Sweeping away the haze of the past, I want to become the ruler of happiness! I always thought so at that time...

I accidentally discovered that I have been a prisoner of sorrow for a long time! I can’t save myself...

On weekend nights, I always go shopping by myself. It’s not that I can’t play with my classmates, but I just want to be quiet. The pedestrians and unfamiliar faces on the road make my miss expressions express themselves unscrupulously.

For me, being sad also requires artistic conception. I will brew up my emotions, gently hum some sad background music for myself, and match it with slow footsteps and a sentimental face. At that time, I am my own protagonist, missing the other person alone.

One person's protagonist.

My sadness has been deeply embedded in my low self-esteem, which has in turn affected my external image. How do I put it? Looking at my clothes, I can describe it in one word: all black! Typical black short-sleeved shirt.

, black sweatpants, black shoes, plus natural black hair, black eyebrows and unevenly tanned dark skin. Alas! Am I really that dark? No wonder I was laughed at by the court? After the court laughed, he again

To Yingxiao. Phew, what a painful realization...

How can I get rid of my worries? I have a headache...

Well, let's play chess. It would be really boring if we didn't have anything to play with in the dormitory.

Sure enough, ever since I bought a chess set and asked who wanted to play, people who felt as bored as me rushed over, including Tianfu, who would become my deskmate later, and martial arts students with good grades in the class... all of them.

He's from a chess expert!

The feeling when I meet my opponent is that they will be so fierce that they will fight on my bed!

Then a large crowd of people gathered to watch, and I would shout: "Blow your lungs out!" and kill one of his soldiers. Then he would shout back, "Blow your lungs out!" and kill my car. Then, nothing happened.

Then...I was so defeated! Phew, I can only sing: "I am conquered by you..."

Looking at the hobbies of other students can also expose you to more areas that you don't understand. For example, Bin, who is shorter than me in the class but has quite a talent, and my roommate Wuming are both learning to play guitar. Wuming is not

It really doesn’t have a name, it’s the homophone of his name. It was the first time I touched the guitar and played it randomly. Although I didn’t understand it, it was so new and exciting to me! Phew, look at the two of them slowly playing a song.

At that time, I was thinking, should I also have a hobby worthy of my liking and working hard? However, I can’t think of it for the time being...

Recess is great because there are ten minutes that make people happy. I don’t know how to speak, but I like to listen to others chatting and then laugh happily.

In the corridor, I like to listen to these people chatting the most.

One is Mr. Zhu, a big boy with a very humorous tone and a good figure, but sometimes the irony in his humor makes me afraid to get too close. The other is Wang, but he likes others to call him Bo, so let’s call him “Bo.”

Well, his humor is a bit like Zhou Xingchi's nonsense, but because of this, I can't tell which of his words are true and which are false, and I don't feel safe and secure. There is also a fat guy who is not only good at sports, but also has a sense of safety and security.

And he can also say some humorous words with good meaning. I like this!

Sometimes I go back to the dormitory with Mr. Zhu, because the dormitory is on the third floor, so naturally I have to go up the stairs. Usually I walk in front and he walks behind, and he will smile and say: "Xinong's butt is so big!"

! How can I, who value face more than money, endure such a sentence? Ah! I’d better endure it... Demon, I thought I was going to explode...

Well, Bo, he will use his sharp tongue later on when I gossip.

The fat guy is quite suitable. Huhu, I stood next to him, and it seemed that the top of my head only reached his shoulders. He would also tease me and say: "Xinong, it is difficult for you to be as tall as me. He's five in height."

I would laugh silly, but at that time I really didn't think about growing taller, I still wanted to be a child.

The fat man sometimes said something very connotative: "Walking in a wet swamp, if you are not careful, you will fall into the bottomless abyss." I was in a daze, not understanding. Then, I heard the same sentence. Bo would laugh when he said this: "Don't teach Xi Nong a bad lesson."

I thought at that time that I was no longer innocent, but it turned out that my innocence was still there.

Also, the words "Don't teach me a bad lesson" touched me so much! In junior high school, many classmates said don't teach me a bad lesson. In fact, I sounded happy and ashamed at the same time. Am I really that good? Why do so many people think that my soul is not contaminated? I am just a good boy "pretending"...

After living on campus for a while, I am basically familiar with high school life and have begun to adapt to the environment.

My restless heart is restless again. Because, high school... there are too many "scenery", I can see them all even if I don't want to look...

Huh, no matter how much freshness changes my heart, no matter where my heart goes, the longing in my heart will also go there. I still miss her...

So, I wrote the first diary on KouKou Space, "Thinking of Friends." This is a seven-character poem, and her name is also hidden in it. Yes, she indirectly developed a continent in my spiritual world - writing poetry.

After that, I expressed my thoughts by writing poems. Even though the poems I wrote were not artistic or gorgeous, the plain and simple words reflected my passionate soul.

After I became obsessed with writing poems, I would express the content of the weekly diary in the form of poetry every time I finished writing a weekly diary. By the time I was in my second year of high school, it had become a habit.

Although being sad is not something that positive energy recognizes, it does not mean that it is worthless.

I began to wonder, could I have two worlds? One happy and one sad.

Unexpectedly, fantasies can come true...

"My heart wants you to hear it, love wants you to see it, and I ask you if you are willing to share it every day..." Listening to the song "My heart wants you to hear it"...

This song doesn't have any special meaning to me. It's just that Liang often played this song in the dormitory, so I accidentally started to like it...

Songs are sometimes like people. You don't like them at first, but after being exposed to them for a long time, you fall in love without knowing it. Is this the case of falling in love over time? It remains to be studied...

Well, because the memory has been stored for too long, there may be a little time confusion.

I forget when the military training started, it seems that I arrived some time after school started.

When I heard that military training was going to be held, I was filled with fear and anticipation. I was very curious about what military training would feel like.

That day, I forgot the date, there was a big gathering for morning exercises. Wow! There were so many soldiers. When they performed martial arts, it was so cool! Because the fighting was so real! I’ve seen too many on TV and it’s boring. Let’s try a real version. Yes, it was shocking! The teachers and students present were all impressed, and bursts of applause followed.

Okay, after the performance, it’s time for the instructors to select classes. Phew, I forgot to mention the most important thing. Our class is Class 9, a higher grade, and will be a good class that will win a certain grand prize in military training!

Whenever an instructor appears in front of a certain class, there will always be students who put on a painful expression, and then someone from the next class will smile and say to them: "I wish you good luck!"

Finally, our instructor appeared! Wow! So majestic! The momentum is so overwhelming that I feel scared! He is Instructor Lu! I remember correctly, it seems to be Instructor Lu. I should remember correctly...

Back in the classroom, instructor Lu explained some important things. What were they specifically? I had no impression. After that, the whole class went down to the first floor to gather and prepare to go to the military training base camp.

Oh, I forgot again, there was a beautiful and gentle female trainee teacher accompanying us at that time. Sorry, I forgot her name. I don’t know if it’s because I’m old now and my memory is failing, or because I’m not familiar with her. .

After arriving at the destination, instructor Lu gave the order: "Sit down!"

The whole class was stunned, "Huh?"

Because our class does not have military uniforms, we all wear our own clothes, and the underground is yellow soil! Therefore, the whole class is hesitating...

Instructor Lu shouted sternly again: "Sit!" Okay, just sit down...

Let’s talk about some important matters, and then let’s start suffering!

Standing in a military posture! It's like turning a living person into a dead statue. Father-in-law Sun loves life so much that he smiles so much that even the clouds of worry are gone from the sky. I feel like my life is evaporating, there is no room... …

The one who couldn't stand well was kicked by the instructor! The one who couldn't stand well was kicked by the instructor anyway! Of course, the ones who got kicked were all us bad men!

As for girls, the instructors are still more sympathetic. In order to avoid being kicked, I can only remember those few words: "Raise your head! Push your chest! Tighten your belly! Close your buttocks!" and try to maintain this terrible posture. …

Sometimes, I have been able to grasp the degree very well, but when I saw some people standing in such funny postures, I couldn't help laughing and my body twitched. Then, my butt was immediately severely injured. Oh, I Got it wrong...

It only takes one or two minutes for exposure to the sun to turn it into black charcoal. Phew, luckily, I am already a little bit tan, and it doesn’t matter if I get a little tan. When I look at those classmates who are quite fair, and are so obviously tanned, I was secretly happy: I finally had someone to accompany me to cheat, hahaha!

Military training does not always make you suffer. At least it will make you drink a few sips of water, and then you will continue to suffer.

The military training in the first two days was so terrifying that the students were afraid of the instructors and hated the instructors! Because when going up the stairs, many students had to hold on to the handrails to climb! Getting to the bed was also a painful half-pull-half-climb process.

However, the sunshine always comes after the storm. The joy of military training finally comes!

If you practice well, you will have more rest time. During rest time, there will usually be a program, singing or performing.

Speaking of singing, Bin has become the king of singers and has sung many times. I remember he sang "Fairy Tale". Then, for some reason, he played a game and couldn't play it thoroughly and made a mistake. So, I had to perform. Well, I I can only sing a few songs. I said I would sing "Fairy Tale". Immediately, objections arose! Singing "Fairy Tale" again? It's boring! Change it!

Okay, then... then I will sing "My Memories Are Not Mine"... I will only sing a short section, let it brew for a while, and then start: "oh. baby, I will remember the dandelions with you that night..."

After singing, I personally felt that it sounded really good! But when I looked at their eyes, it seemed like they were saying, "I'm so disappointed in the public!" Phew, it doesn't matter, I dare to sing, and it's pretty good. Gaga!

Later, Ying also had to perform. What was she performing? It wasn't singing or dancing, it was... walking the catwalk!

I was sitting right in front of her, and then she walked towards me step by step very charmingly, taking a very attractive cat walk. Then, she turned around several times and went back and forth several times. Wow! Ying started walking the cat walk, It’s really amazing! It’s so feminine! I was in a trance like a nympho...

In addition to training and chatting, military training also includes thousands of words of military training experience. I wrote it very seriously, but later I found that those experiences were all treated as garbage. Speechless...

Military training is wonderful. Even if we have to suffer, we are willing because we know there will be happiness later.

In other words, pain and happiness!

I just thought, is there a relationship like military training?
Chapter completed!