I know that God is helping me counterattack.

Therefore, I will use deeper blows every time to encourage me to change.

I have always been focusing on "tolerance". I can endure it, but I have no counterattack, just waiting for an opportunity.

But while waiting, the mind is constantly worn out.

I always feel that everything will be fine, and I will just endure it, and I don’t even want dignity.

Looking back, I was so stupid.

I went to Ruan to buy vegetables this morning and met my brother-in-law Ming by chance.

Well, he was about to become a father. When he returned to his hometown the night before yesterday, he planned to take his wife to apply for a birth certificate.

After meeting him, I greeted him with a smile on my face.

Afterwards, he asked a question that made me uncomfortable: "Did you always play at home?"

I said, no, I studied and regulated my body.

He would not ask this question for no reason. I think it was his father or his eldest father who sent him such a message.

My father and my eldest father thought I hadn't adjusted it for so long, so it was easy to think that I was playing at home.

Haha, it seems like I enjoyed this disease very much.

After that, I asked him questions with a smile on my face, and he responded to me in a calm manner while walking.

I feel that I am always pleased him.

In front of my brother-in-law, I didn't look like a brother-in-law at all.

Afterwards, he asked a question about my aunt a long time ago.

I denied those contents and kept explaining them, indicating that they were misunderstandings.

Well, that was a misunderstanding caused by my dear, which was conveyed to my dad. My dad also severed the message and then conveyed it to my brother-in-law Ming or to chat with others as a topic of chatting.

About my dear, I really don't know how to evaluate it.

The current economic income of my entire family comes from her, and she supports the material needs of my entire family. In this regard, I am very moved and one of the reasons why I love her.

However, 90% of the pressure I have psychologically come from my dear directly or indirectly.

In other words, my dear is saving me on one side, while the other side is constantly hurting me.

Well, save me materially and destroy me spiritually.

Perhaps, it is destined to be like this fate of falling in love and killing each other.

While explaining to my brother-in-law, he ignored me. I was like a salesperson selling products. He was the customer I met on the road and kept selling to him. He might even be a little disgusted.

Well, where is dignity?

I have put all the dignity of being a human being and the dignity of the Liu family, and it has been broken...

Finally, after a few greetings, I came back from buying vegetables.

But, I've been tolerated enough...

In the past, I just heard my dear tell me that almost everyone in her house felt sorry for her and thought I was useless...

I thought that was just something my dear said to deliberately motivate me.

And it was not until I faced my brother-in-law Ming, who had spoken to me naturally, that I realized that it was true.

That kind of perfunctory and disgust that ignorantly hurts the heart under my smile all the time.

In other words, the people from my dear parents' home all look at me with this kind of perspective.

Well, this feeling is even more uncomfortable than selling to passers-by in my first internship, because I don’t need to face those passers-by who ignore me after they leave. But I can’t not face the people from my dear mother’s family.

Even if you are looked down upon, you must grit your teeth and smile and face it.

Well, this can finally hurt me deeply.

Too awesome!

I think I am optimistic enough, but it can also hurt me hard.

Well, really, it's amazing to have nothing to say!

I can no longer regard these experiences as a test, but a shame.

It’s okay if you don’t have your own dignity, but you don’t even want the dignity of your family, and you will still end up like a waste.

Know your shame and be brave.

From now on, look up and be a human being.

The lower your head, the less you look down on it, and even worse than a dog.

Be an ascetic person, and don’t want to smile at some people who don’t know you. It feels like you are using your hot face to stick someone else’s cold butt.

Work hard and make a comeback as soon as possible.

The person you should love will still love.

People you shouldn't love are just thinking about loving the house and love, and love them perfunctorily.

The sunshine is very warm on me, not only because it is the sunshine is originally warm, but also my heart is very hot at the moment. (To be continued)
Chapter completed!