come on!

Well, this is my encouragement.

This time, the cross-industry development has not been successful yet, and it has been psychologically broken. It can be said that there is no defense at all...

During this period, I was not confident, had no courage, and did not dare to submit my resume. I felt that my skills were not proficient enough.

So, I began to find ways to find confidence.

In fact, I thought the root of my lack of confidence should be skills. Just spend more time practicing skills, but I can't devote myself to it. I always feel that I can't learn well halfway through practice.

So, I put the finger on my mind.

Well, I took the time to read a few inspirational books, but I found that the "good medicine" that was extremely humiliating to me when I was in high school was already "silent" to me...

What to do? I can't find a pillar that can make myself confident...

The more I did this, the more confused I felt. On the other hand, my family began to urge me to find a job and interfered with my resume submission...

I know that it is not a solution to drag on this, but I have no strength in my heart. With such a mentality, even if the HR calls me to have an interview, I can't behave well. I'm like a clay man, vulnerable.

Anxiety and helplessness, these bad emotions began to linger on me, and even my white hair seemed to have appeared secretly.

In fact, my mind is also very fragile and I am eager to get recognition from others, especially from my family. The recognition from others can give me strength.

Yes, now, what I need is not any advice from my family, but just a few thoughtful encouragement. For example, come on, I believe in you.

However, I have hardly heard my family say this to me. Either you should do whatever you want, just like your superiors guide your subordinates, or you will leave the sentence coldly "You can do whatever you want, and do whatever you want."

Without confidence, and without understanding, I feel very depressed in my heart. However, I cannot say it out. This feeling of extreme loss will only be held in my heart and then secretly slides through the gaps in my eyes.

So, I always believe that: The only one who can save yourself is yourself.

Well, I started to think about how to make myself feel that I was not wasting my time.

Well, digitization.

I began to classify the learning, life, work and entertainment, and record the number of times each thing I did. For example, when I watched a short video, I would add it to the back of the entertainment. If I wash clothes, add it to the back of the life. There is no upper limit for the accumulated times, but I will give a target value. After reaching the target value, I will increase the target value. When I get old, I will know what I have done in my life. Of course, I will roughly calculate the number of times before counting the count, and first get a value. Just like in life, I will roughly count more than 30,000 pieces, and then add it on this basis.

My motto is that nothing is in vain.

Therefore, what I counted is all my life, and I did not label them as good or bad. In my heart, those are my experiences and growth.

Well, I think that the data after classification and statistics in this way will make me feel that I am actually not bad, and will help me regain some confidence.

But, not.

During this sad process, my dear even said to me because of interfering in the issue of submitting my resume: "What kind of man are you?"

The feeling of dignity that was broken all over the ground, accompanied by my bitter smile, blood and tears dripped in my heart...

Well, I began to feel that I was so depraved and incompetent…

Until, I accidentally saw a sentence on the Internet: Never lose your life, no matter what you are experiencing, it is your growth.

That sentence was like a ray of sunshine, shining into my dark heart.

Well, I began to recall my experiences over the past two months. Although I haven’t found a job yet, many of the experiences are about growth.

In addition to what I wrote last time, I also had a broken toilet lid at home. Well, I don’t have a deep understanding of toilet lids. After all, the toilets used to be usually squatted. So when the toilet lid was rotten, I was really afraid that the entire toilet would have to be replaced and cost a lot of money, and I would be scolded by my dear.

However, I still tried my best to calm myself down and go to the online shopping platform to see if I could change the toilet lid. Unexpectedly, I could buy a good toilet lid for a few dozen yuan and install it myself.

Well, when a problem occurs, the focus should not be on the problem, but on the solution to the problem.

The calmness at that time made me feel a little confident when I recalled it.

Afterwards, the two special faucet switches in the house also broke down. My family originally planned to ask the landlord to change them. But I said, let me see if I could buy parts for installation by myself.

So, I began to learn to distinguish the sizes and specifications of different faucet switches, thus gaining a little life experience. Well, I have never touched the hot and cold faucet switches, especially the ones that are about to break down. However, through this experience, I not only understood them, but also improved my hands-on ability.

These experiences have also indirectly helped me to regain a little more confidence.

Confidence is just thinking that you are useful and valuable. That's all.

If you can have the recognition of others, that's the best. But what if you don't have it? Is it really worthless?

I recognize myself. Although it seems that I am living in my own world, at least I can give myself strength!

Relying on others' recognition is like letting others hold back the throat of the source of power. If others don't give it to you, you will have no power. It is both terrifying and sad.

You can give yourself strength, so why should you rely too much on others?

When you have the strength, then others’ recognition of you will not be a timely help, but a icing on the cake.

So, come on! Dear yourself!

You are pretty good! I believe in you!
Chapter completed!