Being worthy and being sorry is a heavy burden for me...

It took three days to travel to Angkor Wat, and it was all right or bad.

Although Angkor Wat was selected as one of the four great miracles of the ancient East, along with our country's Great Wall, the Taj Mahal of India, and the Borobudur of Indonesia, I was not very excited. Speaking of excitement and amazement, it would be better to have a feeling of visiting Danxia Mountain in Shaoguan when I was in college. Or, just because I have traveled a lot, I am a little numb to the scenic spots and scenery...

However, a trip is not just about seeing the scenery and playing, but more importantly, whether you have learned, felt, and thought about it during the trip... That is the more profound meaning in a trip.

That trip made me feel that it was actually easy for friends to make friends, and the question was whether I would like to let my heart open the door.

In the past, I almost went on my small trips alone, which was more personal. However, I didn’t know the others on that trip, but we made everyone feel that everyone is so familiar with each other in a few days. It belongs to, teamwork. Perhaps, that is, it is an encounter of fate...

Uncle Li, who lives in the same room as me, actually came from the manager. Because during that time, he went to Cambodia for inspection from a business trip in China, Cambodia happened to be on holiday again, and his boss booked a trip ticket for him, so I had the fate to live in the same room as him.

I chatted with him and talked about a lot of life topics.

For example, I asked him whether it is better to have a career first and then get married, or to get married first and then work hard. He said that this may vary from person to person. However, he said that the most important thing to find a partner to marry is to be a good-hearted and know how to be filial to parents, and that it doesn’t matter if you can live a happy life with someone you are. This is very similar to what I think.

In terms of career, he suggested that I would be better off when I return to China to develop. If I plan to do business in Cambodia in the future, I can continue to do it there. If I don’t have that plan, returning to China to develop is the most suitable for me. He analyzed a lot of things for me...

In fact, I also knew that I was going back to China, but before I returned to China, I wanted to achieve the state I expected before going abroad, so that I would not be in vain. That is, to grow up. I went abroad for growth, not for fun, nor for money. What's more, I was not happy enough at that time and had no money...

So, I just need to grow.

Of course, you can grow in China, why do you have to be abroad? There is no reason, it is just because I was still abroad at that time. Moreover, some growth also requires specific environments, such as abroad.

When the trip was over, the minibus took us back to the travel agency, and the group members got off the bus one by one. I felt that I was reluctant to leave...

A brief three-day encounter, I met each other in my life, and I may never meet again in my life. I feel that feeling, so sad.

Finally, the team leader Xiaohui helped me find a motorcycle to take me back. At that time, I was really moved to tears...

Why is it always like this? It is obviously normal, but why does your heart magnify it infinitely? Just like military training, it has only been more than ten days of contact, but why do many people cry and reluctant to leave when they part? Perhaps, that's because of the profound. It's so deep that you have already devoted yourself to your heart. When you part, your heart cannot be taken back at once...

Going back to the question I am currently struggling with, be worthy and sorry...

My family hopes that I will return home soon. If I return home soon, then I will be worthy of my family and feel at ease. However, I am sorry for myself...

OK, then I want to continue working in Cambodia, then I am worthy of myself and satisfied. However, I am sorry for my family. The happiness is filled with a deep sense of guilt and a helpless emptiness.

This makes me feel that confusion will not disappear forever. At every stage, it will run out and play with you. You think you understand it thoroughly, but you find that everything is self-righteous...

I don't know when it started, but I'm already so tired...

At that time, I really liked to cry. It was strange that it was not the kind I could control. I would cry when I was suddenly touched. I didn’t know this before. Could it be because of a tear mole under my eyes?

Forget it, it’s healthy to cry occasionally. Otherwise, your heart will be broken if you hold it in your mouth...

If you are not worthy or sorry, will you live a little easier?

God never gives me a reminder, it only makes me think about this confused life alone in the quiet toilet.

If the silence is too heavy, don't just tell me...

The air sighs invisibly, the eyes are ecstatic in the mood, and the soul is lost in the quiet, all because of thinking too much.

Thinking too much, it can be said that I have a disease that I haven't cured for a long time. Can't it be cured? Yes, of course...

But what about the doctor? Well, many people think they are "doctors" who have come to rescue me, but when one day I found out that they were also "patients" who were thinking too much, I smiled and cried...

Since the "doctor" is unlicensed, okay, then I will find "medicine" to take it myself. As a result, it still proves that "medicine" cannot be taken randomly! Moreover, there is no "medicine"...

Why do you have to think too much? Because you care too much, and you will feel sad when you feel lost. The more you are afraid of losing, the more you will think too much. If something is wrong, it will turn into huge waves when you think too much, disturbing the original peace of mind.

In the final analysis, it is still afraid of losing. To be precise, it is afraid of being sad.

If you have been injured, some people will become very fragile inside, in other words, they will feel very insecure. Just like "Once you are bitten by a snake, you will be afraid of a rope for ten years"...

Thinking too much is because you are afraid of getting hurt again, and you will always be worried about gains and losses. However, this only shows that you are not strong enough in your heart.

In the past, I didn’t say anything about my thoughts, but as a result, my heart became bigger and bigger, leading to a relationship.

Indeed, if you don’t say it myself, who knows.

Is that really good to always use silence to hide yourself and let yourself endure it silently?

If you really believe in someone, then you should not be silent in front of that person's heart, and let your thoughts ferment in your heart alone. If you are afraid that your confession will make that person part ways with you, then you are not convinced. If you do not believe in that person's belief in you, and deceive yourself to endure it silently, that is forced.

If you have something to worry about, and you are asked, and that person is worthy of your belief, then don't be silent. Because sometimes silence can only mean that that person can't give you a sense of security. In other words, you still don't trust that person enough...

Maybe there are some things that you think are good enough to know in your heart, and what you say may make that person feel unhappy. In fact, excessive silence is what makes a person the most unhappy. Because the door to the heart is closed...

If you have something to worry about, you have to say it. If you don’t say it, you will think too much. Life should not be like this.

Silence is too heavy and can easily cause your heart to dry up.

If the silence is too heavy, don't just tell me... (To be continued)
Chapter completed!