No matter how you grow up, don’t forget the self you like, because the self you like is your lucky star.

At the beginning of every month, I habitually look at the horoscope. I like the small prediction of happiness. However, prediction is sometimes more terrifying than the unknown. Because when you think you have predicted something, you will think about it every day and expect what may happen, whether it is happy or unhappy. If you think too much, your wish will come true, no matter whether it is good or bad for you. Therefore, prediction is also a double-edged sword. Whether you can play with the sword well depends on whether you are holding the blade or the hilt.

In early December 2016, I naturally checked my Sagittarius fortune in December. Well, the emotional fortune and work fortune that I am most concerned about are not very good. In terms of emotions, it is easy to have troubles, which are mostly communication problems. At work, there will be many situations, such as being misunderstood and misinterpreted by a boss, being dug by a villain, etc., which will greatly affect performance. However, with the optimistic attitude of Sagittarius, you can still meet normal performance standards.

So, my December was engraved in my mind with this trend.

Therefore, the small prediction came true...

As I switched to night shifts in the middle and late November, my communication with Xiaoshi became less and less.

In addition to enrolling in a study class, she also found a service job. That is, her day is mainly distributed in her study and work. In my opinion, for her who wants to transform herself, this is really a fulfilling life, which is quite good. I also wanted to live this kind of life before, but my job does not allow me to have time to arrange this kind of condition, and I am unwilling to try to serve the industry.

And I am mentally distracted after working night shifts. Every morning when I return to the "Heart World", I have to sit quietly for a long time to sort out my mind and thoughts. Moreover, the feeling of sleepiness will constantly upset me. In this state, I don’t want to chat at all, nor do I know what to talk about, and my mind is almost blank...

Therefore, after I went to night shift, my communication with Xiaoshi was usually only a simple greeting every day, morning or good night. I said fewer other words. Perhaps my not knowing how to chat, cooled down her former enthusiasm; or perhaps she was too busy and physically exhausted, and then facing me who didn't know how to express it...

Although Xiaoshi and I have not become lovers, the feeling of gradually decreasing and fading is just like the two long-distance relationships I had before. The insecurity that I could not encounter was inadvertently felt like I would fall into a state of insecurity. This is one of the reasons why I didn’t agree to be her boyfriend at once.

Because I didn't have a job at that time, I had time to chat with her every day, which made her feel that I was still easy to get along with. However, she had never felt that I had a job and was so tired that I didn't want to chat. If she felt it, would she continue to like me without changing her original intention? After all, I am the real person who doesn't know how to chat. I am not the prince in the fairy tale.

However, she has been working hard to maintain her original intention. Even if it were me, I wouldn't be able to do it.

When I worked at DSSX for more than ten days, she sent me QQ to ask me after get off work in the evening: "Can you ask you an embarrassing question?"

I know that every time she asks me like this, it means she has a knot in her heart that needs my answer to untie it.

I naturally said, yes.

She asked me with a shy expression: "After more than ten days of work, have you ever met a girl who makes you excited?"

I was stunned for a moment, why did I suddenly ask this? I was about to reply.

She sent another one: "I said the wrong thing, right?"

Huh, she is always so afraid that I will have a bad reaction.

I replied with two smirks: "Then have you ever met a boy who makes you excited after all this time of class and work?"

She simply replied: "No."

I said that when you see one or two beautiful girls, they are very attractive, but they are not a feeling of being moved.

She replied with a cute expression: "Is it?"

I replied with two cute expressions: "Yes, yes."

I asked her in confusion: "Is this awkward question?"

She said, yes.

I can only go back to "Jiangzi".

She also had two shy expressions: "Because I asked this, it may make you feel that I don't trust you enough."

I paired it with two cute expressions: "I thought you were scared."

She replied: "This factor does exist, but don't worry. I have also said that as long as you live a happy life, I will support you no matter what decision you make. I only blame myself for not being confident and trusting enough..."

Because she cares, she is afraid of losing. I know that like me, she has a sense of inferiority inside her heart, which leads to a sense of insecurity that seems to be lost by accident.

I feel very caring about this feeling. When I was a child, I especially liked the plot of watching TV, whether it was a costume drama or an idol drama. The male protagonist held the insecure heroine and allowed the heroine's heart to be cared for. Therefore, when I was a child, I often fantasized that I could give people a sense of security. However, in the eyes of many people, I am just a boy who can't grow up. Not only can I not give others a sense of security, but others give me a sense of security and protection. Therefore, I think that only when one day I can give others a sense of security can I be considered a mature man.

Thinking of Xiaoshi, I posted a pig's head expression: "Follow."

When I replied to this sentence, there was a picture in my mind: she stood in front of me and lowered her head, saying with a little disappointed feeling that she was not confident enough. Then, I slowly approached her, touched her head with my hand, and said two words with a smile, fool.

She replied with a shy expression: "This title..."

It seems that this is one of the professional terms in the love world. People in love generally like their cute names such as "pig" or "fool". Although I don't know how this was derived, I also like it.

In the world of single dogs, the damage value of these names is as high as 75%. Once upon a time, I was often forced to eat the dog food sprinkled by the couple in QQ space. Although I pretended to smile, my heart was hurt helplessly...

Now, although I have not completely escaped from the world of single dogs, I can feel that my soul is free to wander in the world with "good night".

Xiaoshi asked me to take photos, yes, choose my favorite photos for her.

I asked her what she was going to do.

She just said mysteriously, secret.

It feels like a girl’s mind is a secret in itself.

I guess it should be related to my birthday that is coming soon. Well, I guess, I guess, I guess. Maybe I guessed the beginning, but I couldn’t guess the end. Well, cut the head, stone, cloth...

Xiaoshi's service work is often transferred to shifts, and she goes to morning shifts one after another. And I work for a month. What kind of shifts indirectly affects our chat time and mood. She has time, but I don't have time. I have time, but she has time, but I am so tired that I am insane and don't know what to talk about...

Maybe this is the test given to us by God. Whether she and I can get together or whether we can keep going together requires a test of time and space.

I have read a sentence before, and it seems like this: You have to have at least a long-distance relationship in your life.

Because there are so many things to test for long-distance relationships. Whether it is loneliness, emptiness and coldness, or the trust between each other, they can be tested harshly in long-distance relationships.

Huh, thinking about it, it's really harsh.

Although my first love and I met in high school, the relationship started in a different place after being separated, and ended in a different place after more than three months of sprinting. And my second love and I were even more harsh. Not only did I not meet before, but the beginning of the relationship was not just a simple one, but also a foreign country. It also ended in a foreign country for about three months of sprinting. So, I told myself that I should never have a long-distance relationship again, and hope that the third love is the last love.

This is also one of the reasons why I didn't agree to be Xiaoshi's boyfriend immediately before. After all, I'm also afraid...

So I became cautious and hesitant. I didn't want to repeat the same mistakes. I needed time to feel Xiaoshi's feelings for me. I am a slow-warming person. Maybe one day when I really got hot, she turned around and left with disheartened...

But, I am a slow Sagittarius.

One day when I was exhausted from work, Xiao Shi asked me: "Is it okay to spend time on Christmas?"

OK, really good. But at that time, I didn’t know whether to have a holiday on Christmas Day, and I was rushing to the workshop and didn’t even know who the cat was (who is Mao Mao?). I wasn’t sure if I could ask for a leave, after all, the cold-faced boss was so cold.

I replied to some hesitant words.

It feels that her passion fire was poured by my star rain. Although it will not be extinguished, it is also affected by some slight fire reduction.

She asked, "Does anyone have an appointment for Christmas?"

I said, no, I am not handsome, who would have made an appointment with me?

She replied naturally: "Isn't it? So handsome!"

Well, I admit that I had a fire of narcissism because of this sentence from her, and thus picked up a little bit of confidence in the little spark of Mars.

After that, I agreed. Although I really had no idea, that day was really an unknown.

However, she was very happy!

I said that if I could not go to the appointment that day, I could have had her in the next day.

She just said cutely that she would have that day.

I didn't understand why she had to choose to spend time on Christmas, but after I looked at the calendar, I suddenly realized that my lunar birthday in 2016 was the day after Christmas.

So, a girl’s mind is a secret. Sometimes if you can’t guess some weak signals, you may accidentally hurt her heart.

However, it is not only girls who have secrets. After all, there is another gender on Earth.

My secret, haha, I can't even guess myself.

Can I go to the appointment on Christmas Day? Only when I have a job situation can I give me the answer.

Since December, I have been chasing my work progress very heartbroken... Moreover, various unpleasant situations often occur.

Just after getting off work on the first morning of December, I rode the "Little Perfect" to the "March Wind" with my tired heart. I wanted to find some inspiration to fill the emptiness of the spiritual world, and I felt that the life of night shifts numbed me. However, my numb heart is numb wherever I go...

When it comes to the "March Wind", not only can't find inspiration, but it is also sprayed with a sprinkler truck passing by.

The water from the sprinkler truck was sprayed very hard, and the small sand on the road was naturally washed to the corners of the roadside. And I just turned around and was slow to react because of my low mood, so I got wet...

The water from the sprinkler truck sprayed strongly onto the "small perfect" wheels, causing the center of gravity to be unstable. I immediately stopped and supported myself on the side of the road with my right foot.

I wanted to hide, but it was too late!

Just like a sudden storm sprinting towards me a hundred meters in front of me. Unprepared, I could only silently feel the inspirational quote: Let the storm come more violently!

Well, after the fierceness, my work clothes became wet, my hair was wet, my pants were wet, and my shoes were wet. It would be fine. But I could still clearly feel that there was a lot of small sand on my lips proving to me: Give me the power of a storm, even if I was often trampled under my feet, I could counterattack to the intoxicating height, such as falling in love with your lips.

Well, it’s such an inspirational little sand. After a brief counterattack, I spit them back to their original heights. However, they are no longer the original ones. They have added a history of successful counterattacks!

Look at your clothes and shoes, a layer of sand is stuck on it. Well, it is such a small perfect counterattack.

However, their counterattack has attracted my grievances about my luck: Why is it so declining today?! I feel that December is not a lucky month, and even the beginning is so speechless...

After that day, sure enough, I would encounter various situations almost every night when I work, which blocked my output. Either the machine was broken or the mold needed some minor repairs, or I would shut down the machine and help others pick it up, and I would lose an hour of output.

When I first encountered these situations, I would complain and feel so tired! However, complaining and anger were both manifestations of incompetence.

I remembered what was mentioned in my fortune, and Sagittarius' optimism can be dealt with naturally.

Yes! I am optimistic! Why do I keep pushing myself to the world of negative energy? Optimism is also the luck of my big Sagittarius!

Therefore, I stubbornly recalled my luck!

Every night, I try my best to achieve a production of 1,700 molds. However, that's not what I want. What I want is to exceed 1,800 molds, and even reach 2,100 molds! According to the machine's running speed, 2,160 molds are the limit.

Sometimes in order to make a breakthrough, I even gave up half an hour of dinner time in the evening. I checked in, went out to buy a few mung bean cakes, and then came in to check in and continued to work hard. It took three minutes.

Although I often give up a lot for the sake of breakthroughs, it seems that the various small situations mentioned in my fortune are really lingering and keep pestering me. Anyway, it will be right that I can't achieve the yield I want.

Sometimes I am really tired. I really want to take a leave of absence for one night to nourish the spiritual world and regain my motivation. However, I don’t know if I can take a leave on Christmas Day. So, I have to cherish every time I take a leave. I haven’t asked for leave since I started working on DSSX. I’m afraid that if I take a leave once, I may not be allowed to take a leave on Christmas Day. Thinking of Xiaosi, I can only continue to endure the blows of all kinds of small situations...

But the more I hit me like this, the more I want to achieve the output I want! Maybe the law of everything I want is working. Finally, with Brother Xiang's help, I successfully counterattacked once! The only 2100 model was hit, which was 400 model more than the output standard 1700 model.

Since then, the cold noodle boss no longer asked others to pick me up during dinner time in the evening, but asked me to pick me up the plane. Therefore, the 2100 model has become a very rare record for me.

As for the arrangement of the cold noodle boss always asking me to help others pick up the plane, I always comfort myself like this: Who said I was so powerful? Even if I shut down for an hour, I can still produce 1,700 molds, and even produce 1,800 molds from time to time. The strong one is Jiang Zi, and can help other people whose output does not meet the standards without affecting their output. Well, this only shows that the cold noodle boss agrees with my working speed and is very relieved that I can meet the production standard even if I don’t have an hour of output. Well, overall, I am very powerful!

If you comfort yourself a lot, you will be more open-minded.
To be continued...