Chapter 24 The Past(1/2)
"You have to catch his emotions."
Zhou Luoyang consulted for more than two hours, and the most impressive sentence was this.
There is nothing to hide in front of Uncle Fang Zhou. First, he believes that doctors abide by professional ethics and will not talk about the situation of consultants and patients; second, Fang Zhou's uncle is also a well-known scholar, but it is just because of his ideals and hopes to return to his hometown to live. There is no place to question his professional level.
"The so-called catch-up of his emotions means that no matter what your friend is in, you need to look at it calmly, put yourself in your shoes, and regard all his "abnormal" actions as normal during the illness, rather than the emotional manifestations of us healthy people. You must believe that those sudden emotions are not his original intention."
Zhou Luoyang immediately said: "Yes, the most common thing he said is 'I don't want to hurt you'."
"Don't use the words "The world is so beautiful, but you think of death. Are you worthy of your parents? Are you worthy of your friends?" to increase his pressure. Don't repeat it and remind him that there are many beautiful things in life. Because patients cannot feel it, and when depression occurs, they cannot feel your love for life."
"Just just need companionship and understanding, just like accompanying a patient with high fever, knowing that he is in pain and torture, that's enough. Once you change to a manic appearance, you must be more calm and calm. They will unconsciously hurt you. Once you realize something is wrong, give him time to be alone as soon as possible and protect yourself. Don't make any arguments and avoid secondary stimulation in manic attacks."
"After the manic phase is briefly over, he will start to reflect on himself and apologize to you. This kind of self-reflection will easily bring him into the depressed phase again. Once he hurts you in a manic state, he will be very self-reported and once had the idea of suicide."
"Binopoly emotions of mania and depression are the process of constantly switching between the peak and the abyss. Think about it, right?"
Zhou Luoyang recalled Du Jing's usual behavior and tried to retell Dr. Fang once. Dr. Fang did not ask who it was, and simply taught him how to get along with this friend in extreme circumstances.
Zhou Luoyang thought for a long time, and Dr. Fang reminded him again: "And, we must urge him to take medicine on time."
"Thank you, thank you." Zhou Luoyang asked with relief, "Can he fall in love? Will the relationship make him better and have more confidence in life?"
Zhou Luoyang knew that love gives people the feeling that the sun shines into the dim reality, full of hope for the future. Beautiful love can change a person and also change his life.
But Dr. Fang said: "If the condition is not completely stable, it is not recommended to fall in love and get married. His attending physician must have reminded him that he should be clearer in his heart about the specific situation. Judging from his performance, I guess he doesn't want to fall in love or even make friends."
The hint was obvious, and Dr. Fang was vaguely reminding Zhou Luoyang not to meddle in other people's business.
Finally, he added: "What's more, if you conceal the condition, it will not be fair to his partner."
"That's right." Zhou Luoyang was ashamed. He had never thought of hiding Du Jing's condition. But he always felt that Du Jing was a very attractive boy. Even if he was sick, as a homosexual, he liked him very much and could accept everything about him. There must be girls in this world who are willing to accept everything about him because they love him.
"Anyway, don't make a fuss about his condition, and don't try to do anything, forcibly drag him out of the condition that he is on the offense. What he needs most is companionship and understanding. As long as there is someone who can catch all his emotions, he will not feel lonely and helpless, so you are very, very important to him."
"...This patient needs to spend your whole life to pay and accompany you." Dr. Fang said seriously, "Luoyang, I think this is the most difficult part. It is not difficult for a person to be patient for a while. The difficulty is that he will be patient day after day, year after year. Many family members and lovers who come to me to consult will inevitably have times of bad mood, but they are just 'tolerant'. If they endure for a long time, they will inevitably be unable to control themselves. After all, we are all mortals, not gods. If you spend a long time on one side, you will easily lose control of your emotions, show impatient emotions, and even yell at him in a mental breakdown, which will cause greater harm to the patient. After establishing a deep emotional relationship, doing this will be more fatal. It is better not to enter his life from the beginning."
Zhou Luoyang said: "I will definitely pay attention to self-resolving."
Dr. Fang nodded and said, "Don't give up on him, you are a good child, Luoyang." He took off his glasses, wiped his clothes, and said, "It is fate that your friend can meet you, and it is also a turning point in his life. I hope he can get better. If he has the chance, he can bring his medical records."
Zhou Luoyang nodded and looked at his phone. Since the morning, Du Jing has not replied to him.
Holding all his emotions. Zhou Luoyang silently recited this sentence. Before going to college, he never thought that he would meet someone like Du Jing.
Has he paid one-sidedly? Zhou Luoyang sometimes felt that he had learned a lot from Du Jing. Especially in terms of interpersonal relationships, Du Jing's biggest life creed is that those interpersonal relationships that can be not maintained will not be maintained.
This is unreasonable in Zhou Luoyang's habits, but after getting along for a long time, he was surprised to find that there are many people in the world who do not have anything to do with them. Everyone is just NPCs in each other's lives. It is better to accompany people who are more important to them than to try hard to please everyone.
At 8 o'clock in the evening, when he walked home slowly in the cold wind, Zhou Luoyang wanted to go back and say to Dr. Fang, "No, it's not just one-sided efforts, but he changed me."
In the past, Zhou Luoyang should have made an appointment with a few confidants to have dinner. After ten o'clock, he went to a nightclub, or a bar, had some wine, and watched a performance.
But after getting used to being with Du Jing, after the long daylight ended, the first thing he did at night was that he actually wanted to go home.
Zhou Luoyang was still looking down and checking whether Du Jing had replied to the news. Du Jing didn't say anything all day, which made him worried. Did this guy leave by plane? Why didn't he say anything? As the Chinese New Year approaches, should he go back to school to check it out?
There was a car parked at the door of the house, and Du Jing sat on the flower bed by the side of the road.
"Du Jing!" Zhou Luoyang was startled.
Du Jing looked up at him and said nothing.
"Are you uncomfortable?" Zhou Luoyang never expected that he would appear without warning at this time. Zhou Luoyang stepped forward and knelt on one knee, checked him, and looked at his eyes.
Du Jing still didn't say anything, obviously a little tired. Zhou Luoyang didn't know what happened to him, but he had just consulted with Dr. Fang, so he decided not to interrogate Du Jing.
"It's too cold outside, hurry in and say, come on." Zhou Luoyang took Du Jing's hand, opened the door, and took him in.
Du Jing was wearing a suit today, as if he wanted to attend a formal party, but finally came to Zhou Luoyang's doorstep.
Zhou Luoyang opened the door, took him into the house, asked him to sit down, and found slippers to change his shoes.
"How do you know my address?" Zhou Luoyang was worried, but he couldn't hide the joy of reunion. He had been separated from Du Jing for a week, and he had been a little bored in this week.
Du Jing was silent, and Zhou Luoyang asked and answered himself again, saying, "Yes, there is my address on the form."
Before the holiday, the dormitory manager asked them to fill out the home address form.
"Have you eaten dinner?" Zhou Luoyang asked again, "I didn't eat either, I'll get something to eat."
Zhou Luoyang lives in a three-story duplex villa. He hasn't been home for a long time and the house is very cold. He turned on the floor heating and asked Du Jing to sit down, saying, "I'll go and park the car first."
"The turtle is in the car." Du Jing finally said something.
Zhou Luoyang did not expect that Du Jing brought the little turtle from the dormitory over, and the plastic cylinder was in the passenger seat. He parked the car and opened the trunk. It was empty, and Du Jing did not bring his luggage.
He took the turtle in and placed it in front of the warm windowsill, and looked at Du Jing, who was sitting on the sofa in a daze.
"Eat quick-frozen dumplings," said Zhou Luoyang, "I'll go buy vegetables tomorrow. Have you not eaten it for a day?"
Du Jing sat at the dining table, Zhou Luoyang poured him good drinks and turned a blind eye to his silence, just like playing with his cell phone when he was in school. Du Jing ate very slowly, but he ate a lot, and ate four-fifths of a large plate of dumplings.
"Tell me honestly," Zhou Luoyang said, "I haven't had a meal for a few days?"
"Three days." Du Jing's expression was a little haggard and he replied.
Zhou Luoyang: “…”
Zhou Luoyang suppressed his harshness and said, "Why don't you eat?"
"I don't want to eat it." Du Jing replied.
Zhou Luoyang originally wanted to cook another pack for Du Jing, but thinking about this guy who didn’t eat for three days, it would be better not to eat too much at one time.
"There are dumplings in the refrigerator," said Zhou Luoyang. "If you are hungry in the middle of the night, you can get your own food."
Du Jing nodded, and Zhou Luoyang said again: "You didn't bring a change of clothes? What's wrong with your shirt?"
When Du Jing sat at the dining table, Zhou Luoyang saw it when the lights shone. He leaned over and pulled Du Jing's suit a little, and saw a lot of blood on his shirt.
"I cut it myself." Du Jing replied.
"Is it very uncomfortable?" Zhou Luoyang guessed that Du Jing might have to harm himself because of his illness, which made him feel better.
Du Jing looked away and said nothing. Zhou Luoyang said, "I happen to have it, let's take a shower. Let's sleep together tonight."
Zhou Luoyang guessed that Du Jing had probably suffered from insomnia for several days in a row. He found a paper bag from the closet, took out new pajamas and underwear, handed it to Du Jing, and asked him to take a shower.
Du Jing said: "Don't tear it down."
"It's all for you," said Zhou Luoyang. "I went out the day before yesterday and encountered a discount, so I bought it by the way."
Du Jing showed a somewhat stubborn and a little confused expression. Zhou Luoyang said: "It's all your yardage. Wouldn't you know it if you put it on?"
Du Jing nodded and went to take a shower and change his clothes. It was indeed bought for him.
"Luoyang!" Du Jing suddenly shouted in the bathroom.
Zhou Luoyang pushed the door and asked, "Is the water cut off again?"
Du Jing was already taking a shower, turned his head and looked at Zhou Luoyang in the glass door, saying, "Talk with me."
Zhou Luoyang was so amused that he hung Du Jing's suit and said, "Wait a minute."
Du Jing was poured in hot water, as if he felt much more comfortable. Zhou Luoyang took his shirt, identified the washing method, found the detergent, and looked at Du Jing again, and found that there was an invisible wound on Du Jing's arm.
Zhou Luoyang did not mention the wound, but asked: "What did you want to do today?"
Du Jing said: "There is a friendship in the department. I originally wanted to go and have a look. After leaving the dormitory, I suddenly felt it was boring and came to you."
As each question and answer, both sides were very calm. Zhou Luoyang looked back at Du Jing. The glass door was filled with fog, reflecting his faint naked outline, which was very masculine.
"Is your hands okay?" Zhou Luoyang finally couldn't help but ask.
Du Jing refused and said, "What are your arrangements next?"
Zhou Luoyang: "I didn't make any arrangements, what about you?"
"I won't go to Japan?" Du Jing said.
Zhou Luoyang said: "I didn't really want to go there, so I had nothing to say to them."
Du Jing quickly finished washing, put on his underwear, stood behind Zhou Luoyang, and watched him wash his shirt.
"The manic stage has passed," Du Jing said, "it's much better now."
Zhou Luoyang smiled in the mirror: "You were afraid of being uncomfortable a few days ago, so did you quarrel with me?"
"I don't want to hurt you." Du Jingru said, taking the cotton swab handed over by Zhou Luoyang, taking off his ears, and the two of them looked at each other quietly.
"Go and lie down." Zhou Luoyang said, "Let's go out to play tomorrow."
Zhou Luoyang's room was on the third floor and was very spacious. The two were lying on a big bed, Zhou Luoyang was lying down and reading a book, while Du Jing leaned against him in a daze.
When Zhou Luoyang looked up, he accidentally met Du Jing's gaze.
Du Jing sometimes is like a child who cannot take care of himself. Zhou Luoyang said in his heart.
"Don't you go out for a party with your classmates?" Du Jing asked again.
Zhou Luoyang said easily: "Where do you come from so many daily parties?"
Du Jing: "Have your ex-girlfriend returned?"
To be continued...