"I Have a Date with Childhood" - 2014.7.29

I still remember that just after Children's Day in 2005, you and I broke up.

You said you wanted to stay in the past, but I couldn't wait to rush into the future.

You turned around and cried, walking back alone.

I looked at your back and felt so sad, but in the end, I didn't chase you and hug you. Instead, I turned around and rushed towards the future with a fake smile.

From then on, you have become the beauty that occasionally recalls on my growth path.

Now, nine years have passed.

I have grown up, where are you? Are you still as happy and beautiful as you used to be? I miss you! I miss you so much!

Can you come out to meet me? I haven’t seen you for a long time. I really want to know if you are doing well now.

Don't you want to see me? I know that it was normal for me to hurt you back then, and it was normal for you not to see me. But you can't stop me from seeing you, I want to find you.

I will find you, I know that you must have me in your heart. It’s like, I must have you in my heart. It’s not that I am self-indulgent, but that I believe that the love that always exists between us, even if there is only a little left.

So, I'm looking for you.

In order to find you, I thought about a lot of places you might appear. There is only one place I think you are most likely to appear. That is, we will create a place where we study in the era of reading - Pingshan Primary School.

Early in the morning, Aunt and I went out to take the bus. Although the journey was long and there were twists and turns, I also thought everything was worth it. As long as I could see you again...

While taking the bus, a girl in Pingshan Primary School uniforms got on the bus. There were many passengers, so she happened to be standing next to me.

I was very curious whether she was wearing the school uniform of Pingshan Primary School. So, I looked up and quietly peeked at the sign of the school uniform on her left chest.

I can't see clearly, so I'll focus more. Well, it turns out that's not. It seems that I miss the memories of studying at Pingshan Primary School too much.

Hum? Why am I still staring at her left chest? Why do I feel like I am being stared at? I raised my head uneasyly, and the girl was indeed looking at me with a look that she wanted to beat a pervert, and then turned around in contempt.

Don't get me wrong, I don't mean that. I, I am not a pervert either. Oh, no, I am not the kind of pervert you imagine. I am...I...What am I doing?!

Look, in order to find you, I have to face many challenges. How can you bear to hide from me?

Finally, I got off at Pingshan intersection.

Aunt said that she didn't remember these roads anymore. For more than ten years, there have been great changes.

And I was only six or seven years old at that time, and I couldn't remember the road even more. But I remember that the main entrance of Pingshan Primary School was facing the place where I was born.

While walking hand in hand with Aunt and asked for directions, I finally saw a very unforgettable place in a very remote corner - Pingshan Primary School.

Time never forgives others, but it never forgives schools.

In my memory, Pingshan Primary School was the tallest school. Now, surrounded by surrounding buildings, it has become the shortest scenery.

Walking in front of the school gate, the school looks in the memories were almost flooded by the torrent of time. Fortunately, some parts still retain their original appearance. After more than ten years, I couldn't help but feel a little moved.

I had secretly told myself before that I would come back to see my alma mater. For so many years, I started my study career here to go to college, and then returned here after my study career ended. I feel very grateful!

Thank you Pingshan Primary School, the source of my study.

Then, I took photos with my aunt at the school gate. Looking at the place where I was born, I was already sleeping at the foot of the tall buildings. Well, I will eventually return to nature.

Just as I was about to leave school, you finally appeared! At the corner, quietly looking at me.

You are still so beautiful, but you have no happy smile.

I thought I would run over and hold you excitedly, but, no. We just quietly said nothing. Then, we had dinner with Aunt.

We found a fast food restaurant. I knew that Auntie didn't like eating too spicy food, nor did she like to eat too hot or too humid food, so I ordered a meat rice with black fungus and bones for Auntie.

We ordered Grandma's vegetables and meat rice without adding chili.

When you eat, you eat very quickly. You used to eat very slowly.

When Auntie is still half gone, you have finished eating and playing with your phone. Don’t you say more with my aunt? You haven’t seen my aunt for so long. Didn’t you like talking to me in the past?

You seem to like quieter.

After dinner, we took the bus to the entrance of the safari. We saw that the adult ticket was 200 yuan from a distance.

It's nothing, since I'm here, I'll definitely go in. Even though my wallet is quickly dehydrated...

I think some of the small animals I saw at the door were pretty good and wanted to take photos. However, Aunt doesn't seem to like these animals very much and doesn't want to stay for too long. She wants to watch animal performances. And you are still expressionless and quiet.

OK, keep going. I felt uncomfortable without realizing it.

On the way, I was thirsty and forgot to buy water outside. The water inside was full of heartache. A bottle of mineral water, six yuan.

After walking, a tour bus passed by suddenly, and the lion and tiger performance was about to begin. Get on the bus quickly and you can still arrive in time.

I thought that Aunt wanted to watch an animal show, but she couldn't walk that long. Okay, get in the bus and buy a ticket. Twenty yuan per person. I always feel that animals are attracted to humans and are willing to make money.

When I arrived at the Lion and Tiger Performance Hall, it was very good, and there were many empty seats. I found a more comfortable seat and sat down. Since it was still ten minutes before it started, Auntie chatted with me. You who were neglected and didn't care at all, and it was as quiet as ever.

Ten minutes later, a happy prelude rang out. First, a clown came out to drive the audience atmosphere, throw balloons and interact, etc. The children were very happy and excited. The zoo was indeed a favorite place for children.

Aunt smiled happily, and I was as quiet as you.

Finally, the lion and tiger appeared! Many children were shouting happily! But why, like me, you were not excited? Didn’t you like watching lion and tiger the most before?

You ignore me and always keep that terrifying quiet.

When the trainer hits the tiger with a whip, he feels so pitiful! It is forced to do behaviors that it does not like, just for the so-called pleasure and money of human beings. It does not have its own freedom and dare not resist. This is not a fate that it can control itself.

Why, I can't see that happiness is coming? Are you the same as I think?

After watching this performance, we went to the aquarium to watch the performance.

Although the weather is hot, there are many people, and it seems that marine animals are more attractive!

I asked you, "Why do you ignore me?"

You looked at me, and there was no light in your eyes.

I was about to hug you, but you said, "No. I don't love you anymore."

I...I...withdraw my open arms sadly.

OK, the performance begins.

First of all, the sea lion performance, so cute! It's really like a three or four-year-old child saying hello to you and clapping his hands at you. The feeling of getting up, walking, and jumping up is not something that can be described as "心".

I admit that when I saw the two cute little sea lions dancing street dance, I was really cute by them.

These performances are much better, interesting, and more loving than the lion and tiger performance.

Aunt smiled even happier, and I secretly looked at you. I instantly felt that it was a gift from God - you finally smiled.

The reason why your smile makes me nostalgic for so many years is that when you smile, there is light in your eyes, and what the light reveals is a world. In other words, there is a beautiful world in your smile.

After watching later, I kept looking at you secretly, but fortunately, you really laughed.

After leaving the zoo, I planned to go to Xili Lake to see it. It should be the place where I have the most joy of my childhood.

However, in the end, Xili Lake was no longer open to the public, so it was impossible to enter.

I felt, really, that you were very disappointed. You must want to go with me to pick up memories, right? But you secretly hid it in your heart and didn't say it...

I'm leaving, I ask you, would you like to go with me and let us move towards the future together.

You turned around and walked back alone as you did before.

This time, I ran up and hugged you from behind.

I said, "I know, I understand. You don't follow me because you know that every age has the mind of every age. You are afraid that you will not be able to truly grow up after you follow me, so... No matter what, believe me, no matter how old I am in the future, I will love you. No one can replace you, because you gave me the beginning of my life. If you have time, I will still look for you. Don't ignore me when I leave. Remember to take good care of myself! I love you!"

After saying that, I hurriedly took a car with Aunt and left the place where my life began.

I don't want you to see my tears. You are still standing there without taking another step, very quiet, very quiet...

I know that you still love me. When I hugged you, I felt your heart was sad and you were crying quietly.

Although time goes by quickly, my memory can be found in the torrent of time and preserved.

This memory is called a date with my childhood. (To be continued)
Chapter completed!