The air was cold that morning, so the sun was gentle that day.

Very gentle, because of softness.

Huh, at that time, I perfected my spiritual world on the top floor of Suriya.

The few days that have just passed were days of mixed feelings. I can’t say it’s good or bad. It’s just a very complicated experience…

At work, because of Sister Lina's return to China, I have to contact more people. Communication is inevitable that I must be prepared to play at any time. No matter how unreasonable the person I want to communicate is, I have to endure it to complete my own tasks. At the beginning, I was afraid. But after facing it for a period of time, it seemed that the fear was not as terrible as I thought.

As a result, I have been mentally accounted for two-thirds of my work, and I often get close to ten o'clock when I get off work at night. And I need spiritual time to improve my spiritual world. When I don't have enough time and I am very tired of my body and mind, I can only give up the output of the spiritual world. In this way, after a week, my spiritual output is very little... This is what I lost.

There are losses and gains. Because the scope of communication is larger than before, and the classes are different. Before Sister Lina returned to China, my main communication was local workers. At that time, in addition to local workers, my main communication was also the factory director and production manager of the management, and also had to receive customers. The most rare thing is that I could have a lot of communication with the boss.

In my first job, I only said a few words to the boss and had no future. In the second job, I didn’t even know who the boss was. In the third job, I only met the boss close, but I never communicated. The fourth job finally made a breakthrough. At least I could directly report the problem to the boss and discuss it with the boss. This proves that the pattern has changed a little.

After communicating with people from different classes in the company, I felt that I had a qualitative change compared to before, because I really didn't expect to wander among people from different classes in the company so quickly. However, it will take some time to get started to face complex problems calmly and calmly. Overall, there is progress.

When work takes up a lot of space in my heart, I don’t know whether I am happy or unhappy. What I want is not work. But work can bring what I want. It’s still the same, growth.

The salary of this job could not satisfy my basic satisfaction at that time, and the time to return to China was getting closer and closer. It is very likely that when I returned to China, my salary still did not meet the satisfaction I wanted. In other words, I worked in Cambodia and couldn't save much money at all. If I had done this job because of money, maybe I would have been unable to bear it and returned to China. So, in my heart at that time, growth was more important than money.

What did I lose for work? What did I gain?

Losing a innocent smile, getting a growing smile.

A smiling face is marked with a person's changes.

Time continues to go.

That morning, I was awakened by the cold. I fell asleep before I could cover myself with a blanket when I lay down in the morning. The coldest time of the day was around sunrise, so when I woke up, the alarm clock had not yet started to work.

Maybe I am used to the heat in that country, so as long as the temperature in that country drops below twenty degrees Celsius, I will feel cold. In fact, it is just very cold...

Just when I was awakened by cold, my ears clearly heard the message from my phone. But I picked up my phone abnormally. According to the principle, I was very sleepy when I woke up by cold, and my hands and feet would not be so flexible when I woke up, as if I was afraid of missing something. When I saw that gentle name was displayed on the screen of my phone, I was excited! Looking at the content of the message, my mood was warm...

So that morning was cold, but the sun was gentle, and gentle because of the softness.

It's so timely, God has woken me up so well!

The day before that day was the day I missed Arou the most. Because...

Gan, got married. Finally, got married.

When I saw her friend sending her wedding photos in the space, I thought I would be very disappointed. But, not. I looked at her wedding photos quietly. Her husband looked quite handsome, and there was a lot of touch in her eyes. She finally waited for this day. So, I silently put a like. That was enough. A like represents my blessing to her.

For me, first love can only be a beautiful memory in my youth.

During those months, I looked through the photos I took a selfie a few months ago. In the past, I felt that when I smiled, I looked quite like Gan's smile, but when I looked through my selfies, I found that I was so strange and no one looked like me.

And when I look in the mirror every day, I always feel that my eyes look more and more like her. She is not Gan, but Arou. Perhaps, in the eyes of others, I am still me, and there is no change. But appearance is born from the heart, and what I see is what I see.

So, this should be the reason why I saw Gan’s wedding photo but was not lost. On the contrary, when I opened the chat record with Arou and found her photo to see it, I felt a little sad.

I was so afraid that I would not be able to deal with my emotions, and I said something randomly, which made her alienate me. At that time, she and I had been silent for more than a month, but I still didn't take the initiative to break the silence. Because silence can give each other a space for spiritual reflection. However, it is also easy to alienate...

I can't find that level because I don't want to see that picture:

one day

"Ah Dai, what are you doing?"

"Ah Dae is working overtime, very busy..."

Two days

"Ah Dai, what are you doing?"

"Ah Dae is working overtime, and she has a lot of things to do..."

Three days

"Ah Dai, what are you doing?"

"Ah Dae is working overtime, dealing with urgent matters..."

Four days...five days...six days...

It's rare to wait for a time to rest...

"Ah Dai, what are you doing?"

"Ah Dai is so tired, I want to rest early..."

Is work really that important? No, but growth always comes at a price...

But, what is this constant "growth"? Is it just an excuse?

I was in such an embarrassing situation, not knowing what it was, but what it was famous for.

Thinking about myself who can't even figure out myself, looking at A Rou's photos, I always feel that I'm walking very slowly, always so slow...

As I thought about it, I thought about it for a day.

I was happy and confused to see her message that day...

What will time and distance make us? Whose uneasy is told about a return date without a certainty?

What did I lose for work? What did I gain?

Losing a sweet smile, getting a disguised smile.

Is this price worth it?

My heart...(To be continued)
Chapter completed!