I don’t know how long this article will be, but I just feel that there are many ideas to express.

It is December 14, 2019 at 15:40 pm. I was sitting on the audience stage of the "March Wind" football stadium and feeling the familiarity I used to be. Well, I feel like I haven't been here for a long time. I have almost forgotten it in the past two years...

Sure enough, being able to write here quietly and comfortably is really a pleasure.

As for why I chose this place, it was because "Xiao Fengfeng" was hungry and "filled his stomach" nearby and had to fill it until 5:30 in the afternoon. And I just came back from the hospital, and at 6:00 in the evening, I also wanted to pick up my dear home, so I just wrote something on "March Feng" while waiting for the time to pass.

This week was a very stressful week, because my dear wanted to talk to her parents this weekend. Naturally, I had to go there too. If I couldn't get over, I couldn't get over it.

But if I hadn't found a job yet, then the possibility of being told by my dad is very high. Well, I don't have the job or financial ability, and I don't have the courage to face my parents...

After all, which parent would like to see their daughter marry a person who is inexpensive?

Fortunately, my dear was also very open-minded and said that she would be told by her father from time to time that she would not care about face, and she would say whatever she wanted.

Well, I'm just a "record player". I'll accept it when I say harshly. Only with this mentality can I make myself less afraid.

But the real power comes from my dear understanding me, which is very important to me!

Say whatever you want. People who are not financially capable have no say, and sooner or later I will overcome this hurdle.

It is difficult to find the job I want, after all, it is almost the end of the year. Well, I really need money.

So, I began to wonder whether to find a temporary worker to do it first and subsidize some household expenses.

Well, so I went to the nearby recruitment notice yesterday.

I saw a toy company recruiting temporary workers, and the salary could be settled every week and there was no need to work two shifts, which was very in line with my requirements.

However, it is not a toy for children, but an alternative toy for adults.

Although there is no distinction between high and low careers, I still feel a little resistant. Could it be that I have no other way to go?

Without comparison, you won’t know how good you once had. Even if it’s just a job.

When you don’t have a job, even a low-wage job looks extremely dazzling.

When I was single, I felt unhappy in my work and wanted to change jobs, and even had to travel around. I always wanted to find a job that was easy and free and well-paid. But I didn't think about how much I was.

So much so that time slips away, ability has not been improved, and experience has not been accumulated enough, so it is cut off. It is obvious that when you calm down and improve your abilities, you will always have the same strengths and a good job. However, they are all abandoned by yourself.

In the past, I really couldn't see these clearly, and I always felt that it was just about happiness.

Until I got married, but my body had problems and I couldn't do physical work. At that time, I realized that there were so many I missed...

It makes sense to be young as capital.

While you are young, you will always help yourself in the future.

Just like when I look at the recruitment notice now, many companies have age requirements, especially jobs that are close to what I study. Some companies accept the greatest age that is my age this year. Moreover, my level may not be comparable to those young people in their early 20s, and that feeling is not just a panic.

I even felt the midlife crisis in advance, and I couldn't do heavy physical work, and my technical work was not as good as the young people. So, where is my way out?

So, I feel like I've really lost a lot of time that can make myself excellent.

If I had the experience of my current college years, maybe everything would be a different picture.

Of course, even if I know that I have missed a lot, I will not hate myself, nor will I regret myself. After all, no one is perfect. I didn’t choose this path at the beginning, but I will have other gains and growth. Moreover, it is not too late to make up for the loss of the sheep. As long as I am willing to start, everything is still in time.

The trough made me see clearly what I had and the importance of money.

God is cruel to me, but he just wants me to grow better.

I believe it will take me on the right path for me.

Last night, I thought a lot and thought I would go to the interview this morning. After all, I really, really, really need to have a job and financial ability.

However, after waking up this morning, I had the idea of ​​going to "Xidesheng" to ask first, which was very strong!

Well, first ask "Xidesheng" whether to recruit me or not, then I will choose the toy company. I said that it is my first choice.

So, after breakfast, prepare your resume and ride "Xidesheng" to "Xidesheng".

Arriving at the door of "Xidesheng", well, there may be mountain bike competitions in two days, so the back mountain of the company is very busy.

Huh, I really hope I can enter its heart again.

Take a deep breath and dial the contact number of personnel in the recruitment notice: "Hey, hello, is it Mr. Huang?"

reply over there: "Yes, please tell me if you have anything."

I replied: "May I ask, is your company recruiting artists now?"

There, asked, "Have you done it before?"

I replied honestly: "I haven't done it. I've studied for more than a year and changed careers." (People, sometimes I can't be too honest. If I say I've done it, maybe there might be an interview opportunity for an artist, but there's no way, I'm often so stubborn)

There, asked: "What kind of education do you have?"

I replied: "College."

There, ask: "Can't you do anything else?"

I was curious: "What jobs are suitable for college degree?"

reply over there: "Production clerk."

I replied: "Just make forms or something?"

reply over there: "Yes, I still have to know CAD. Do you know?"

I replied: "It's a little bit." (Oh my god! The consequence of not studying CAD hard when I was in college is that others asked me if I could do CAD, and I could only timidly say that I could do it a little bit.)

There replied: "Okay, where are you now?"

I replied: "I'm at the company's gate."

Reply from the other side: "It is not convenient to be at the company gate, so come in here at the front desk."

I replied: "Okay."

After talking to the security guard, I went into the front desk.

Long time no see, I miss you!

Facing it, I feel very humble and can’t tell why. Maybe I just feel that I’m not outstanding and cannot be worthy of it.

But I will work hard to make myself excellent and to get along with it naturally.

Afterwards, the personnel department arranged for me to go with a brother from the iron welding department. Well, he took me to the workshop office to let me know what the production clerk was going to do.

He said that production clerks are clerks, not just clerks who make forms, but also know how to use CAD software and asked me if I would like to learn.

Huh, although I am not sure, I can’t give up without trying, at least I have to give myself a chance.

So, I'm willing to try it.

Well, then he showed me a production table and asked me to make one by myself against the table.

Fortunately, although the EXCEl office software is not used much and is not very familiar with it, some basic ones are still not difficult, just the speed is fast.

While making the form, the elder brother asked me what I had done before.

I said that I joined "Xidesheng" in October 2014 and was in the forging department. Later, I quit in August 2015 and went to other places.

Well, I didn’t expect that after saying that, it has been four years since I entered “Xi Desheng” again, and things have changed.

Time just passed, the form was ready, it was OK.

Then I go through the procedures and sign the contract again next Monday and then go to work.

Sure enough, I really entered "Xidesheng" with a different identity. Although it was not what I thought I was. But at least, it was a successful transformation and I didn't need to make money by doing heavy physical work.

Of course, this is just the beginning, everything is difficult at the beginning.

It is still unknown how many difficulties will be in the future.

Anyway, take this step first.

In the afternoon, I went to the hospital for a check-up and applied for a health certificate.

Before filming, I sat next to a burly man. Suddenly, a little fat man came over and said something very unintentional to me: "Uncle, can you please sit next to me?"

Then, I stood up flexibly and gave it to him.

It is estimated that it should be the son of the burly man.

It doesn't matter, you need it, I can give it to you.

Why do you call me "Uncle"? Isn't it okay to call me "Brother"? Although I am already a daddy brother, I am still very young, and I am not much older than you, okay?

After the processing, I walked out of the hospital...

At that moment, I remembered the beginning of 2018...

Well, I walked out with a dark mood at that time because I was diagnosed with nephritis and my feet were edema at that time, so the doctor asked me to be hospitalized for surgery...

And Ziyu at that time was still in Xiao Shi's belly...

The New Year is coming soon, but I encountered such a thing...

Since then, I have been on vacation. Once I have been on vacation, I have been on sale now, which is longer than the winter and summer vacations of primary school students combined, but I am not happy...

And now, when I walked out of the hospital, I felt like I was reborn.
To be continued...