The tree wants to be quiet but the wind does not stop, and the son wants to be raised but the parents are not waiting.

I have seen many protagonists who can use this poem to describe their mood, but this time, I have become one of them...

The first time I knew that this poem existed was when I was in junior high school. The feeling of "the son wanted to raise his parents but the parents were not waiting" was not profound, because I felt that everything was fine at that time. However, its meaning was quietly imprinted in my heart...

When I was in college, the presence of this poem in my heart began to become stronger and stronger! Because one of my college roommates, his father, left, and looking at his mood at that time and the feeling he was suppressed in his heart, I suddenly felt very scared...

Because of this powerless regret, you can't control it...

So, when I was in college, I wrote songs for my family, and at that time I wrote a song "Love.My" for my uncle.

Maybe it was because it was written in Mandarin version. Uncle didn't like it very much at the time, but the lyrics already contained my love for him.

Time passed quickly every minute and I was internship. I thought that when I got the first truly meaningful salary in my life, I could love my family well. However...

The internship was not enough for a month, so I faced a bolt from the blue that was extremely unacceptable in my life! My uncle's body was found to have a tumor, and it might be in the late stage! What I don't want to think about is that there are more than one tumor, and some of them have spread...

The dark waves of life are coming overwhelmingly, and I have fallen into it...

Afterwards, he underwent two surgeries, removed a large area of ​​tumor, and temporarily snatched his uncle back from the god of death.

But the surgeon said before the operation that even if the operation is successful, my uncle can only live about three more years at most.

Three years feels so short!

How can I repay my uncle well and love him in three years?

I quit my first job for sales internship and returned to Shenzhen to find a physical job without technical skills because I needed money to pay off my debts. Sales was not suitable for me at that time. The financial pressure and the confusion of my personal work direction made me focus on consuming my physical strength to make money.

I handed over almost all the salary I paid for my second job every month to my uncle, leaving a little pocket money.

Later, when I got to my third job, I almost paid off my debts. I was able to use my salary to buy clothes, belts, watches, and erhu for my uncle...

Later, when I went abroad, I left the electronic piano and guitar I bought for myself to my uncle for safekeeping. In other words, he could play whatever he wanted.

Very good! My uncle is really a master! He has never touched the guitar, but he has applied all the skills of playing the erhu to playing the guitar and the electronic piano, and he is still very good at playing it.

At that time, I was abroad. On the phone, I heard my aunt say that I was very happy to play the guitar and the electronic piano. In addition, when I heard my uncle happy words, my heart was quite sweet. I felt that I was in love with my uncle.

I bought everything I could buy if I could. I also want to take my uncle to travel, but my uncle and aunt always have various reasons not to want to go, so I can't go.

After I returned to China, my three-year period was getting closer and closer to my uncle's three-year period, and my uncle's physical condition began to get worse and worse, and my inner fear enveloped me indeterminately.

My uncle’s biggest wish is to see me marry and have children. However, time has always been so fair that there is no mercy.

When I grew up, I couldn't keep up with the time when my uncle was leaving...

This helplessness, this sense of powerlessness, and this uncontrollable regret are swallowing the hope in my heart. What else can I do...

Time passed by May 6, 2017, and Uncle was so weak that he could not take care of himself...

Aunt and I started taking turns to take care of our uncle every night. When our uncle got up, the people around us had to help us solve the problem.

It was already difficult for uncle to speak by then. There seemed to be a lot of phlegm stuck in his throat. He often coughed constantly, like he was strangled by death. He could take Uncle away with him with force at any time...

During those days of taking care of my uncle, there were two scenes that made me feel very sad...

The first scene appeared one evening. Xiaoshi, and my aunt were preparing for dinner on the first floor, and only my uncle was left to sleep on the second floor. At that time, we wanted to feed my uncle first and then go downstairs to have dinner, but my uncle was sleeping very well at that time. Thinking that my uncle was so sleepy, he couldn't bear to wake him up. When we finished our meal quickly, we went up to take care of him.

But unexpectedly, Uncle suddenly woke up, but we didn’t know!

At that time, Xiao Shi heard a sound on the floor upstairs, as if something was falling on the floor.

Aunt guessed that it was uncle who woke up, so she quickly urged me to go upstairs to see! I was very scared at the time and didn't want it to fall on the floor. She rushed upstairs quickly while muttering...

When I ran to my uncle's room, the scene that caught my eye made me unforgettable and extremely sad in my life!

Uncle A was slumped on the floor with his back facing the sky and unable to move. The small bucket of phlegm placed beside Uncle A was knocked over, which made me feel so distressed...

The mighty uncle who used to be in my heart could not even be able to shout or get out of bed...

I quickly ran over to help my uncle into bed, and kept saying that it was our fault, but our fault...

While tidying up the floor, I felt guilty, and tears in my eyes kept spinning, circling... and then secretly fell...

I think it is difficult for uncle to accept such an self...but, he is also helpless...

The second scene appeared on the afternoon of May 7, 2017. Uncle coughed so hard that he couldn't stop the cough even though he was lying down. He felt so hard and uncomfortable. He always felt that he could not hold on anymore...

Aunt said sadly, "Yes, you can stick to it!"

Uncle sat down and seemed to relieve the cough, but he was very tired. Aunt sat on the bed and let her sleep on her back. While talking to her, she asked her to persevere. His daughters were rushing back while secretly wiping their tears.

Looking at this picture, I was moved to take a photo to save it. This is the love that belongs to my uncle and aunt.

That night, my three sisters rushed back and saw the weak uncle, they all cried...

During my days of taking care of my uncle, I bathed, massaged, and fed porridge for my uncle, just like when I was a child, I could only be filial to this extent when time does not allow.

As long as Uncle wanted me to do, almost everything I could satisfy subjectively at that time was satisfied, except for the uncontrollable objective factors.

Once when I was helping my uncle take a bath, I said to him: "Uncle, my aunt is the person who loves you the most in this world, and I love you more than my grandma!"

I know, Uncle should understand it in his heart.

On the night of May 7, my siblings and sisters discussed how to allocate time to take turns to take care of my uncle.

I took a break first. When the time entered the early morning of May 8, I had a dream, a very profound dream.

I dreamed that our family was having a meal, and then suddenly fell on the road in front of the door and fell a buffalo. The buffalo happened to fall in front of our door, and then woke up.

When I woke up, it was around 2 a.m. I could hear my uncle's cough. My sister and the second sister should be taking care of her.

Not long after I woke up, I recalled the dream, and then my left eyelid blew a few times. It felt strange.

It was Monday that day, and the left eyelid twitched means something happened! When it was 2:00 a.m., it was ugly. Check the explanation. My family was very troublesome recently, and there were big and big things happening. I was constantly troubled and I was at a loss in the short term.

On the evening of May 8th...

My world has changed...

That night when I returned to the room and started to sleep, tears began to gush out, and my emotions were no longer controlled...

The uncle who loved me so much when I was a child, who rode a Jiefang bicycle to carry me to and from get out of class. Holding my little hand, I could feel that the world is safe. I hugged me and raised my high uncle. I used my warm thighs to warm my cold feet in winter. The uncle who worked hard for me for most of my life, so I loved me, left...

The man who loves me the most in the world is gone...

If my crying could be like my childhood crying, it would be great if I could get my uncle's arms!

But no matter how much I cry or how heartbreaking I feel, my uncle can't hear it...

I cried hard under the quilt, and Xiao Shi was by my side quietly with me...

I cried for a long time that night, and I cried until my head was so painful that I wanted to crack...

When it was dawn, I opened my blurry tears and realized that Xiao Shi was still looking at me quietly...

She said, she was worried about me, and she looked at me like this all night and didn't sleep...

So, why even if my wife is very strict in control, I am still willing to accept it? This is the answer, she loves me.

In the early morning of May 9, I also posted a story on QQ Space, which was accompanied by a picture of my hand intertwining with his skinny and bone-like hands. I took it quietly on the afternoon when an uncle was asleep.

What I said is: If a child can lean on his father's shoulder, who wants to get off the car... It's a little dark, so I'll go to find you later in a few years...

After dawn, I found a small basket cut from peach pits on my junior high school bicycle. I remembered that it was handmade by my uncle and gave it to me...

So, I took the small basket off the bicycle and kept it well. Now, I tied it with a red lucky rope and wore it around my neck, just like my uncle was still with me.

After that, my world was a little blank...

Looking back at the family portrait that could have been taken in the hospital but not, I left a lifetime regret in my heart: there is no complete family portrait.

Think about it again, it turns out that the song I wrote for Uncle I only sang it once for him, and he hasn't finished listening to it yet...

So, cherish the person you love.

Finally, I want to leave behind a song that belongs to my uncle - "Love.My".

Dad / dady / Uncle

Different names/same love you

It's the mark that my heart looks for you

Step by step since childhood

You are smiling happily

There seems to be nothing happier than this

Time flies / Half-knowing it has been twenty-one years

I walked into the world step by step / You smiled in the distance

The past time/scratched your face

Your hair is gray / your hands are vicissitudes

You exchanged for my healthy growth

The mark of love will not be erased

The big palm when crossing the road is my greatest sense of security

Winds and rains/has never been denied

A big hug in front of the school gate/is the hope I look forward to most

I hope you are healthy/joy every day
Chapter completed!