It feels that the world likes to joke...

When you walk out of the trough of darkness and feel the long-lost warm sunshine, you think you can finally start a new journey! However, after only a few steps, you accidentally fell into the abyss of darkness again...

When you search in the world for a long time, staying close and separation, getting together many times, getting right and wrong, and finally getting a feeling of self-righteous love, and giving everything in your heart without reservation, you finally find that it was just a short-lived joke...

So, I began to feel confused about my future path and feelings.

Two days before the start of school on September 1, 2016, my aunt and I sent my nephew Bin to a school merged with primary and secondary schools in Gaozhou to report and pay.

Gaozhou is connected to my hometown Xinyi, so for me, going to Gaozhou will also feel like returning home.

In fact, it was just my aunt who accompanied my nephew Bin to pay the fee. The reason I wanted to travel with me was because I wanted to get the answers needed for some psychological questions.

While waiting for the bus that morning, Xiaohong asked me on QQ what I was doing in Gaozhou.

I say, worship God.

She replied jokingly: "Please God bless you to start a family and start a business, right?"

I replied with a smile: "Just just give me some advice."

For a superstitious or semi-supercredible person, when he encounters problems in life that he cannot figure out for a long time and cannot make a decision, he will think of asking God for advice.

Perhaps some people who believe in science will find this ridiculous. However, everything has its own truth. Since it can exist for so long since ancient times, there will naturally be things that science cannot explain. In other words, even if you don’t believe it, please keep awe. Whether it is the creation of nature or a culture passed down by the ancients...

After taking the bus for a long time, I finally arrived at my nephew Bin’s school.

The moment I walked into the school gate, I felt all kinds of feelings in my heart, as if I was going to school. But I was no longer a student. The life on campus had long been sinking into memories that could only be recalled.

The smell of school starts is always strong oily and sweaty...

If there are too many people, it will squeeze, and once it is squeezed, it will produce oil.

When the weather is hot, you will sweat. Once you sweat, you will feel "scented".

Well, that's what it feels like.

But after physical practice, it is true that it feels right...

I found my nephew Bin's new class teacher and then talked about the payment. Because my second sister transferred money in the bank and only had a bank transfer voucher. Therefore, I needed to go to the conference room to verify it for a teacher and then issue a charging bill.

Well, this task is mine.

Aunt took her nephew Bin to find the dormitory, and I would try a new experience - not to be responsible for my own tuition.

I thought the conference room was next to the crowded door when we entered the campus, and I felt a little uneasy. I was so thin, and I felt skinny if I squeezed it any longer! Although I didn’t feel any fleshy...

However, luck is like me. As soon as I walked to the campus, I turned a corner, oh, the conference room was right in front of me. It turned out that it was not in that crowded corner, it was great!

Next, I want to think about who should I find and what should I say to make the bank receipt in my hand turn into a charging bill?

Think about it, it's really troublesome. I was just a person who didn't know how to speak, but I had to face such unclear situations. Huh, but there was no way, and I had no way to escape. No matter from any perspective, I was the most suitable person to do this at that time. Otherwise, would it be completely illogical to let my aunt or my nephew Bin, who was preparing to be in the fifth grade, do this? It's completely illogical...

Well, then, I walked to the conference room calmly.

At the door of the conference room, there was a boy and a girl standing on the left and right. According to my guess, it must be a student volunteer who manages order or provides help to us parents. Well, there is one!

I walked to the door of the conference room and faced the boy who was taller than me and I needed to look up at him from a slightly upward angle. I asked in Cantonese: "Well, I want to ask, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm paying the tuition fee through bank transfer, but the bank's receipt must be submitted to the teacher to verify, and then I will issue a charge form for me?"

Then, a ignorant scene...

From his constantly blinking eyes and his unsolved expression, it can be inferred that he doesn't understand what I mean.

Nani?!Is my expression ability really that poor?

I looked at the girl next to me again, and she also had an indescribable expression on her face.

Well, it turns out that my expression ability is really so poor.

Afterwards, the girl still walked into the conference room with my bank note and asked the teacher to solve the problem, and I followed in.

Just as I stepped into the conference room two steps, I heard someone talking to the tall boy behind me, well, in Mandarin.

So, I understood. It’s not that I have a problem with my expression ability, but that he doesn’t know what I’m talking about.

It turned out that although the school was a Gaozhou school, many people sent their children to that school from other places. Some of those people from other places did not understand Cantonese…

OK, it's my problem. Going to school, I should speak Mandarin...

In the conference room, well, it was still a crowded scene. Suddenly I thought, will I fall into that situation when I send my children to school in the future?

Huh... it's not easy to pay cash! So, children who are studying, please study hard! Because when your parents paid, they were squeezed out a lot of meat... Oh...

Finally, I successfully received the charging order and handed it over to my nephew Bin's head teacher.

Then, let’s go and see my nephew Bin’s dormitory…

Sixth floor. Well, a good height, it is beneficial to exercise children's physical fitness.

The dormitory environment seems to be not as good as the dormitory environment in my university, but at least it is better than the dormitory environment in my elementary school. This comparison is really wise!

I felt envious when I watched my nephew Bin and his classmates fight! I was already over that age...

After seeing me, a friend of my nephew Bin kept asking me: "Who is he you?"

Nephew Bin didn't say anything, but his friend kept chasing him and asked...

Well, you know, his uncle, I am a very terrible creature!

After getting everything done, Aunt and I bowed to our nephew Bin, and then we started our "journey" of mother and son - the road to seeking God.

Under the influence of a natural encounter in the vast sea of ​​people, we found an electric car driver. Well, call this electric car driver a irritable uncle.

The reason why he was called the irritable uncle was because when he was negotiating with my aunt, other electric car drivers interjected a few words. He thought it was a robbery of business, and he immediately scolded the electric car driver who interrupted...

Although this irritable personality is not something I agree with, we still took his electric car. After all, the price was negotiated, and he was also the first electric car driver to negotiate with us at that time.

Along the way, the speeding electric car gave the wind a strength, constantly tearing my face and pulling my hair crazy...

After a seemingly complex but actually quite complicated way to get lost and ask for directions, get lost and get lost, get lost and ask for directions again, we finally arrived at the destination of seeking God - Liu San Xiangu Temple.

In fact, when I was about to arrive at Liu San Xiangu Temple, it seemed that I had dreamed about the environment on the roadside, which was very similar. This feeling was not the feeling I suddenly experienced, but I remember that I had a dream where there was such a similar environment in that dream. It was so special!

There are actually quite a lot of Liu San Xiangu Temple in western Guangdong. The temple we went to belong to one of them. Of course, it was because we heard that it was effective. The temple was located in a relatively remote location, surrounded by mountains on three sides, but we didn’t feel that it was spiritual and looked deserted.

The door of the temple was open at that time. When we walked in, we found that there was no one. Aunt was shouting "San Po" nearby. I think the third Po who Aunt called me should be the one who saw the temple. Uncle was so angry that he went around the temple...

This is the first time I went to Gaozhou after I understood the truth, and I went to worship the gods specifically. So, I looked at the statue of Liu San Fairy Gu in the middle of the temple with curiosity.

The first glance is very special and the first look is very comfortable.

Looking at the eyes of the statue of Liu San Fairy Gu, she felt like she was looking at me, and she was still looking at me happily. Her heart would be beating very comfortable. This feeling I have never seen before when I worshiped Gods and looked at other statues of Gods.

It was already four o'clock in the afternoon. If I hadn't found San Po, I don't know how much time it would take. After all, it would take an hour to return.

So, the irritable uncle drove an electric car to take my aunt to find the third lady. And I was waiting in the temple.

In fact, this is exactly what I hope. If Aunt and Grumpy Uncle are next to me, I feel embarrassed to ask God if I have any questions.

Think about it, maybe it was deliberately arranged by Fairy Liu San. She knew what kind of person I was and what I hoped most at that time.

Therefore, when I was the only one left in the temple, I happily worshiped God. And I wanted to find the answer to the questions in my heart.

I saw a "cup" on the god stage, so I hope to ask God for advice by throwing the Holy Grail.

The so-called "cups" are actually a very traditional thing used for divination like cashew nuts. There are two pieces in total, each with a flat side and a protruding side. When divining, first ask the question you want to divine, and then throw them to the ground. If one positive and one opposite side are different, it is the "Holy Grail", which means that the meaning of agreement and approval is to agree. If both pieces are facing upward, it is the "Laughing Cup", which means that the question is wrong or the question itself has no meaning. If both pieces are facing upward, it is the "yin cup", which means that the meaning of negation and opposition is to be denied.

What I was confused about at that time was dreams and emotions.

I first asked some questions about dreams. After asking, I said that if I agree, please give me the "Holy Grail" and if I disagree, I will give me the "yin cup".

After praying for three devout times, I closed my eyes and threw out the "cup" in my hand, as if I had thrown out a kind of hope.

When I slowly opened my eyes with anticipation and fear, I saw that what was presented on the ground was a "holy grail" with positive and negative moments! I happily expressed my gratitude!

Then, I picked up the "cup" and started asking questions about emotions.

I asked: "Xiangu Liu San, I want to ask, there is a girl who likes me very much, but I don't feel much about her. If I feel like she will be a little sorry for her if she continues to waste this way. Will she be my other half of my life?"

After that, the requirements for throwing the "cup" are the same.

I bowed devoutly three times, then closed my eyes and threw out the "cup" in my hand.

A little unknown emotion ran around in my heart. I slowly opened my eyes and saw the "Holy Grail" with one positive and one negative!

But I can't understand why I didn't feel much about her if she was my partner in my life? Could it be that I got married to her because of marriage? But if I didn't get married because of feeling, I would feel that it was not what I wanted...

So, I picked up the "cup" and asked the third question again.

I asked, "I feel very good about a girl living next door to my rental house. Is it possible for me and her?"

I bowed three times devoutly and threw out the "cup" in my hand, as if I wanted to be affirmed.

However, what I saw was the "yin cup". In other words, it was impossible for me and the girl next to rent a house.

I am even more puzzled. Why is the other half of my life not feeling much, but the one who feels not?

I picked up the "cup" and continued with the fourth question.

I asked: "Will the girl next door to my rented house be just a passerby with me? And the girl who likes me very much will make me feel more and more in the future?"

I bowed three times devoutly and threw out the "cup" in my hand.

Then, what I saw was the "Holy Grail" with one positive and one negative.
To be continued...