This week was a very dark week for me, although it was sunny and nice weather almost every day...

Because the manager discovered the system account problem, and it was quite serious, so serious that he was called to the Finance Department for a conversation and had to be fined, and the amount was not small.

Well, I could feel that the manager was disappointed with me, but he just didn't scold me, but scolded the other two colleagues who didn't do much.

I said that I am not as responsible as he imagined, not as good as he imagined...

My mood at that time can be expressed in a passage I posted on my Moments:

In the third grade of elementary school, my math grades were pretty good in my math teacher’s mind, and I was quite obedient.

Once, the math teacher was giving a new lesson. He asked a student who was not listening carefully in class to go up to the podium to answer an arithmetic question. I forgot what the specific question was.

Well, the answer written by that student was wrong.

Then, the math teacher began to criticize him for not listening to the class carefully, and then said, "Let you see what is the correct answer."

The math teacher looked at us very seriously. I think she must choose a student who can calculate the problem correctly. In other words, she must trust that student very much.

Well, I never expected that she shouted out three words that sounded nice but terrified me at the time: "Liu Jinlong."

Although I was also listening to classes at that time, I was a slow child and I wouldn't learn what I just learned quickly... My heartbeats and looks at her...

She smiled and said, "Come on, come on."

To be honest, the math teacher is so beautiful and so nice to me, I really don’t want to disappoint her.

However, strength does not allow it.

Well, I did the wrong question, too.

At that time, I could clearly feel the embarrassment of her being slapped in the face...

After that, she could only ask a student with excellent mathematics to answer.

I can't forget that scene yet...

The greater the hope, the greater the disappointment.

Looking back on my more than a year here, the same is true...

I'm really not suitable to touch data...

The above is my mood at that time.

The more he thinks I am good, the more I feel ashamed of him.

So, I submitted my resignation application because I felt that I could not face him and could not deal with those system accounts...

Well, a few days have passed, but he still hasn't approved it.

I don’t care about that now, and I will remind him when it is about to expire. The main focus is how to deal with the system account.

I wrote the report today, and wrote the deduction form accordingly, and handed it over to the finance department.

After the whole process, the manager didn't blame me much...

But I can't overcome the obstacles in my heart.

At the same time, I also feel like I am really a little different.

When I went into the terrifying finance department with the manager, I didn’t feel it anymore. I used to be very scared.

Also, if you choose a system account that costs thousands of items, you don’t have the temper. I know how to deal with some complex system accounts, but it’s a little troublesome.

When I first came in, my seniors were dealing with those terrifying system accounts, and they were so angry that I was just a novice at that time, and I was still not sure about the principle of system entry and exit.

Unexpectedly, after experiencing the system upgrade and facing several terrifying overnight processing of the system accounts, gradually, I became more and more familiar with the system, and I became a model black without realizing it.

It seems that I have made progress this year and a half since I returned to XDS.

Moreover, I think I am quite important now than the profile department at this time. If I leave during this period, the profile department will be messy for a while. Therefore, the manager does not want me to leave during this period.

But, in the future, no one knows what will happen.

What should come and what should happen will always happen.

I have said that there is attraction between people and between people and things.

The reason why I work with that person and work or live in that place is because the frequency is similar.

If one day the frequency of one party becomes stronger or weaker, then separation is the most normal phenomenon.

Although this week is very dark, I still face every day naturally. After all, the road of life must always move forward.

I saw the news this afternoon that Mr. Yuan, the father of hybrid rice, went to another world.

When you see the rice you eat every day, you can think of the backbone of this country.

Mr. Sir will last forever and will last forever!

Don’t expect to become a great man, but try hard and make progress and contribute your own part to the country, even if it is insignificant.

It's grey, it's uncomfortable during the day.

But at night, against the backdrop of the light, it may be beautiful.

Fortunately, I can still save myself.

The moon tonight is beautiful.
Chapter completed!