Now, I listen to the song "The Heart has a Special Love".

I have a special feeling, it seems like I went back to when I was six or seven years old when I was a child...

When I was a child, I just liked this song, but I just thought it was good and had a feeling of being immersed in my heart. Well, it was very good.

Now I like this song because it is memorable. And at the moment I feel like I have traveled through time and reached a moment of spiritual communication with myself when I was a child.

Actually, what do I want to express?

I don't know, it's just because I don't know how to start, just start it casually.

Because once I start, if nothing unexpected happens, I can finish writing an article. Of course, the quality is good and bad.

At around 11 o'clock last night, I sent a message to the manager and asked him if I wanted to go for an interview.

Well, maybe it was too late, he might have fallen asleep, so he didn't go back.

When I woke up this morning, I turned on my phone and saw that he replied, saying that he was OK. Moreover, the reply time was around 2 a.m.

Well, the manager often has insomnia at night and brushes his phone because he is too stressed and can't sleep.

Then, I replied to him, if I succeed in the interview, when will I transfer it?

He said as soon as possible.

Well, this was what he replied to me before I had finished the handover. I couldn't guarantee that the handover would be handed over in less than half a month. If I left the profile department soon, I would definitely be in a mess. But he agreed so easily.

The senior who took me before wanted to transfer to the department as soon as possible, but the manager disagreed and insisted that he took me for more than a month before letting him go.

Then, I remembered that the manager had said to me before: "As long as you can find a suitable direction for your development, I will never stop you."

As a result, he did what he said...

So, this morning, I was ready for everything and hoped that the interview would be successful in the morning.

However, God joked with me again.

When I was already out to the first floor and was about to drive the electric car, the car keys disappeared!

Then, I immediately went back to search the same way, and kept finding the room, but I didn't see you!

Strange! Strange!

I clearly remember someone who came up with the key last night, but why did it disappear when I left? Could it fly?!

Just like that, I ran up and down a few times, but still couldn't find it. The most speechless thing was that I forgot to put where to put the spare car keys!

Well, in desperation, I had to ask the manager for a half-day leave.

But just after I took a leave, my dear found the car key in my pajamas!

How is that possible?!

I've never encountered this, it's really the first time!

Then, not long after, I went to get my computer bag naturally, opened the surface and saw, Oh my God! The spare car key is inside!

Funny or not?

It was as if God was preventing me from going to the interview. Although I didn’t have enough evidence, it felt like that.

So, while I had half a day, I went out to print my colorful resume, and took a walk to relax.

Well, the above content was written last night. I wanted to finish it, but reality doesn't allow it... So, continue to write tonight...

When I went to work in the afternoon, I vaguely felt the manager's unhappiness...

During the meeting, his mental state was also very poor, as if he hadn't had a good sleep. Well, he didn't sleep well either, but this time it was more obvious.

At three o'clock in the afternoon, I brought my resume to the interview as agreed by Mr. Hai. Well, actually, I was very busy at that time and there were many system accounts that I had to deal with.

I thought I would go back to deal with the interview quickly, but as soon as I arrived at the Human Resources Department, I was told that the leaders of the e-commerce department needed a meeting and asked me to sit and wait with another young man who also came to the interview.

I thought I was just waiting, but in the end, I "waited" for an hour...

I originally went to welcome the interview with full enthusiasm, but during the hour of waiting, my enthusiasm had cooled down halfway.

Finally, Mr. Hai said he could go up to the fourth floor for an interview.

Well, then he took us both up there.

But as soon as I got up to the fourth floor, the leader of the e-commerce department sent another message to President Hai that something was wrong and that he would have to interview again at 8:20 am the next morning.

President Hai also felt that the leaders of the e-commerce department were a bit unreliable, but after waiting, he still asked the clerks of the e-commerce department to take us into their conference room to wait.

Well, when I first stepped into the e-commerce department, a sudden sense of depression surrounded me instantly! That feeling was just a little lighter than the feeling given to me by the finance department.

Well, I don't like that kind of depression... because I'm already suppressed enough...

While waiting in their conference room, I chatted with the young man who was interviewing with me purely to relieve the embarrassment.

Just like that, almost twenty minutes passed.

The clerk from the e-commerce department came in and told us that the time was changed to 8:20 am the next morning, and he would hand over the resume to her first.

OK, when we were about to leave the e-commerce department, the leaders of the e-commerce department came in while listening to the phone.

Then, the clerk of the e-commerce department asked us to go to the conference room and wait.

Well, about five minutes later, she came in and told us that the interview time was changed to 8:20 am on Saturday morning, and let us go back first again.

OK... I spent the busiest two hours in the afternoon just waiting...

The enthusiasm in my heart has cooled to the point of cold...

Well, I no longer have the idea of ​​going to the e-commerce department for an interview. It seems that God just doesn't want me to enter the e-commerce department.

When I returned to our office, the manager asked me how it was.

When I went out, I went out naturally and didn't say I was going to the interview. The other colleagues didn't know that I was going to the interview, but the manager actually expected me to go to the interview.

I said I waited there for an hour, and finally waited until I entered the e-commerce department, but I was told that the interview was not available on Saturday morning.

The manager smiled hard and said, OK.

Then, I said that I didn’t want to go to the e-commerce department. It was too depressing and that feeling was not suitable for me.

The manager immediately smiled naturally and said to me softly: "Then don't leave, stay."

I really don't want to refuse to keep my manager like that... But, I really want to change careers, afraid I won't have time...

So, I still said that I wanted to change careers and take a look first.

He asked me to do it while searching, and find the right one before leaving.

The more the manager treats me like this, the more scared my heart is...

Because, I am really not as responsible as he imagined, and I am not that good...

Part of the reason why I want to resign is that I can no longer handle those increasingly complex system accounts, and I get overwhelmed when I see them. I just escaped in advance, and I am not that good.

The manager likes people with agile minds, but I am relatively slow. It takes a long time for me to be truly familiar with the things I just come into contact with. I am a slow-temperature type.

Just like when I first came in, the manager was afraid that I would make mistakes, worried that my data would not be calculated well, and worried that the size of my drawings would not be marked in place.

It was not until I slowly got warmed up that I had an illusion of my flexible mind.

I can't do anything even if I stayed. Apart from dealing with daily system accounts, the big problems cannot be solved. I have too much data to arrange orders, which makes it even more difficult for me to adapt. I no longer need to draw pictures, so I have been transferred to Huizhou to take charge.

I used to be a half-barrel water drafter, a half-barrel water online materialist, and a half-barrel water clerk. Now, I have become a very ordinary clerk and can be replaced at any time.

I need to reposition myself because I can't be a clerk like this, which is not what I want.

However, the reality is very cruel. If I suddenly change careers, it means that my salary will drop significantly. After all, it is like a mountain, and everything has to start over again. The rent of nearly 2,000 yuan per month and the kindergarten tuition that Ziyu is about to use are all huge pressure.

So, after walking through an intersection, you will appear at the next intersection.

Life is about making decisions constantly and then taking different paths.

But the future is not my turn to worry about.

I need to do it well, it is the present thing.

Do whatever you should do.

When the time comes, it is mine, so it will naturally be mine.

All the great roads lead to Rome, don’t think too much about the future.

Just like when I was a child, when I listened to "The Heart has a Sex", how could he be worried about me now? He can only live his life and grasp the happiness of that time. So, he is happy.

Similarly, when I listen to "The Heart has a Sex" now, there is no need to worry about the future self. He has his own way of dealing with it. The premise is that I have to grasp the present moment well, and not worrying about it is the greatest help to the future self.

I'll give myself this song "The Heart Is a Sex":

I am really unique!

Really have a special liking for you,

Because of you, the world becomes different.

Laughing at me too stupid and ignorant,

Or love too much,

Just to believe in myself,

I will always love you.
Chapter completed!