Chapter 80 I Don't Want To Forgive
This "private dish" was quite easy. At least Li's mother's love for Su Guo was unconcealed. After a meal, she didn't mention any family background, whether she had a house, car and savings. What Li's mother said most was that you should come often and accompany me.
Su Guo can understand Li's mother's mood. As a person who retired from the teaching staff, he has long been accustomed to the bustle and busyness of the school. If it weren't for physical reasons, this dedicated teacher would definitely stick to the last moment in his post. In addition, her husband's death and her son is busy with career. She only has an old sister by her side. Although she is a relative, she is the one who invites her back after all, she pays her salary and chooses what she likes when speaking and doing things. But Su Guo is different. She does not take their family's money and does not need to flatter her and chooses good things.
If you say that, you are also very likely to become your own person in the future. In the relationship between closeness and alienation, you can tell her many things that you cannot say to the closest people and listen to her opinions. Besides, the old lady can also get more information about her son from her mouth. Su Guo can see a clue from Li Shuwen's relationship with her mother. I don't know if it is influenced by those experiences. Now he is far less talkative than when he was shy and nervous in college. Even when he cares about his mother, he feels quite powerless and has few words.
Maybe home is the only security fortress that can let go of disguise. The elegant and humorous Li Shuwen was quiet when he was at home.
Just like at this moment she was sitting in his study, he was about to deal with an urgent item and focused on the computer; she was sitting on the sofa on one side, with a large pot of fruit in front of her. Su Guo even had a moment of illusion that Li Shuwen looked a bit like Qin Yao, and she was serious and would not even look up at you, but immersed in her own brainstorm. They isolated themselves from everyone, building an invisible barrier, so that you can only see from afar and not play with it.
Su Guo grabbed Qianxi in his hand and threw it into his mouth one by one. He was so bored that he stood up to look at his entire wall bookcase.
His collection of books is rich and the layout is neat and regular. Su Guo casually drew this book from a row of "How to Be a Successful Manager" to learn some knowledge from different fields. He automatically surrendered after turning two pages. He left the bookcase and went to see the vertical carved cabinet next to the bay window with interest. However, after looking around for a long time, she found that although the shape of the cabinet was quite unique, it was obviously not suitable for the overall decoration style, and stood there extremely abruptly.
"I bought this in the french market." Li Shuwen was already standing behind her at some point.
"At that time, I just opened a company and invested all the money. I was very tight and I couldn't even match the furniture in the office. I asked Xiaoyao for money and wanted to buy a bookcase for herself. She always said with a sad face that the employee's salary could not be paid out. What bookshelf should I buy, and I had to buy less books. If you really like reading it, I would find an electronic version for you online. Later, I saw that my books were piled up in the office, turning a good office into a market for used books. Then I agreed to let me move a bookshelf." Li Shuwen's face had a indifferent expression. "I thought this girl was really good at living. She brought me food from home every day, and her clothes were always hand-washed. Even the garbage bags in the office had to be repeatedly used several times before they could be thrown away. Frugality and not waste should be considered a virtue. I felt that such a girl must be pure and kind-hearted, and I would be happy with her."
"Stingy is not a virtue."
"Yes," Li Shuwen stroked the carved pattern of the cabinet, "Sometimes, stingy will make you sin."
Su Guo finally understood that the "Xiao Yao" he mentioned was the person who started a company with him, and the fiancée who ran away with others.
"Then why are you keeping it?" Since it represents painful memories from the past, why are you still in a place you can see every day? If it were her, she would have smashed it and burned it to ashes with a fire!
"Why not keep it? Can I just throw everything that has passed by me as if it hasn't happened?"
Su Guo certainly understood what he said, but it was like a victim holding photos of a rapist every day, how much psychological endurance is this? Anyway, she definitely couldn't do it. She was straightforward, and hatred or disgust was just like Liu Ruoyang. It would be better not to let herself see her and hear anything about this person in her life.
"Su Guo, I don't want to forget the pain they caused to me, so that I can always hate them and never forgive them. Why should I let time dilute my hatred for them? If there is no thing to remind me of the past, I am really afraid that one day I will be unable to help but forgive them. But, I don't want to forgive!"
"One of them is my best friend, and the other is the person I am going to spend my life with. I will not forgive such betrayal, and never will. Su Guo, you may think I am very sad. With such deep hatred, it means that I am always 'thinking' these two people, making me unable to be relieved. Maybe you think I am so successful now, and you have so much, why can't you be more generous, why can't you let go? Actually... I have thought about letting go. Sometimes I look back and think about it. I am not wrong. If I am good enough to Xiao Yao, how could she be with others? It must be when I hurt her heart."
Although the girl named Xiao Yao was not very beautiful and capable, she had been by her side since her freshman year. He knew her thoughts, but before he spoke, she kept herself within the boundaries of friends, and did not exceed the rules. She accompanied him to start a company, started from scratch, and did not fear hardship. He was naturally moved, so he made that lifelong promise. But he could only take one of them with joys and sorrows.
"But, I can't."
Su Guo is like a villain who is full of odor and a person who can only confront the sky and the earth and never look for his shortcomings, and a person who warms up like the sun and only needs a smile to bring hope to people with a clean and clear person. But it turns out that such a clear person will also have people and things that are unwilling to forgive. Yes, he is just an ordinary person, not a Buddha who has thoroughly understood the past and the future, and no one has the right to trample on his kindness and tolerance. Su Guo feels that he must have loved the girl named Yao very much at that time. How deep does he love it to determine that he will never be willing to forgive in this life?
"It's 'Xiao Yao' who has no vision."
Chapter completed!