Do you think it’s easy to live your own life as you wish?

Well, I think it's very difficult.

But sometimes you can try it... For example, write a random beginning...

Time went back to September 26, 2017. The first day since I left AX, I was not looking for a job again or was depressed or depressed, but my family went to Yangjiang to attend my cousin Jian’s wedding.

My cousin Jian is the son of my aunt and sister, who is two or three years older than me. At the Beijing Olympics in 2008, he also visited the Great Wall with my uncle. So, he could give me a little special feeling - I would imagine the scene of my uncle playing the Great Wall with him back then.

During the two days of attending the wedding in Yangjiang, I was a passive existence. I didn’t like the excitement because I had to meet many people and face many worldly ways, but I grew up in a family full of worldly ways, so I couldn’t avoid these disliked existences at all.

Those pictures that are invisible in my impression are skipped, and I only pick up the pictures I want...

Also present at the wedding was Agui's cousin. He had been a soldier and had completely transformed into a mature man, responsible for his family and knew how to deal with interpersonal relationships. He worked hard to achieve all the requests made by his wife without regrets. If it were me, I would really not be able to withstand...

For example, it is necessary to give no less than a few red envelopes to your wife's family, whether to buy a motorcycle to work after marriage, etc. If this is a family with a good economic environment, it is not a problem. But the problem is that there is no money. Agui's cousin had borrowed a lot of money to hold the wedding before, and he was still trying to pay off his debts after marriage, but at the same time he had to add those issues closely related to money, and more than that, his wife has been pregnant for several months, and the burden of the whole family is on him alone, so he is really under great pressure to doubt his life.

I was talking to him on the rooftop about these post-marriage experiences. After all, I am also a wife. Although he told me that these were a little sighing tone, the smile on his face had never disappeared, as if there was a special optimism lingering around him. He felt that he had become particularly charming!

Think about myself, where is my optimism? Where have I died? Alas...

While listening to other people's chats, I also witnessed a special existence - a boy who has had blurred vision since he was a child and has almost no way to see the road, but has never been to school but can explore it by himself and recognize many words, and has also stroking and playing with mobile phone typing, and even taught by himself that he has mastered the skill of massage.

It feels, this is very inspiring.

No one knows why he is so powerful. He has never been to school and studied. How did he know and write? His eyesight is very low. At most, he can only see a little blurry light in his right eye. He can't see anything in his left eye, but he can walk without falling, and never get lost. How did he do it? There are many things to remember in massage skills, and he must know a lot about the bones of the human body, but he quickly got started. He has been doing it for eight years. It can be said that he is a master who knows massage! Some normal people may not be able to learn so well, but he proves himself...

My second sister often had difficulty breathing at that time. After asking him to press the bones behind her, she felt much more comfortable. I watched him massage while talking about the bones, which felt like looking at a master.

He had physical defects and actually lived in a state of life that many normal people could not live in. For example, I seemed to have an illusion that he was healthy and I was flawed.

I, I can't find any skills I have, it's so down...

He was born with flaws and was unfortunate because he could not see this beautiful world better, but he was lucky when he grew up because God did not give him complete health, but gave him a talent that was different from ordinary people, allowing him to live like a normal person.

God is fair. If you take yours, you will always compensate you. Similarly, if you give it, you will also take some of it as interest.

Maybe, I belong to the one behind...

I lived so happy when I was a child that I have been deprived of so much left.

On the first night of the wedding, my cousin Jian asked everyone to sing on KTV, and it was pretty good to have fun. Anyway, I am just a quiet existence, just like "Onion".

At noon the second day of the wedding, I was embarrassed...

We are about to go back. When we went out, we saw a strange young woman at the door. I thought she was my uncle's relative, so I glanced at her and walked over without saying hello. After all, I am such a person who doesn't know how to communicate.

But then I realized, Oh my God! She is the wife whom my cousin Jiangang married into the house! My cousin's wife!

The difference between putting on makeup and taking off makeup has messed up and embarrassed me... I have to say that my cousin is healthy and has married such a beautiful wife.

Afterwards, everyone went on a small trip...

Because it feels very light, so let it fade away...

What kind of life can I live? The past I really can't think of the me who appeared in me, and now I can't think of the me who will be in the future.

But, at that time, at that moment, at that moment, at that time, at that time, at that time, can decide what I want to live.

A difference in thought, without if, yes, no, no, change, and sink, sink, you are degraded. Your current or future appearance is all created by yourself. Whether it is good or bad, it is all in your own hands.

Well, do I like what I am now?

If I don't like it, how should I fix it?
Chapter completed!