Chapter 1797 Xiaoyu's Thoughts (2)
When she got home, the first thing Wang Xia saw when she opened the door was Xiao Yu. The expression on Xiao Yu's face at this moment made Wang Xia stunned. Although she was used to the cold Xiao Yu, she saw Xiao Yu's face at this moment.
It was hard to tell whether it was despair or compassion, and Wang Xia even felt that what she saw was not a child of only ten years old.
"Xiaoyu...what's going on?"
Looking at Xiaoyu who walked into the room alone, Wang Xia looked at Wang Yaxin with a blank expression and asked.
"It's hard to explain in words..." Wang Yaxin shook her head helplessly. From her long sigh, Wang Xia could hear her current helplessness and hesitation.
"When Nie Qian left just now, he asked me to tell you that Qiangzi and the others are coming back today."
Wang Xia walked to the sofa with her child in her arms, sat down slowly, and then looked at Wang Yaxin again and said.
Hearing this, Wang Yaxin was also slightly stunned. She didn't know what she was thinking in her heart at the moment, but after a moment, she suddenly stood up and walked towards Xiaoyu's room.
"Hey what are you doing?"
Wang Xia looked at Wang Yaxin's sudden hurry and was obviously a little confused.
Only Wang Yaxin knew that the return of Fang Zhiqiang and Li Xiaoxiao also meant that she had to leave as soon as possible.
"Xiaoyu, can mom tell you something?"
In Xiaoyu's room, Wang Yaxin sat next to Xiaoyu, gently touched Xiaoyu's shoulder and said softly.
Xiaoyu suddenly raised his head and looked at Wang Yaxin blankly. His eyes looked very red, as if he had just cried, but there was not a single tear.
"Why?"
This is what Xiaoyu said to Wang Yaxin at this moment. It was only three simple words, but it made Wang Yaxin frown helplessly again.
"What?
Why?"
After a moment, Wang Yaxin asked in confusion.
"Why Fang?"
Xiaoyu said again, his tone was still very calm, and his words were also so concise, but when Wang Yaxin heard this sentence, she once again couldn't calm down.
This Xiaoyu no longer looks like a child at all. Every word he speaks sounds like it contains countless melancholy thoughts in his little mind.
"What...what happened?
Don't you like him very much?
Is not it good?"
Wang Yaxin didn't understand. She had thought like this before, but now it seemed that Xiaoyu's reaction was different from what she thought.
"Yes... I like him... but why, why am I not his biological son?"
This was the longest sentence Xiaoyu had said in a while, which made Wang Yaxin suddenly feel at a loss. After being stunned for a long time, she tightened her hands around Xiaoyu's shoulders again and said with a distressed look on her face:
"Xiaoyu, we are going to Australia. Are you happy to be with your sister?"
"Why leave?
Do you really not want to be in the same city with him?
And don’t you already have his child now?
Shouldn't you live together?
The world for you adults is really complicated, what do you want?"
When Xiaoyu heard Wang Yaxin's words, he suddenly became excited. He stared at Wang Yaxin intently and said so many words in one breath.
These words made Wang Xia unable to sit still. She stood up from the sofa and walked to the door. Looking at Xiaoyu's excited expression on the bed, Wang Xia couldn't help but become curious about what could have happened.
He who has always been quiet said so many words in one breath?
"Xiaoyu, there are many things you still don't understand. When you are older, mommy will tell you, okay?
But now we have to go to Australia."
Wang Yaxin didn't know how to explain it to Xiaoyu. In fact, Xiaoyu was right. Their adult world was really complicated. It was so complicated that even Wang Yaxin couldn't figure out what she wanted.
"A little older, a little older, I've been hearing what you said, but in your eyes, when will I grow up?
I have been working hard to grow up, and I have been working hard to understand your adult world, but in the end, all I get in exchange is your words of 'Be older!'" Xiaoyu suddenly stood up from the bed,
The more he talked, the more excited he became. In the end, he couldn't help but pat his hands on the bed over and over again. He looked like a desperate adult.
"Xiaoyu..." Xiaoyu's abnormal behavior made Wang Yaxin feel more and more distressed. She knew very well that Xiaoyu's current behavior was not what he should have at his age, but what could she do to change it?
What about all this?
"Okay! Since you think you have grown up now, let me tell you what happened between your mother and your father!"
Wang Xia at the door suddenly couldn't help it anymore. She saw with her own eyes that Xiaoyu had kept his worries in her heart for so long. This time was the only time Xiaoyu broke out. If he didn't let him know everything, Wang Xia wouldn't know.
How long can Xiaoyu hold on?
Moreover, looking at Wang Yaxin's appearance, it was obvious that she still didn't know how to speak, so Wang Xia stood up.
Wang Xia's words made Wang Yaxin look up in panic and stop Wang Xia: "No..." But Wang Xia didn't hear it, handed Xin Sheng to Wang Yaxin, and then stood next to Xiao Yu, although at this moment
Xiaoyu's back was turned to Wang Xia, but Wang Xia still said: "Tell me, what do you want to know?"
"all."
Xiaoyu didn't turn around and simply said these two words.
"Well, starting from your mother's first relationship, you know everything about your biological father, right?
They were not married at that time. After your mother became pregnant with you, your father disappeared without a trace. Your mother searched for him for a long time but could not find him. She couldn't bear to abort the fetus in her belly, so she insisted on having him aborted in the end.
When you were born, one person raised you up, and your mother did it for no other reason than because she loved you."
"Later, she met Fang Zhiqiang. When she was single at that time, she was not thinking about her own emotional problems, but you who were becoming more and more withdrawn. Seeing you being bullied at school and becoming less and less talkative, she knew
, if this continues, it will have a great impact on your future, so she found Fang Zhiqiang and asked Fang Zhiqiang to pretend to be your father, so that you can become more lively and no longer be discriminated against by your classmates. "
"It was also because of you that various connections developed between her and Fang Zhiqiang. Because you were clamoring to see your father, she had no choice but to call Fang Zhiqiang late at night and ask him to come to your house.
Because you skipped class and said you were going to a foreign country to find your father, she searched for you all over the world. Do you know how worried she was at that time?"
"Adult men and women, after being together for a long time, will inevitably develop some feelings. After all, she and Fang Zhiqiang still couldn't withstand the erosion of loneliness, and finally decided to get married.
At that time, she was happy, because Fang Zhiqiang was indeed the man she loved. However, because Fang Zhiqiang's father disliked her as a woman with children and firmly disagreed with their affairs, they had to end up with divorce.
It was precisely because of this that she left this sad place and went to a place where she hoped to start over. However, she found that the man she worried about all day long existed in her world and could not go away."
"I came back because your condition has become more serious. She will indeed be much happier when she sees you and Fang Zhiqiang together. She made a decision that shocked even herself: leaving you with Fang Zhiqiang.
Do you know how painful this decision is for a mother?"
"But she did it. She would rather bear all the pain alone and go to Australia to live alone. Do you know what she went through?
She doesn’t even have anyone to talk to.”
"Later, when she came back from Australia and saw you again, you were already a lively and cheerful child. She was very happy, at least all the hard work before was not in vain.
But now, do you know how much her heart hurts when you are like this?"
"Okay! Stop talking!"
Wang Yaxin really couldn't stand listening to these words that Wang Xia said. I don't know how Xiaoyu felt when she was carrying her, but Wang Yaxin herself was already crying like a tearful person.
After so many years, Wang Yaxin even forgot what she had done in the past few years. Now listening to Wang Xia's words, Wang Yaxin seemed to suddenly realize that in her own world, she didn't know when, but...
Two men were left.
Xiaoyu, who was carrying his back, still didn't turn around, and Wang Xia still looked at him intently. After a long time, seeing that he still didn't move at all, Wang Xia finally couldn't help but said: "Didn't you say you are mature enough?
?
I have told you everything, now, tell yourself, why did your mother take you to Australia at this time?"
After finishing speaking, Wang Xia still stared at Xiaoyu's back. Suddenly, Xiaoyu's back trembled slightly. Although the amplitude was very small, Wang Xia could see it clearly.
Slowly, Xiaoyu turned around, but the tears on his face made Wang Xia startled. Although Xiaoyu didn't like to talk, in Wang Xia's impression, he was also a non-verbal person.
A boy who loves to cry, he has a very strong self-esteem and believes that it is a very shameful thing for a man to shed tears.
However, this time, Wang Xia was really shocked when she saw him crying like this.
"Mom...I'm sorry..." Xiaoyu spoke, but he was not answering Wang Xia's question, but looking at Wang Yaxin who was also crying bitterly, he said these four words.
The mother and son hugged each other tightly for an instant, and the tearful scene made Wang Xia on the side sniff slightly.
At this point, Wang Xia knew that it would be useless to say any more. Looking at Xiaoyu's appearance, Wang Xia sincerely hoped that he really understood everything she said.
"Why don't you ever tell me about your grievances and difficulties?"
Nestled in Wang Yaxin's arms, Xiaoyu couldn't help crying. At this moment, he discovered that the maturity he thought he had before turned out to be extremely childish and selfish! Now he hates his past self, hates the one who only knows
The little boy who lives in his own world, his own compassion, and his own grievances.
"Because mom is an adult."
Wang Yaxin gently stroked Xiaoyu's head, her fingers wet with tears over and over again. She slowly opened her mouth and simply said these words, which made Xiaoyu feel heartbroken again.
"Mom...I promise you, from now on, I will never be like before..." Xiaoyu cried, Wang Yaxin cried and listened, and Wang Xia on the side finally relaxed after seeing this scene.
One breath.
Chapter completed!