At 22 o'clock last night, I fell asleep abnormally. The original plan was to get up at 2:30 am today.

After falling asleep, I felt like I had a very long dream. I had dreamed of something, but there was no memory left.

When I woke up, it was dark in front of me. I thought that my dream had passed the time when I needed to sleep before I could clearly understand that my heart naturally brought me back to reality before singing on the alarm clock.

I turned around and prepared to take my phone to see the time.

However, the light on the mobile phone screen is contrasting with the existence of a QQ message.

I took it over and saw it, and it was still familiar and exclusive to the good night saying she said to me. The time was twenty-three fifty.

It turned out that my dream only took less than an hour to go...

Is it because the QQ message she sent woke me up, or because I had already dreamed that I woke up naturally, and she just happened to send a QQ message?

I don't know, but after I woke up, I was not sleepy at all. It seemed that I had enough dreams.

In fact, my thoughts have been quite messy these two or three days, and I especially want to calm down. So, I told her that I should not chat with me for the time being in the past few days.

She said she knew and said that if I miss her one day, I would send her a message. In her message, there was a seed of "expectation" planted by enduring the heartache, waiting to sprout...

However, although she knew that I didn’t chat with her for the past few days, she still sent me a good night before going to bed at night and said good morning to me after getting up at dawn. It seemed that even if I couldn’t chat for the time being, these greetings would not be “not for the time being”.

If "expectation" is a seed planted by her endured heartache, then these greetings every day are the sunshine she strives to smile and the rain falling from crying carefully, just to make the seed of "expectation" sprout earlier.

She was always so hard and cautious to me, afraid that if I was not careful, I would disappear...

She is not the other one. She is Xiao Shi.

Who is Xiao Shi? Xiao Shi is another Xiao Hong, and perhaps it can be Xiao Hong after breaking his chrysanthemum and becoming a butterfly.

In early October, Xiaohong finally successfully quit her job at Sweetheart Store. During the meeting with her before, she said that she really wanted to learn new knowledge and live a normal life with a normal schedule. She resigned several times, but the manager of the Sweetheart Store always didn't trust. Even if she agreed to her resign, she would later think of some reasons to trap her and continue to work. So she felt very tired.

After she finally left the shop, she was like a little bird trapped in a cage for a long time, returning to the blue sky and white clouds, chirping freely on her wings of happiness.

After that, she went back to her hometown to change her name.

During the days when she returned to her hometown, I always had a question. When did she come to Shenzhen? After all, we made an appointment to go to play on October 16th.

Naturally, I would ask her on QQ when she would come to Shenzhen.

She asked me with a shy expression, "Do you miss me?"

Then she would still ask with an awkward expression: "Are you shameless?"

I didn't know what to say, so I replied: "This kid..."

Think about it, the enthusiasm of Aries girls to get up directly is like the strong ultraviolet rays of the sun shining on my dark skin, and even with an umbrella that is protected against ultraviolet can't be blocked.

Later, after she submitted an application for her name change, she shyly told me in QQ that I hope that the first person to call her new name will be me.

This child was such a unique and precious first time, and I had no intention of rejecting it. Come on...

I sent her new name and accompanied it with two cute expressions.

Well, this first time she has already belonged to mine. It must have been engraved into the glorious monument of my life.

So, she is not Xiao Hong, but Xiao Shi.

A few days later, she came to Shenzhen to visit her parents' house and signed up for study classes.

I feel that her fortune has gradually improved after she changed her name. Learning new knowledge is undoubtedly the best wings to fly after breaking into a butterfly in the future. In this way, she will live better and better. I feel very happy to see that she can walk the path she likes to walk!

After studying for a while, she sent a feeling in the QQ Space, mainly expressing that even though she knew that she had made a decision with a high risk factor, she was willing to do her best for someone! Nothing else, just to cherish the wonderful fate with someone.

Maybe someone is me, but I actually hope that she wants to learn not because of anyone, but because she really wants to learn because she really comes from her inner yearning.

Because only when people learn to love themselves can others love you. No one can be by your side anytime, anywhere, and no one can take care of your joys, sorrows and sorrows at all times. The only thing they have always been by your side has never left is you. You know when you are happy, when you are sad, when you want to play, when you want to be quiet, you know a lot, but you also hope that someone will know, if you feel that no one knows, you will feel lost in your heart.

This is a kind of dependence. Reliance can be good or bad. Moderate dependence is not bad, but it will also make you feel a little happy. However, once you rely too much, you will find that your life is not like your own life. The reaction made by the person you rely on will dominate your life. For example, a couple online, girls are girls without any interests, and boys are boys with wide interests. Girls and boys have to chat every day, as if there are endless topics to talk. However, boys will have a few days of irritability and don’t want to talk, but girls think they only

Only when chatting with her boyfriend can she not feel bored and sad, because she has no interests and hobbies at all. Even if she has them, she will be tired of that little interest and hobbies quickly, which is not as happy as chatting with her boyfriend. Although girls really hope that their boyfriend can continue to chat with her, boys will feel bored when they want to be quiet but cannot get quiet, so they keep silent about their girlfriends. Because girls are already very dependent on chatting with their boyfriends to pass the time, and they have no interests and hobbies to pass the time naturally, their mood becomes lost and sad as their boyfriends silent reactions.

If a girl has a very independent interest and does not need to rely on chatting with her boyfriend to pass the time, then if her boyfriend wants to be quiet, it is more appropriate for both parties. If she wants to be quiet, she can also find other ways to be happy if she doesn't want to be quiet. This relationship that is not overly dependent is more natural.

Therefore, people constantly improve themselves in order to love themselves well, so that they can better love and be loved by others. Just like that, if you are in full bloom, the butterfly will come.

I think Xiaoshi doesn't rely too much on me. But I'm afraid. Because I often like to do my own things quietly and don't like to talk much. However, Xiaoshi is also afraid. She is afraid that the decrease in communication between us will make my feelings for her become less and less.

I'm afraid of losing my freedom.

She was afraid because she was afraid of losing me.

In other words, what I like is freedom, and what she likes is me.

She likes me and always has to like to work so hard. But I can't reply to her affirmative answer...

The day before she went to study, October 16th, weekend.

She came to play with me in a car.

I had only been extracting my teeth for a few days, and there was still thread sewn on my teeth. I was always thinking about one question - where should we go to play?

Originally I wanted to take her to Xichong on the Dapeng Peninsula, but she hoped to stay until the next time we met. Because it would take two days to go to Xichong, she would have to go to class the next day and she didn't have time. Also, she considered that my teeth had needles and thread sewn, so she could only drink porridge at that time, so it was not good for me to go so far.

OK, I don't know what to say...

When I went to pick her up that morning, the first thing that caught my brain was her hairstyle. Finally, I had bangs, and the middle part was also good.

The second look was a large bag of fruit she was carrying.

As soon as she saw me, she smiled and turned the bag of fruits into my hand and said, "Please take these fruits back for your uncle and aunt to eat."

As soon as my hand received the bag of fruit, it immediately sank. I felt that the gravity had changed and suddenly became worse...

At that time, I rode "Little Perfect" to pick her up. I thought I would just take her to have lunch first and then play. However, the bag of fruit in front of me became a problem.

I asked her, "Where are you going now?"

She covered her mouth and smiled: "How do I know you?"

I looked at the bag of fruit, then looked at her, and said, "Go to my uncle and aunt."

She replied in a little surprised: "No, it's so late now, I'm sorry."

I'll look at the time, oh, it's almost noon.

She asked curiously again: "Your uncle and aunt know I'm here to find you?"

I nodded and said yes.

She was a little at a loss and hoped that I would explain to my uncle and aunt that the reason why she didn't go to see them was because she was late on the bus that day.

I smiled and said, it's okay, they won't mind.

She still looked worried.

Huh, there is no way, so I can only walk back to the "Xintiandi" and put that bag of fruit before going out.

In fact, I was a little unhappy when I saw her holding that bag of fruit. Because she came to see me and asked me to play with her, but she bought fruit for my uncle and aunt to eat. This shows that she knows the worldly style very well, which makes me feel a little unnatural. After all, she has never really seen my uncle and aunt, so she really doesn't need to buy fruits for me to take them back to my family as soon as she comes to see me. This is very similar to my aunt. So sometimes when I see my aunt at home, I feel very unnatural. However, my aunt is very popular.

So, it was nothing for Xiaoshi to buy fruits, it was just that I was too awkward. Why? There would be an answer that night...

On the way back to "Heart and Earth", I didn't turn my head and talk to her because of awkwardness. I felt that I seemed to make the atmosphere a little awkward.

When I arrived at the gate of the rental house, I looked back at her. She was looking at me with a weak look, and only smiled when she saw me looking at her.

It seems that I accidentally hurt her...

Think about it, I am a cold-blooded person. She, a girl, came to my uncle and aunt from all the way, and I still had to show an ignorant expression. She could not think about her feelings from the perspective of others, and she could not even be sympathetic to her beauty...

After realizing my problem, I adjusted my emotions, walked up to the seventh floor with a chat and laughter with her, and returned to the "Heart World".

Similarly, I took a stool for her to sit, so I sat by the bed and chatted for a while.

She also gave me a packaged gift and I asked what it was.

She said shyly, don't tear it off first, and I'll tear it off when I come back after I finish playing in the afternoon.

I put the gift aside with a smile, a little curious and a little expectant.

I planned to give her a girl's bag I bought in Cambodia before, but because it was a bit big and she didn't like big bags, the bag continued to fall asleep in my suitcase.

Then, looking at her sitting in front of me, my pupils dilated!

Don't get me wrong, what I saw was that her calves were so thin and she didn't feel like she was fleshy, and it was similar to my arms.

She smiled and said that wearing black pants makes her look slimmer.

Well...is there any? I haven't heard of it...

After talking and laughing, we went to the restaurant where we had lunch together to continue eating the lunch of the day. The lunch of that day was two portions of pork stalk soup without pork liver and lungs. Well, in addition to drinking porridge, I should be able to eat noodles.

The store was managed by a young man and two young girls. I don’t know if they were related or relatives. Before I pulled my teeth, I always ate pork-footed rice in that store.

After entering the store, I observed that one of the girls was looking at Xiaoshi from top to bottom, maybe because of curiosity. After all, I went to that restaurant for dinner, and almost everyone went to eat alone. This time there was an extra girl having lunch with me, so it was no wonder that girls were curious. (Uh... it seemed like they were interested in you)

Although I was eating slowly because of thread sewing on the side of my teeth, what I didn't expect was that she ate even slower than me. I had finished eating, and she still had half a bowl of it that had not been imported...

Huh, after eating, I paid the order and rode "Little Perfect" to take her to a place called "Guangming Farm".

Along the way, I joked that she was very light in weight. And she joked that I couldn't ride her anymore.

I felt that the road was very natural. In the eyes of passers-by, she and I were like couples. In my opinion, if her right hand dared to put her around my waist, then she would be close to the couple.
To be continued...