I have been thinking about how to write it. But the more I think about it, the less clues I have and the empty mind.

Maybe it's time to end...

It happens and will never stop.

In the past year and over, many profound things have happened...

The more it happens, the further you feel that you are from the past, and thus feel...

Recently, a very famous actor who brought a lot of happiness to my childhood has left and went to another world without illness...

Suddenly, I felt that my happy memories were quickly collapsing and decomposing...

The familiar faces and the joys of the past pass by quickly with time. I can't keep them at all. I can only sigh and have no choice but to...

The happiness of the past is too happy. If you cannot find good happiness in the future, then the rest will be joy of memories. This is a kind of sorrow...

Because if the present is very happy, you won’t often think of the happiness in your memories…

Sure enough, except for me before junior high school, the rest of me are sentimental types.

Whether I was single or now after I got married, I seemed to be unable to escape the circle with melancholy in my eyes.

Well, why did I choose "Account" as the title? It has something to do with my sentimentality and my own personality.

Sentimentality makes me unable to see the future. I always feel that unhappy things will happen constantly, or even dramatically. My own personality is the type of being with the flow and going with the flow, but the future is unpredictable, and no one knows what will happen in the next second.

That's why I chose "Account" as the title. No matter whether what happened is good or bad, I know what to write...

In other words, when I first started writing "Accounting", I had no hope for the future. Whether it is good or bad, I also accepted it all...

Sometimes, when the sentimentality in my heart is too strong, I really think that something broken will happen.

Indeed, there were several times that almost happened... but I didn't write it... I was so tired that I didn't want to write it, and I didn't know how to write it... It was almost the opposite state of a beautiful fantasy...

But even if it is a little bit bad, it didn't happen in the end. But it doesn't mean it's impossible. It's still the case, no one can guess the future.

Of course, I definitely hope to keep it beautiful in my heart, but if that is really good...

I have been writing "Account" for more than a year, although I just updated it intermittently, at least, the thing I fear most did not happen...

Gradually, I was no longer afraid, but just felt that I was so numb.

Because, I'm not like a normal person.

Maybe, when others look at me on the outside, they think I am normal and there is no problem. But when I am alone, I am actually a monster that even I feel is unfamiliar with.

Just like a sentence I have read before, I became the kind of adult I hated when I was a child.

When I was a child, I definitely didn't expect that what he hated was like this...

But no matter how annoying I hate it, I am not just me.

There are many me in my heart. When I was a child, I only hate one of them, and he also likes them!

I liked me when I was a child, and I didn’t want me to be so depressed. I would rather see me narcissistic than see me as disgusting as I am than to see me as inferior as I am not even as mud.

No one is worth letting me give up on myself. Except, myself.

As long as I don't want to give up, no one can force me to give up.

Well, I expressed this sentence indifferently.

It happens, is a passive existence.

Do you always have to wait until it happens before you know what you are going to do? Can’t you plan ahead?

Turn passive into initiative, don’t wait for it to happen, but create and adapt to it yourself.

So, my "Account" ends here. Of course, it is impossible to stop and it is unpredictable. It's just that I don't want to be so passive.

In other words, I want to take the initiative.

To put it bluntly, I just want to change the title, it's that simple.

Well, what title is better?

Actually, I like to change the title and feel like a series. Although the things I write are not a high-end thing, it’s so cool!

Looking at the sky and looking at your heart, well, it’s called “Faixin”!

It is born from the mind, sensed by the mind, and is generated by the mind.
Chapter completed!