It has been half a year since I went to the "March Wind" again, sitting in the seat I used to sit, looking at the night sky, it seems that I have never left the country...

"March Wind" is a place similar to a square where people can enjoy leisurely.

However, it is different.

Now I am not in Xidesheng. The one who is by my side is "Little Perfection" rather than "Shanlie".

However, there is a feeling that is still the same, that is, being confused in loneliness.

In the past, when I looked at the plane flying in the night sky in the "March Wind", I would think in my heart, what does it feel like to take a plane? What is the outside world like?

Now, when the "March Wind" is looking at the plane flying in the night sky, I will smile faintly in my heart, and then I will think, when can I fly to see the world with my free and unrestrained heart?

Regarding the future, I always guess and can't see a clear direction, but I clearly have a sense of direction in my heart. I know where to go, but why do I just dare not believe that I can go there?

I am not confused because of confusion, but because of inferiority. Inferiority makes me feel that I am useless and cannot do anything well. I give up halfway every time. And every time I give up halfway and start over again is a question of my ability.

It takes courage to start over, and this sentence is really good.

Before going abroad, I had a lot to do. Should I continue to stay in Xidesheng or start over? I may have different aspects in all aspects of staying in Xidesheng, but my vision is always there. Although I can see a lot of experience in starting abroad, it may not be suitable for my development, and I may give up halfway.

Finally, I chose to take the risk to start over. Finally, I was hit by the curse that gave up halfway.

Now I have to face the choice of starting over again. I feel so tired...

My motto is that nothing is in vain. Although I have given up halfway many times, I have grown up. Sorting halfway is for my work, and growth is for my body and mind.

I really want to find a job that is very close to my dream, because that will bring about 100% enthusiasm. However, sometimes the dream job in my heart is the same as love, and I have to wait until the fate is here before I can get it.

Fate is not something that is negative, but something that is positive. To actively improve yourself, if you are excellent, it belongs to you and will naturally belong to you.

My inferiority complex comes from my inadvertent positiveness, and my inner negative energy is a little full...

However, as an optimistic Sagittarius, it will not be defeated by negative energy. At most, just vent it occasionally...

I just complained. I can actually support myself in any job I do, but the more I think about it, the more messy my heart will be. The more messy my heart will be, the more complicated my magnetic field will be. The more complicated the magnetic field, it is very likely that I will be attracted by myself.

So, sometimes, if your mind is simpler, you may be happier. After all, some things are objective and cannot be controlled by humans.

It's different, it's different.

Almost twenty-four years old this year...

Time continues to go.

I should have fallen asleep, but my eyes lost insomnia...

It was 1:47 am Beijing time at that time, which was relatively late. If I were still in Phnom Penh, then it was only 1:47 am, which was still early. Maybe I was used to the hourly time difference of more than half a year, or maybe the problem of staying up late has not yet been cured.

No matter what, I was just right at the end of the night...

It was early morning, so what I described was the night before.

The night before, I felt a little disappointed, like a faint "sadness" hanging in the cloudy night sky. There is no reason, it is inexplicable.

I haven't tried to buy snacks at night at a convenience store. A figure of a man was talking about his lonely thoughts on the empty road. No one knew, only God knew, the earth knew, and the street lights knew...

I walked into the convenience store that I was still familiar with and found my favorite chocolate when I was a child. I found that there were only two small packets left. Well, it was better than nothing.

After passing by the refrigerator, the light of my eyes seemed to be attracted by a blue color. When I turned around, I saw that it was the blue rose-flavored whiskey cocktail (pre-mixed bartender) I drank once when I was in a bad mood in 2015. The taste was good, and it was almost no degree, but it was a little expensive. Thinking about it, I still got a bottle.

After paying the order and walking out of the convenience store, another lonely figure on the road...

At that time, I couldn't understand why I wanted to rent a house on the seventh floor? I had to use up the stairs for five pieces of pork to supplement my energy! I only took an hour to take a shower, and my shirt was sweating again...

You don’t have to figure it out, because there is only the seventh floor left to rent.

Perhaps, there is really a problem with me asking and answering myself like this.

After returning to the new little world, I opened the bottle of wine, sat in front of the computer, took a selfie, and expressed my mood. This is a disease, but I don’t need to take medicine.

I took a sip and was worried. I took another sip and was hurt. At that time, wine, like an angel's tears, dripping into my heart...

Suddenly, I felt a little uncomfortable and itchy in the back of my neck.

I put down the wine in my hand and touched it with my hands. It turned out to be a bug! It felt a bit like the shell of a ladybug, and it began to climb down, which naturally made me nervously reflex to get it out.

But just when I was about to get it out in one go, my elbow accidentally hit the wine placed in front of me, and the wine was poured out in an instant. This is not the point, the point is the direction of the wine pouring down.

Well, the first time, this is the first time since I bought the first laptop in my life! The wine was poured onto the computer keyboard...

My pupils were instantly enlarged! Oh my God! But I didn't forget to get the bug out! I found that it was a stinky fart bug! I threw it hard on the ground! Then, I immediately pressed to turn off the phone! Then I took a tissue to suck the wine on the surface of the computer.

Maybe it was a little late. Because I saw some wine that had already penetrated through the cracks of the buttons...

My laptop was very important to me at that time! Once it broke, my dance that I had danced for more than 60 times and all the PPTs I had done in college would be gone, and these were just the tip of the iceberg...

At that moment, my mood instantly changed from a faint sadness to a strong anger!

I retrieved the stinky fart on the ground, wrapped it with a tissue, then gently placed it on the ground, and finally jumped up and kicked it hard!

The whole world is quiet...

There was still the smell of stinky fart bugs on the clothes. I was lazy and I still had to take another bath.

Is it intentional? Is God's arrangement intentional?

Everything happens with its reasons and significance. So, what is the significance this time?

Is it because I rely too much on people and things? If I rely too much on people, I cannot adapt to loneliness. If I rely too much on things, I cannot be wholeheartedly and easily lose sight of one thing.

Some answers can only be found in memories.

But, be careful.

What should I pay attention to? Well, just like when I went to see "That Year Today" in the space that day, I kept pulling down and pulling down. After pulling to a certain position, there was no content. However, there was a sentence stopping there.

That sentence is, let’s see here today, there are so many memories, it’s so heartbreaking.

Huh, okay, since memories cannot be recalled too deeply and the future is still there, then I can only accept this situation.

Perhaps, God just wants me to understand something, not really want to ruin my spiritual world.

Sometimes, only by learning to accept can you see through it.

It was 3:00 and 3:00 in the morning of Beijing time. Even if I wanted to play insomnia, I wouldn't want to see my eyes... (To be continued)
Chapter completed!