! You..." She was stunned for a moment when she saw his face.

Yan Su opened his eyes, his eyes were still clear without any emotion: "Is there anything wrong?"

Eva's anger was extinguished and she asked, "Have you forgotten to wear hearing aids again?"

"It's not forgot." It's intentional not to wear it.

"Why?"

"I don't need to listen to so much." He had enough rest and got up and went to the bookshelf to pick up the books.

Eva looked at his back and felt a little sad: "s.a., live your life well, don't look for that person who doesn't exist."

"Even if the whole world says there is no such person, I know she exists. I just," he rubbed his forehead, as if exhausted, and felt a little helpless. "I just want to know what she looks like."

"What if you can't find it in your whole life?"

"For the only person I have loved in my life, of course I have to give her the highest treatment for women by a man."

“What treatment?”

Yan Su did not look back, and his tone was calm: "When she is alive, I spent my whole life looking for her; when she is dead, I spent my whole life remembering her."

Eva was shocked, her eyes were a little wet. She looked up at the sky and quickly blinked away the fog: "You will always encounter it for a lifetime..."

Yan Su guessed what she was going to say and interrupted bluntly: "My love has nothing to do with time."

"You can even quit poison, just one person..."

Yan Su said lightly: "My love is not something I can't quit, nor do I want to quit." He lowered his eyes and smiled, but there was an indescribable injury, "I don't remember her, but I remember I love her very much. It seems that she loves her more than the whole world."

"I remember the feeling of cherishing her, the feeling of heartache for her, and I still remember that I wanted to give up everything for her." He raised the corners of his lips, but his heart was heartbreaking, very light and slow, as if he was telling his treasured dream.

"I don't remember her, but I remember she is very special and beautiful. I remember she is the only girl in the world who can make me feel sorry for her. She is so quiet, and I will feel sorry for her. I have met my lover in this life and I don't want to meet him again."

Eva was speechless. She suddenly wanted to know, if Zhen Ai, in a certain corner of the world, knew that a joke she had engraved, made Yan Su wander around for the rest of her life, and was looking for it, and asked him to give her the highest treatment a man could give to a woman, would she be moved and crying with heartache?

Sadly, Zhen Ai won’t know.

Yan Su didn't care either. He didn't remember Zhen Ai's appearance or even her name.

Eva suddenly realized that Yan Su was like an old man with Alzheimer's disease, holding his haggard hands tightly with the person he was confused but refused to give up, and he would not let go until he was dragged into the grave.

He clearly can't remember everything about Zhen Ai, but he is stubborn, pure, stubborn, proud, silent, and stubbornly sticking to the vague girl and clear love in his heart.

Eva took a deep breath and calmed down: "You look for it slowly, I'll leave first."

Yan Su ignored him and looked back at Eva's back a few seconds later. The picture suddenly appeared in his mind.

He thought about that scene countless times, so he gradually became familiar with it.

It seemed that in early spring, there was a tree-shaped street where trees sprouted new buds. A girl named Ai walked in front in small boots, her legs were dry and her hands were behind her white coat. She shook her head gently, her voice was leisurely and happy like a bell in the wind: "Lalala, I didn't listen; Lalala, I didn't listen."

The sky was high and blue at that time, she was very relaxed and in a good mood, but she didn't look back.

The same scene was also the denser tree-lined avenue. She turned her head and looked at the flowers on the roadside, and asked in a low voice: "Then do you understand me?"

"I don't understand...but I want to understand." He looked down at her, as if he was about to see it, but only saw her face red with shame. The wind blew her long hair, and she happily ran to the front.

He still walked with his hands behind his back, strode, looking proud and confident.

Yan Su thought about it many times, but she never looked back.

And he never remembers what she looks like.

He suddenly became panicked and impatient, as if someone had stolen his precious memory box, but he couldn't take it back.

It also seemed that there were countless beautiful photos in his box, but the tornado was coming and his memories were flying all over the sky. He grabbed them in fear and eagerness, covered in sweat, and was shocked, but he could not recover the ending of the photo being blown away by the wind.

All were blown away by the wind, and the rest were wet by the rain, completely blurring the image.

But even the remaining memory "photos", he carefully received them into the box of "ai" and held them in his arms with cherishing.

Yan Su stood in front of the bookshelf, closed his eyes, gradually calmed down, turned around and went to the kitchen to get himself water.

Holding the water cup and turning back, his eyes accidentally flew over his empty shoulders, his thoughts shaking for a moment, and suddenly remembered whether it was a summer night? He had carved a drunk girl?

That day, the light and shadow on the road were ambiguous, and the night wind was intoxicated, and he saw the deep scars on her wrist.

Yan Su held the water cup and frowned slightly. How could she be so seriously injured?

She leaned against his shoulder, muttering to herself with her head tilted, her breathing hot and itchy.

He looked back carefully. For the first time in two years, her face had become so close in memory. His heart beat like a drum, and he saw that the skin on her forehead was white, with a jade-like luster, and a drunken blush.

I wanted to go further down, but the angle blocked it, but I still couldn't see clearly.

His heart was beating out of control, and he turned his head anxiously to see clearly, but he actually held the empty cup and turned around in circles, but there was nothing behind him.

Yan Su's face gradually became calm and plain, and his heart seemed to fall from a high altitude.

He remembered going out of the castle, she walked in front of him with her hands behind her back, but she did not turn around, her back was blurry;

He remembered that she was walking with him in snow boots, but the snow was dazzlingly white, and her fair face melted into the transformed light and could not see clearly;

He remembered that he had been drunk and he saw her hand in his memory, turned his head to see her leaning on his shoulder, but still didn't see her face;

He still remembered that in the bathtub where he didn't know, she was frozen and stiff in his arms, and he hugged her tightly and soaked in hot water. When she woke up, he pressed her cold cheek hard, but still didn't see her;

...

Yan Su frowned deeply and tried his best to think about it, but all the pictures collided and broke.

He held the empty cup and stood silently beside the marble table, silent and quiet.

After a while, I put down my cup and left.

#

The night before departure, Yan Su habitually suffered from insomnia and picked books in the library. When he was drawing books, he brought out a book called Archimedes and threw it on the ground, and a white envelope fell out of the pages.

Perhaps it was too long that the sealed red ink faded and never opened.

Yan Su had no impression of this letter, but the envelope said "ai" and the ink was stamped with "s.a.yan". He was stunned for a moment. The girl named ai had finally got evidence of her existence.

He immediately opened the letter, which was his handwriting, and the moonlight reflected in his eyes was full of desolation.

"Ai, I originally planned to wait until the sexual fantasy case is over, and then apologize to you with serious and sincere intentions, and tell you about the whole story of the incident. However, things have changed suddenly. I know that Irving hid you in nǎ, and I will see you soon, but I have not been able to talk to each other for too long, so I can only repent to you in letters. I hope you don't panic when you see this letter. Although I am going to a dangerous place, I will definitely come back to you.

Writing this letter does not mean that I don’t have the confidence to come back, but that the content in the letter is too important. You must know the truth. No matter how I live or die, I cannot stop it.

Ai, Chace actually has 8 ipods left for you, in addition to the seemingly perfect 7 colors, and silver. I think it was taken away by Cia. All signs (you are interested in discussing with you later) make me suspect that Chace has left information about your mother. It is very likely that your mother is not a scientist who is completely evil and indistinguishable from right or wrong as you imagine. She is likely to love you more than you imagine and has a conscience than you imagine.

ai, don’t feel inferior because of your mother in the future. Your mother loves you.

I was affirmed in the above points in the confrontation with Annie. This is also the place where I want to confess to you. Sorry, I talked to Annie after I came back from Silverland, but I didn’t tell you in time.

Speaking of which, I was surprised by the conversation with Anne.

Anne said with great reason that if Zhen Ai stopped serving Cia, there would be no antidote to make the terrorist organization even more rampant and the world would be very dangerous.

I didn't know what I thought at that time and replied, "screwthewholeworld to his whole world"!

Anne was surprised, and I was even more shocked. I thought I had subverted my usual values ​​for you, and I was deeply confused. But soon, I realized that there was no. Because pure justice does not allow deception or falsehood, nor does it allow coercion or coercion. I think my behavior is correct.

It is commendable for some people to sacrifice themselves for the public; but even if hundreds of millions of "populars" face a "other" it is a forced false justice.

So, I firmly don't allow them to do so.

Of course, I was ashamed to say uncivilized words, and I promise this is the first and last time.

I said, 'Zhen Ai is kind and more responsible than you think. Even if you don't suppress her with morality, she will do what she should do. But if she doesn't want to, I support her too.'

Anne quickly said, 'You can tell her the truth, if she is willing to continue, it's good; but if she wants to leave us and stop serving us anymore, for such a person who is not used by us but has so many cutting-edge technologies, what will happen to her? Can you save her from the government and the country? You think freedom is more important than life, so s.a., do you want to choose freedom for her to give up life?'

At that moment, I was speechless. I always despised the power, but at that time I hated myself for not having a strong power and could not protect you well. Reason made me very clear that I could not fight the government with the dual forces of s.p.a.

I actually want to say that if you are willing to stay, I will accompany you to live a life without any light; if you are unwilling, I will also accompany you to wander around the world. But I don’t know how we should leave safely if a situation that you are unwilling to happen.

ai, my life, your freedom, I will choose the latter without hesitation;

But if so, your life and your freedom, I can only let you live. Your life is more important than everything.

After returning from Anne, I was not at ease. I knew how much burden and guilt your mother's affairs were in your heart, and I knew it kept your head pressed down.
To be continued...