Chapter 118 You Can't Have It
Oolong tea. Although people in Sakura Country like drinks made from tea powder, not many young people like this.
"Gulu...Gulu..."
Pulling the lid ring open, the girl squinted her eyes, raised her head and started drinking.
It was very bitter, and the bitterness after the mouth made Sakura almost want to spit out the part of her mouth that she had not swallowed.
Why does he like this taste? The taste that others resist, but he insists on such a preference.
"But... it seems like there is a slightly sweet feeling afterwards. Is it because it is bitter first and then sweet?"
Holding the oolong tea with half of the amount left, Sakura trancedly found herself in a nearby park. It was too late and she couldn't tell which one it was.
Some elementary school students frequently came out of laughter after dinner and were having fun. Sakura watched them run out from under the amusement equipment and pass through the backs left by themselves.
There are also vehicles passing by quickly on the pedestrian street opposite. Through the residences and mixed living buildings in front of you, you can clearly see the figures of Shibuya tall buildings under the night sky.
But the corners of the tall buildings seemed to be swallowed by the darkness and cut off the edges.
Behind them was a dark star mixed with crystals, as if pearls were snatched out of the ink. On it, you could also see a passenger plane shuttled over the sky.
Dingdong Dingdong....
After leaving the park, walking towards the next intersection, facing the red lights blocking his footsteps, and the alarm rings that frequently echoed in his ears, Sakura stopped.
On the light rail line on the ground, there is another tall cherry blossom tree not far ahead. The surrounding road ground is dyed pink and white by falling cherry blossom petals.
While waiting for the red light to turn into a green light, the girl raised her head and looked at the slowly flying petals.
This feeling is like it is snowing, it is a cherry blossom snow that is so delicate that it cannot stand.
The petals, as soft as dust, fell on the shoulders of the coat, and in a blink of an eye, slid down there, landing on the ground and being trampled by pedestrians coming and going.
At first glance, these falling petals are very similar to the light spots that are parasitized on the stars in the sky and are about to extinguish.
The vibrating moans on the phone continued, all of which were from chat messages on the line. There were always some chat groups not set in the non-disturbance mode.
Sakura was unable to pick up her cell phone and dial someone's phone number. No matter what, her fingers were not controlled by her mind and could not move.
Taki San, I still like you even after I am separated.
If this is clear, you can't call him and tell him in person no matter what.
Perhaps I thought of Nako's words, if you want to be friends, you must have the awareness of being friends and consume the feelings of your ex. This is not what you should do.
However, the indescribable inseparable and nostalgic relationship has not only not faded, but has become more profound with the arrival of every day.
Sakura asked herself, why is this feeling of chasing her so similar to the memories I felt a long time ago?
No matter how you explore and pursue it in your dream, you cannot explore and discover what it is, the feeling of anxiety that comes with it.
However, if you want to go to her again and throw yourself into his arms, your mood is sometimes strong, and sometimes you start to torture yourself because of your strength.
Especially taking this step forward or making a phone call to greet you, such behavior is painful in itself.
Gradually, the sound of the phone vibrating is gone, and this feeling is like someone calling himself in the distance.
Why are you so powerless?
What you lack is the power to settle down, think carefully for someone, and try to do everything.
It also concerns the power of loving people, and helps someone share some pain with the help of their own shoulders.
Why is it lacking these powers? It’s like a car without an engine. It can only drive forward when it goes downhill, which is very rapid.
Having said that, if you want to have these powers, the prerequisite is to have the ability to reach the peak when you are on the slope, where can you reach the peak without authorization?
As time goes by, this peak slowly causes one's thinking to slide to the seemingly congested road junction in front of one's eyes.
"Now... do you remember that the speed at which the cherry blossoms fall is five centimeters per second? This was when I was a child, Oh Dusang told me that I also bought a book about cherry blossoms."
At some point, Takiichi's voice came to his ears again, and sakura's pupils condensed slightly.
Suddenly she remembered that the alarm at the intersection began to sound.
The sound brings back the nostalgic feeling that soaks the body's body in the spring atmosphere, and it is restored to the air.
When he was young, he sat in the backyard of Kaga's house in a kimono. No matter how old he was, his tone that had not changed before was still vivid in his mind.
As he slowly moved to the sidewalk opposite, a bunch of student couples who were pulling each other's hands in front of him came over.
The boys' black leather shoes and the girl's white boots stepped on the ground, making a crisp sound, but this sound soon became drowned in the bustling crowd.
"Look...there are so many cherry trees here..."
"Idiot, it's the season for cherry blossoms to bloom now. We don't come out to see cherry blossoms."
"Hey?? I really don't understand the charm. You confessed to me under the cherry blossom tree."
Sakura passed by such a bunch of couples. Listening to the couple's childish bickering conversation, the corners of her mouth inexplicably raised a curve.
I don’t know if it’s because of this, I remembered the time I spent with Takiichi.
But at the moment when she passed by, a faint light suddenly lit up in her heart.
At the end of the light, a blurred figure stayed there, but the distance between them was very far and could not reach out to touch.
At this moment, Sakura seemed to have returned to the past, back to the day when she parted with Takiichi at the station, and after that, she never turned around and looked at the figure staring at her leaving.
If she had ever seen such a scene again, if she looked back, she would have been able to see his eyes at that time.
Perhaps, he will catch up and take the next bus.
Sakura strongly emerged with such thoughts without any basis.
So, as she stepped onto the safe sidewalk at the other end of the road, the girl turned around foolishly, but could not see the familiar shadows.
Woo woo woo woo woo woo...
A light rail car slowly blocked the picture in front of him and divided it into two.
And the couple had long disappeared in the vast crowd and could no longer find their traces, just like that person.
If you go back to find him at some point, Sakura thought, Takiichi should be waiting for him in the same place, right?
No...even if you are not here, it doesn't matter, because you have to take the initiative to find what you have lost. This is a miracle for yourself.
After the light rail car drove away, Sakura lowered her head and stared at the oolong tea in her hand, turned around and walked forward step by step.
Afterwards, on the tram that went home, there was no other important person besides himself.
In Sakura's personal world, she sat quietly in the corner behind her. Even if she didn't have to straighten her back, she could still see the head protruding from the side of the box.
At this point in time, it doesn't seem strange.
In addition to the peak hours of get off work in the morning and evening, there are also many passengers taking the tram at this time.
Chapter completed!