Final comments—but I just don't want to turn

It's finished.

When this idea came to my mind, I felt a little sad.

It was not expected that it would not be completed today, and I had to continue to delay the time every day, but I suddenly couldn't stand it yesterday.

I don't want to continue to delay any more. If this continues, it will torture you and myself.

I want to end this story.

[The story is about to end.]

【Don’t hesitate anymore!】

[Let's launch a grand charge towards the coming death!]

So I got up and started typing, and kept typing until three o'clock in the morning to go to rest, and continued after waking up in the morning.

Snippets, including deletion and deduction, I wrote almost 10,000 words today.

I was a little burned out and I didn't have enough sleep, and I felt like I was floating.

But finally, I finished writing and sent out all four chapters in one breath.

While writing these, I was still struggling with whether to wait any longer, but in the end I decided to finish it directly.

There is no need to continue to struggle.

A long time ago, I was saying:

"Since a story has its beginning, it should have an end."

This is very difficult.

But I finally tried to do it.

No one reads it since almost 600,000 or 700,000 words, and has been persisting until now for almost 1.5 million words. This is really difficult.

There is no positive feedback, no one reads or comments after writing.

I walked in the darkness, surrounded by abyss, and I had no idea how to move forward.

The results have been falling, and there has been no improvement in any point.

My spirit has always been on the verge of collapse and rationality, and it has been jumping repeatedly.

My friends who were in the same journey didn’t understand and advised me to cut the book early and stop the loss in time was the best choice.

I understand their ideas, and I also personally tried to find a friend who successfully started a book after cutting a lot of books.

I will envy you too.

Seeing their achievements, I also want to have them, and it’s very uncomfortable.

As you all know, I am now overseas, and more specifically, I am in Africa.

Life here is not very smooth. I am just one of the millions of people who go out to work and make a living, but the place I stay is a little special.

I... want to go back to China.

During this period, I have always had an idea that is like obsession.

I want to have a good result in this book so that I can return to China to write a book full-time, but I don’t want to continue wandering outside.

But I also know that it is difficult, really difficult.

The more you are rational, the more uncomfortable I feel.

I always have a little luck, and I have never encountered any lucky events. I have always had bad luck.

Can I really improve in the next book like this?

I have no idea.

I don’t want to give up on this book, but I don’t want everyone to think that I am an author who likes and is used to eunuchs.

I don't want such a reputation to fall on me.

Such a choice is difficult and is very challenging for me.

But I chose it anyway.

[The mountain ahead, you must take a detour.]

But I just don't want to turn.

Move forward!

So, climb up and climb the mountain.

And now, we have arrived at the top of the mountain.

You will be on the top of the mountain and overlook the small mountains.

For others, this is just an inconspicuous hill, but to me it is a tall mountain.

We did it!

No matter who comes to ask, I can answer with my chest straight.

“I kept my promise.”

"I have not turned my oath to my friends."

"I gave this story an ending."

Thanks to all the friends who follow and automatically subscribe, I really appreciate your existence.

In the later stages of this book, I was not writing it for myself anymore.

The main motivation for me to keep going is that I don’t want to let down your expectations.

You trust me, trust me and give this story an ending.

I don't want to let down this trust.

And now... I can finally rest for a while.

You may feel that I am exhausted now and even intend to give up writing.

This is wrong.

I am really tired, but I never thought of giving up writing a book.

I just don't want to turn!

How can I admit defeat after falling once?

It’s just a failure of a book that can’t destroy me!

I will continue to write.

Life never stops, struggle never stops.

Maybe I am not a fighter, I am just unwilling to bow my head by nature.

Let us continue to move forward in the future.

Allow me to take a short break for a few days.

See you next book.

Next time, I will write a more joyful story.

(In fact, I won’t be away for a long time. The extras of this book have not been finished yet...)

(When I write the complete book completely, I will talk about my thoughts about this book.)

Spread flowersヽ(°▽°)ノ

(End of this chapter)
Chapter completed!