I heard that men who don’t smoke or drink are very selfish. I don’t smoke and don’t like drinking, but I still have to drink in necessary occasions. So, am I just a selfish person?!

Yes, I am indeed a very selfish person. Since I was a child, I have been.

In my toy world, I cherish my toys very much. However, there will always be other playmates coming to me to play with. Given the teachings of my uncle and aunt, I should give some toys and other playmates to play with. I generally don’t want to because they don’t know how to play, and they easily do things that hurt me. The wheel of a good car mysteriously disappeared, and a doll’s arm was broken for no reason...

What I left behind is the remains of my favorite toys. It’s pitiful! I can only carefully preserve the remains of my favorite toys, occasionally talk to them, and occasionally use them to think of stories. So, I have to be selfish! Only those who know me, I trust, and who cherish my things will tear off my selfish mask. Of course, I am not selfish to Jing. But she borrowed my hula hoop to play with it, and I refused. It’s not that I am selfish, but that I like to compete with her.

When I was in preschool, I had art classes. Generally, I would use a thin piece of white paper to cover a pattern and then slowly “print” like a book. It was at that time that I had a little fun in painting, so that I could lay the foundation for my future love for painting. I seemed to like painting very much.

Jing always likes to scare me, but I believe it.

One night, we looked at the stars. She asked me to point to the crescent moon. I didn’t know why, but I pointed in a daze. Then, she laughed and said to me: “Haha! You’re terrible! Mom said that crescent moon cannot be pointed with her fingers. If she pointed, her ears would be cut off by crescent moon at night.”

I was stunned for a moment, touched my ear and said, "I don't believe it! You lied to me! My aunt never told me!"

She gave me an example of having her ear cut. I don’t know if I have any. But I was already scared. Finally, she became more and more excited as she spoke! Hahaha! I went home crying and looked for my aunt...

Once I hit a butterfly.

A white butterfly flew around me and her head. Jing wanted to hit it, jumped up and clapped her hands. She kept jumping and hitting it, and I watched it blankly. She didn't even hit her.

I said, "Oh, let me do it!"

Prepare your movements, half-squat, prepare, get up! Slap! Yes, the butterfly is already in the combination of my palms! I didn't let go of my hands, so Jing rushed over and see.

I slowly let a gap open with my palm, slowly, slowly, and then, the butterfly flew away...

He wasn't dead? He left a white powder in the palm of my hand. Jing scared me again: "You are miserable! Mom said that when your hand touches the butterfly's wings, it will rot and grow old quickly!!"

There is no way, I believe it again! I went to look for Aunt again...

Huh, but I think the scene where the butterfly flew out of my palm was so artistic. It was like letting out a hope. And under the wings of hope, it was Jing and I, two pairs of innocent eyes, were staring blankly. Well, the beauty was in my heart.

At that time, I liked blue and red. Why? Because, at that time, I thought blue represents boys, so I liked it. Some people would ask: "Many colors can represent boys. Why do I like blue?"

The answer is, I don’t know either. I just know that I feel so happy when I look at the blue sky!

As for why I like red? It was because "Five-Star Warrior" at that time fascinated me! The most leading five-star warrior among the five-star warriors was the red male warrior.

Jing, I tried to argue with me about the topic of "Does red mean men or women?"

She said that the red clothes were worn by girls. At that time, my aunt happened to buy a red clothes with a five-star warrior printed on it for me to wear. She attacked me with a slut, and I could only use a lip gun to resist the attack.

I objected: "The red warriors in the five-star warrior are male, so red represents boys!"

Although I said that, I have no confidence! After all, girls wear more red clothes. After a debate, I probably lost a crushing defeat.

Tell the truth, I don’t like to beat her either. Huhu, or even more so, I can’t beat her either. Huhu...

In terms of study, she and I were a relatively match! Because we both received the "Good Child" certificate issued by Teacher Zhong. Looking at the certificate, it seemed as if we saw the happy times when I practiced writing with her.

In terms of travel, our parents took us to the Window of the World, Happy Valley, the Bright Chinese National Cultural Village, and the Xili Lake Zoo. Among these attractions, we have happy memories of our childhood.

But no matter how happy you are, you still cannot change the fact that you want to part.

It seems that the story between her and me is not much left in my memory. Do you blame me for having a bad memory or for time passing too quickly?

Really, the years are "quiet".

That day, my uncle and aunt told me: "Our vegetable field is going to be expropriated and we will soon move to Daling Mountain, Dongguan."

I was very happy at that time because I could take the bus and watch the bus. By the way, I asked: "Jing, are you moving to Dalingshanya with us?"

Aunt shook her head, "No, her father drives a truck, so he doesn't need to move to Dalingshan. Maybe, let's live in Shenzhen first."

At that moment, I couldn't feel what happiness was.

On the afternoon before moving, I went to my aunt Xiu's house to play. Not far from my house, she and her son-in-law raised pigs and saved money. Aunt Xiu's son, my cousin Weicheng, is a little older than me. He treats me very well, gives me toys and gives me a lot of delicious food. However, he always likes to tease his big dog to scare me. I am a very timid child, very afraid of barking people. That day, I said goodbye. After all, I was about to move, so of course I have to say a word. When I got home, my cousin Weicheng gave me a few packs of snacks and took them home to eat.

Because I was about to say goodbye, I chatted with Jing. I ate snacks together, laughed together, and talked about the future when we grew up. Yes, what will happen to her and me in the future?

At that time, I really hoped that time could stay at that moment, and smiled happily without saying goodbye...

However, time is not known.

That night, before going to bed, I thought: When I say goodbye to Jing tomorrow, why not hug her and go to bed...

When I was sleeping hazy, my aunt woke me up: "Golden Dragon, get up, let's move."

I found it strange, it was not dawn yet. I asked, "Aunt, it's not dawn yet."

Aunt replied in a hurry: "It's convenient to move breakfast. There are fewer cars on the way. When you arrive at Daling Mountain, you have to move things out. Good morning."

In a hurry, I was sitting in the secondary seat of the truck.

The car left, and I turned around and looked at the familiar home.

I haven't said goodbye to Jing yet, I haven't hugged Jing yet, I still haven't said anything to Jing, I... secretly cried...

The truck is still moving forward numbly in the dark morning. The street lights on the roadside facing me with tears are flashing sadly for me.

I told myself secretly: Jing, I can't bear to leave you... I can't bear to leave you... I can't bear to leave you...

In my mind, I was frantically searching for the beauty of quietness.

The quiet that has already "sincere" with me;

Let me practice the quietness of writing with me happily;

I walk with me every day to and from school;

Often fight with me for the quietness of this and that;

There will always be quiet that smiles with me tacit understanding;

On the surface, I often laugh at me, but in fact I don’t laugh at my quietness;

Let me play with Shenzhen Window of the World, Happy Valley, the Bright Chinese National Cultural Village, and the quiet of Xili Lake Zoo;

Jing received the "Good Child" certificate issued by Teacher Zhong with me;

I always scare my quietness;

I always accidentally cry;

......

I did not say goodbye to the quiet;

I didn't hold Jing a little;

I didn't hear the quietness of "I like you"...

The truck was numb for a long time, but finally reached Daling Mountain. I tried hard to open my tears that had just closed for a while. In the sunny and beautiful weather, a new vision rushed into my eyes. New nature!

But Jing is no longer by my side...
Chapter completed!