Memory is innocent, it does not know what is good or bad, it will only treat everyone equally.

Because happy and sad will only be the beating heart.

I never blame my memory. What it is like, no matter whether my heart is happy or sad...

It was the morning of April 12, 2017. I made an appointment for a car and prepared to go to Xinyi's Traditional Chinese Medicine Hospital. The driver was the middle-aged fat man who picked me up and I in Gaozhou. Well, I called him "Driver He".

Auntie had prepared all the luggage needed for hospitalization, so I helped my uncle to slowly get off the upstairs.

I don’t know what kind of variables I will experience when I go to the hospital this time. I feel extremely nervous.

After we were ready, we set out to the hospital that had no favor in my heart.

I hope that my uncle can go home healthy after he gets a pulmonary dysfunction in the hospital. At least, he has to go home...

After arriving at the hospital, I unloaded my luggage and paid the money. My aunt and I helped my uncle to take the elevator to the fifth floor while picking up the luggage.

I didn't dare to let go because my uncle was very tired. I was afraid that once I let go, he would lose his position and fall down.

When I went up to the fifth floor, Auntie was going to find the attending doctor who had drained my uncle from before. And I looked at her quietly.

Uncle is no longer like the uncle I remember. He is getting thinner and thinner, his hands and feet are skinny, and he is so tired when he breathes...

The night before coming to the hospital, Aunt cut her uncle's hair and said to me with a smile: "Jinlong, look at how handsome I have helped your uncle cut her hair! Come and take a photo for you."

Uncle was so happy at that time. He sat upright and faced me. I clicked the photo button. Well, how long has it been since I took a good photo for Uncle?

Uncle asked me to show him the photos I took, and I showed them to him with a smile: "Look, it's really a handsome guy!"

Uncle smiled again, but my heart was trying hard to control my emotions to prevent the tears in my eyes from bursting out...

Uncle A was sitting on the stool in the hospital and felt dizzy and tired, and wanted to lie down. So, I immediately took out the quilt from my luggage bag and placed it on the stool, and then asked Uncle A to lie down, half cushioning and half covering it.

Some patients' families would give us various opinions, and at that moment, my mentality began to change.

In the past, I could not tolerate others looking at me with strange eyes. At that time, I learned to adapt and to accept these tests arranged by God...

Just look at it, I just hope Uncle A is healthy.

After about ten minutes, Aunt did not find the attending doctor, but found the director.

Because the beds in the ward are full, you can only sleep in the additional beds in the corridor. Extra beds are better than sleeping on a stool.

After helping my uncle sleep in an extra bed, I went to help my uncle go through the admission procedures.

After finishing the process, I came back to see my uncle, and my aunt went to have lunch and pack it.

Later, a nurse came to give my uncle an injection. My uncle said at the time that he didn't need it, and he would feel dizzy after the injection. After all, my uncle felt it when he was hospitalized in Gaozhou.

However, the nurse's attitude was very cold and she said she would not be able to fight.

Auntie is not here, and I am not sure if these injections really need to be given, because Auntie has asked the doctor that if my uncle's condition is stable, he would not have to take those injections.

I really want to stop the nurse from giving my uncle those injections, but I am not sure, so I'm very confused!

Not long after, the nurse finished the injection to my uncle.

When my uncle said that he didn't want to get those injections and the nurse said that he couldn't do it without the injection, I felt that the hospital was particularly cold! Also, when life reached the brink of fragility, even freedom would become almost in name only...

I felt mixed emotions inside. Looking at my uncle shaking his head and saying no to get an injection, my heart hurts so much...and hates so much...

I feel sorry for my uncle, I hate myself so much...

Helplessness and powerlessness crushed me at that time every minute.

After that, Uncle A was not dizzy at all, because after taking those injections, he started to feel very dizzy again...

I really wanted to hit someone!

When I think of the nurse's coldness, I feel an indescribable hatred!

But who told us that we were sick and needed to go to the hospital?

Health in the hospital not only represents real wealth, but also represents a person's dignity.

Therefore, cherish your health.

Looking at the patients in the ward and the patients in the corridor, some young and some old are all interpreting the process of birth, old age, sickness and death.

The hospital is the entrance to the world and the exit to the world. Death is like an old friend, passing by you from time to time. Suddenly, he wants to take you to be free and will take you to be free without saying hello.

So, work hard and live healthy, don’t let him think of you so quickly, and then take you to be free and easy.

After Auntie got back from lunch, I actually had no appetite and didn’t want to eat at all. However, Auntie stated that I must eat. If I don’t take good care of myself, how can I take good care of my uncle?

Well, yes. It seems that Aunt is much stronger than me...

Because of Auntie's popularity, there was a ward that had three beds vacant in the afternoon, so we could choose one.

There were three beds in the ward. We chose the bed in the middle. The bed near the door was chosen by an uncle. The bed near the balcony was temporarily empty.

It is always better to sleep in a bed with a ward than in a bed with an additional position, the point is to have a bathroom.

After entering the ward, my uncle was in a slightly better condition and my heart was better.

After dinner that night, Aunt took care of her uncle and I wanted to go out for a walk and relax.

I walked the path I often walked in high school, listened to the music on my phone, and sighed at the changes in recent years.

If...If...I know, there is no if.

I was just depressed and then I talked to myself, if everything was the same as before...

I remembered a song by Jay Chou, singing: I shed tears, my emotions are fragmented...

That night, I took a bath and slept in the hospital for the second time in my life.

And what is this compared to the day and night when Aunt takes care of Uncle?

the next day.

A patient came to sleep in the bed near the balcony. The patient was an aunt, and the one who brought her was an uncle, who should be her husband.

At that time, the aunt was rushed in, and then the uncle rushed to pay the fee.

The aunt seemed to be unstable and seemed to want to leave the hospital bed, but she moved very awkwardly.

After paying the fee, the uncle came back and saw her struggling to get out of bed, and he immediately became angry: "What do you want to do?! You are sick now and you have to see a doctor. Be obedient! Why is such a big person not sensible?"

The sound was so loud that people in the corridor outside thought something was happening inside, and I was watching in confusion.

The aunt whimpered a little: "I... don't... see... the doctor, I want... go home."

While holding the aunt's hands and feet hard on the bed, the uncle shouted: "What are you nervous about?! Go back! Go back! Go back! Go back! Why don't you get sick if you are not cured? I tell you, don't make trouble! If you make trouble again, I will ignore you! Believe it or not, I will leave immediately?!"

The bad attitude made it hard for me to imagine that this uncle was the aunt's husband.

Aunt was feeling uncomfortable watching from the side, so she asked the uncle softly: "Uh, uncle, please say something, why should you be so fierce to aunt?"

The uncle was still excited: "Who told her to be disobedient?! She has a cerebral infarction and her left half cannot move. She needs treatment! But she just doesn't listen! Then scold her!"

Aunt said to the aunt softly: "Auntie, then you have to be obedient. If you are sick, you need to be treated..."

After a stalemate, the atmosphere has slowed down.

Afterwards, the doctor checked.

The aunt was a little uncooperative, and the uncle got angry again: "What do you want?! If you don't cooperate with the doctor, how can you cure the disease?!"

The aunt felt so uncomfortable, but she could only bear it...

After that, the aunt often said itchy, and the uncle started to get annoyed: "Where is it itchy again?"

Aunt will still say softly: "Uncle, don't be so fierce to Auntie. Women need to feel pain. If she is itchy, just scratch her. As a couple, you have to do this."

The uncle seemed to agree with what the aunt said, so his attitude towards the aunt gradually improved.

This is why my aunt has good popularity.

The uncle who was on the bed by the door, his son and daughter-in-law took turns to take care of him. What he was too tall and so he was hospitalized, and I forgot what it was.

Auntie and they also had a good chat. Sometimes when both Auntie and I need to go out, we can ask them to help take care of our uncle.

Similarly, when the patients in the other two beds were temporarily not present, my aunt and I would also help take care of the patients.

Because the situation is close, everyone encounters it because they want to cure their illness. Every family has difficult sutras, and it is easier to talk about common topics.

Uncle A had a surgery to pump the lungs and inserted the tube into the lungs behind him. I know, Uncle A was very painful...

Looking at the wounds left by the ** tubes behind my uncle, I felt it hurt. It all hurts...

Day 3.

The uncle, son and daughter who were on the balcony bed came to see the aunt. I thought their attitude should be relatively gentle. But it was not.

Her son knew that she did not cooperate with the doctor's treatment and also felt complaining, and his tone to the aunt was like scolding a child.

Compared with her son, her daughter has a little better attitude, but she will also have a lot of complaints.

I thought to myself, my aunt didn’t look like a fierce person, why didn’t her son and daughter treat her very well?

Who knows? Every family has an atmosphere of every family. At least, her son and daughter still care about her, otherwise why would you take a day off to see her? Her husband also loves her, but she is not well controlled, otherwise she will really ignore her.

At noon that day, my aunt took me out of the corridor and told me: "A doctor actually said in front of me and your uncle that if you don't have major surgery, don't occupy a bed, and leave it to patients in need. Moreover, he also told me about my deterioration. Originally, I have been hiding my uncle since he was in Gaozhou and did not let him know his condition, just to make your uncle not so afraid and be treated optimistically. Who knew that the doctor actually told me about my deterioration in front of your uncle. Do you think such a doctor has medical ethics?"

I was so afraid that my uncle would think randomly at that time, because my uncle was very quiet all morning, so my eyes were wet. At the same time, I felt angry and wanted to hit someone!

I asked Auntie: "Which doctor is it?"

Aunt pointed at a male doctor with a flat head, and he was still joking with his colleagues with a smile.

Looking at his smile, I felt more and more ugly. I wanted to walk over and punch him hard!

However, Aunt said: "Wait for another day or two, and wait for your third and fourth uncles and your brother-in-law to come over and settle the score with him! I will go to the hospital office to complain to him if you have no medical ethics like this!

Auntie was originally a very gentle person who would not be impulsive. Because of the bullshit doctor's words, Auntie could not control her anger.
To be continued...