Today is May 30, 2020, and it will be about ten days since the last time I wrote something...

Well, a lot can happen in ten days...

Some things are unwilling to describe too much, and I think it may be more suitable to be simpler.

However, there are some things that keep entangling your heart because you can't pass the level of your heart.

When I returned to my hometown ten days ago, I was in a hurry to go back and forth. I came back in the morning and had to book a car in the afternoon. I couldn't stay for long...

When I got home, I saw the grandma...

The grandma in front of me was the thinnest grandma I had ever seen...

The atmosphere in the whole room was very heavy, and the grandma was just closing her eyes and pulling her clothes without falling asleep.

I walked to the bed and said to the grandma softly: "Grandma, I am Jinlong, I'm back..."

I thought the grandma no longer remembered me...

However, as soon as she heard the word "Golden Dragon", her hands stopped pulling her clothes, and then tried hard to spread her blurry eyes, and opened her mouth to say something, but she couldn't say it...

I think the grandma should be trying to say: Golden Dragon? Are you back?

At that moment, my nose was sore...

I gently touched her forehead with my hands, and as if I were coaxing a child, she fell asleep...

Maybe, I was thinking too much, and the grandma might just think that someone called her and didn’t necessarily recognize me as Jinlong.

Until after lunch, my aunt asked the grandma and asked who was back.

The grandma replied with a little difficulty, "It's Jinlong who is back."

After saying that, I continued to sleep...

Grandma, I really remember me...

That morning, I went to a nearby temple to ask for a sign for my grandma, and well, it was a sign for the sign.

However, in my opinion, there are two ways to say this kind of high-level signature. One is that the grandma will get better and live a healthy life; the other is that the grandma may leave without much pain and will no longer have to bear the torture of illness.

As for which one it will be, no one knows.

I was chased by life, but after all, I chose to book a car to Shenzhen that day and continue to work the next day...

Because of that time, I still couldn't keep up with the progress of my work today, because things are accumulating every day, and the end of the month is approaching, and I have to do more and I can hardly get out of it. In other words, I cannot achieve the balance between family and work, and I have taken up too much time by work but it is still not enough.

So, a few days after I arrived in Shenzhen, my grandma left...

All the grandsons under the grandmother were with her in her hometown for the last two days in this world, but I was not here...

I... don't know how to express that feeling of powerlessness in life...

Perhaps on the surface, it is just a loss of one's mind, but on the inner level, it is helpless with mixed feelings...

Well, the above content was written by me...

It is now 0:19 am on May 31, 2020. Well, I'm waiting for my aunt...

Auntie took a bus from her hometown last night and was expected to arrive early this morning...

However, Aunt's phone cannot be connected, and it may be that it is out of power...

So, I can only choose to believe that Aunt can find the car at the get off site...

And I will wait...

While waiting and writing, life will last forever.

The shackles of work feel heavier and heavier. If you can't find the motivation to hold on, you will collapse in every minute.

Well, I can't collapse, I want to support this home!

Any power, even if it is weak, must be accumulated cherishedly, just like writing something occasionally.

A spark can start a prairie fire!

When I first learned that my grandma had left this world, I felt a blockage in my heart. But I felt relieved soon, especially when I realized that my grandma did not leave in a particularly painful state.

Well, I'm not sad... Of course I didn't cry...

Because the grandma no longer has to be tortured by illness, she can go to see her grandpa, uncle and second uncle...

I know that the grandma, like the uncle, will not really leave...

Although I can't see them, they're always there.

Therefore, I naturally accepted the fact that my grandma left this world.

As long as you remember that the soul that is missed never truly leaves, that is enough.

Well, after writing this, I always feel worried, afraid that it will be difficult for Aunt to find a car alone, and she is prone to motion sickness and has a lot of luggage...

Thinking about it, I chose to ride the "Little Fengfeng" to the place where I often drop off. Maybe Aunt might be on the way...

However, I kept searching, but I couldn't see her...

In the early morning night, I feel more and more insecure...

The deeper the night, the more confused I am when I can’t find my aunt…

Because I don’t know which drop-off point the bus would choose to get her off. After all, it is not fixed and there are often changes.

When I came to the drop-off spot where we usually get off the bus and didn't see Aunt, I became a little messy...

How should I find it? It feels like looking for a needle in a haystack. Is it because the traffic jam hasn't arrived yet or has it arrived, but it has been clicked on other drop-offs?

The bus in the early morning was still so hurrying... but I couldn't see the bus in my hometown that felt familiar...

No, I can't panic, I must stay calm.

Maybe, Auntie booked the train at the station I usually take? After all, the last time I went back to my hometown, I gave her the number of the bus contact person for the station.

Thinking of this, I immediately picked up my cell phone and dialed the car number. I thought, the person should be sleeping and no one answered.

Huh, it's okay, and the number of the driver on board.

Because the bus runs two shifts, day shift and night shift, no matter which shift I dial, I can ask the number of the other shift.

Well, I called a driver number saved to the car: "Hey, hello! I would like to ask, is the car I passed through Shenzhen from Xinyi last night this car?"

He replied, "Oh, no, it's another car."

I asked, "Can I give me a call from another car? I don't have a phone number from the driver of that car."

He replied naturally: "Just change the last three digits of the mobile phone number you called me to 166."

I thank you: "Okay, thank you."

After hanging up the phone, enter the number according to the prompts and call the driver of the other car.

I asked: "Hey, hello, is this car that I passed through Shenzhen from Xinyi last night?"

He replied: "Yes, what's wrong?"

I seemed to have seen hope: "Is there an aunt who got off at Xinpitou or Loucun intersection?"

He replied naturally: "No."

At that moment, I thought, Aunt probably didn't book the train at that station...

So, I hung up the phone after thanking me.

Huh, what should I do?

However, before leaving, I called my second sister and asked her if she could get through Auntie's phone...

The reply she replied to me at that time was that Aunt gave her a phone number.

Maybe, can you contact Auntie or know where to get off the bus?

Well, call my second sister immediately.

It was really that coincidental. Aunt just borrowed someone else's cell phone and called the second sister for a long time, saying that she had arrived at the intersection of Loucun in about half an hour.

And I was there.

Well, then the remaining question is how to bring Aunt back to rent a house.

"Xiao Fengfeng" is relatively small and cannot carry too much stuff. My aunt's original plan was to ask her second sister to drive a big electric bicycle to pick her up because I had to go to work the next day.

Fortunately, I went to pick her up.

Although "Xiao Fengfeng" can't carry so many things, you can find an electric car that carries passengers...

Finally, when an electric car carrying passengers was parked beside me, the bus with a sense of familiarity in my hometown just arrived...

So everything came naturally.

Well, ignore the small process of coming back, in short, return safely.

Well, it's late at night, it's already 2:12 in the morning.

Yes, I'll post it after dawn.
To be continued...