Every section of the road, when you reach a certain stage, you are prone to falling into loss. There is no compass, no direction, no map, only a heart that is beating in a daze.

In the face of confusion, should you grop forward, or wander in place, or walk back in retreat? There is no answer, because this is the road of each different life. How to walk the road depends on yourself. Whether the road is right or wrong is determined by time.

The same is true for the path of a practitioner.

My cultivation journey seemed to have fallen into a state of loss just now.

Is this a test?

The morning after I sent the flyer, the alarm clock woke me up, who was wandering and restless.

A faint sadness lingers in my heart, inexplicably lost.

I sat in a daze for a moment, took a breath, got up, and continued to face my fear.

Yi and I went out together and walked back to the company headquarters. We passed by the vegetable market road where we were going to send flyers. Yi had already started sending flyers.

I held the flyer in my hand and held it tightly, so tight that I was a little shivering.

"Morning, uncle..." I still tried hard to squeeze out my smile, greeted me politely, and handed out the flyer in my hand gently.

I still had a cold expression on my face, looked at me with contempt, ignored the turn of the flyer in my hand, and saw my back as disgusted as if I saw garbage.

"I will definitely not send flyers in the future. Hahaha..." The words I said in my study days constantly mocked my heart.

I endured my discomfort, accepted my annoyance, and continued my fear.

There will be rejection and acceptance. Fortunately, there are still elderly people in the world who are kind-hearted and understand others. Every time I am almost unable to hold on, I give me little by little comfort and hope.

Looking at Ying and the others trying so hard to send the flyers and persevere, I feel very guilty because I want to escape. Escape from the things I fear the most...

I secretly moved away from the range where we sent our leaflets and walked the other way-the path I hadn't walked.

I am not familiar with the terrain there, but I am not afraid of getting lost. In this way, on a strange road, I occasionally send flyers and think about whether this is the path I want to take?

When you walk to a small river, you will sit on a stone bench by the small river, and slowly wait for time to pass.

I keep struggling inside, is it right to do this?

Ying and the others tried so hard to distribute leaflets, but I...

When Ying called and asked me where I was, I could only lie that I was somewhere in the range of the leaflets. On the other side of the phone, I was concerned about the factors. For this, I felt even more guilty.

Things that have been scared since childhood have to be accepted so closely, and the inner strength is not strong enough to bear.

However, I didn't want to be a burden to others. I gritted my teeth and left two leaflets on the stone bench. I continued to walk...

Logically, if I really want to be lazy, I can throw most of the flyers into the trash can. But I am not lazy, I am simply because I am afraid. The flyers I dared to send at that time could only be sent to places where no one saw them. I comfort myself, maybe someone passes by and will take a look. This is just a relief from guilt for myself, and a deception for my power to break through.

That day passed very quickly because I didn't face people most of the time. Moreover, I discovered a new route. It turned out that the other route I took could go back to the company. However, it was dark that day, and I was still on the road, waiting for the care of many people. I was uneasy and took the bus back to the apartment in disappointment.

When I returned to the apartment and looked at Sister Zhen who had happy energy, maybe I should let myself go.

There is still one day left.

I never thought about letting me go, and the nightmare and fearful alarm clock became my "friend".

Keep bearing...

On the third day, Wei and his team had already sold several electronic blood pressure monitors, more than our team.

I still sent flyers like the day before. However, I saw Shanshan.

Somehow we sent flyers together as we chatted. Strictly speaking, we were chatting together.

The weather was very hot at that time, so I bought an ice cream cup and had it with her and chatted with her.

I also took her away the new route I discovered the day before and told her my little secret to sending flyers.

She said she was also confused and didn't know how long she could do this job.

I was surprised because it was hard to see confusion in her bright and moving smile.

In my heart, she thought of an angel who loves to smile. In her smile, there is only brilliance and no sorrow. Many elderly people like her smile very much, not only the elderly, but many of us like it. However, how many people can see the troubles behind her smile?

Society has made the angel who loves to play so well...

Shanshan, when I first met, I didn’t feel deeply. But since she chatted with me, I found that she could touch my heart...

I chatted and left, forgot what to talk about, but I only remembered that I had been chatting for a long time. Ying called me worriedly again, and I felt really sorry for her...

How did the day end after that, I forgot.

The three-day leaflet distribution has been a great test for me. But is this what I want to practice?

Escape, am I weak, or am I looking for the right one?

During this period, have I really practiced my skills?

Question marks are a good answer.
Chapter completed!