Night, insomnia.

Because I have to go to work tomorrow morning, I simply write and comfort myself so that I can fall asleep naturally.

Well, last night I dreamed of my first love - Gan. In my dream, I took one or two wedding photos with her, so real...

I have dreamed of her for the third day in a row, and I can't understand why I dreamed of her so often, and I have never thought of her during the day.

I have read a passage before, saying that when you often dream of someone, it means that the person is thinking of you.

If it is true, then do you miss me?

After all, I just posted my latest selfie in QQ Space a few days ago. Judging from the browsing traces, she kind of drove my selfie.

I haven't posted a selfie on QQ space for a long time. In other words, she hasn't seen my latest appearance for a long time. Similarly, I have not seen her latest appearance for a long time.

Of course, she clicked on my selfie and did not mean that she missed me. It was purely possible that she felt that she hadn't seen me for too long and was just curious about what I had become.

Well, then, why do I think so much?

I don’t know, sometimes things like “thinking too much” are uncontrollable.

After all, I almost kissed her in my dream...

Dreams can sometimes represent a person’s true thoughts, as if they are real.

So, has my heart always kept a door for her that others don’t know and I never want to open? And is there a love that I can’t guess thoroughly hidden in the door?

I have no idea……

In the morning, I checked out what I wrote before. Well, I read "Goodbye First Love" in my internship.

That was the last time I saw her before, and at least since then, I have never really met her again.

Thinking of that time, if I could have the courage to ask her if she had a boyfriend, or if I could have the courage to pursue her again, would the ending between me and her be different?

But life is impermanent.

If she and I were really lucky to get married together, would we definitely be happy? Will we be transformed into chaos by life?

Sometimes, I really miss the time when I dating her. Although it took less than a hundred days and I chatted by phone, I felt very happy and sweet at that time.

Perhaps, only those who can't get this magic will have unforgettable.

Optimism makes me work hard to think that what I have now is the best. However, the most real feeling often comes from my heart without hard work.

I don't know if she has ever thought about me, but whenever I feel lost in marriage, I think of her.

I yearn for an interesting couple's life, which is humorous in words, and my spirit and body are simultaneously devoted to a state of selfless dreaming.

When we were dating Gan, we chatted humorously over the phone, and we felt that way. At that time, I was extremely looking forward to my future with her. Unfortunately, God was willing to do something and we were not able to be together.

Now, I'm getting married.

However, my dear inner world seems to be the opposite of my inner world, and I can't find a beautiful feeling.

Many times, I want to enter the state of selfless dreaming with her, but I don’t even have the chance to start. Even though there are some chances, she sleeps with her eyes closed. The movements of my touching her body make me feel like a low animal, and then I will stop and turn around...

In her spiritual world, "exercise" is suitable for "exercise" unless she has children, otherwise "exercise" is redundant in her opinion.

Well, whenever my passion feels her ignorance, I feel sad and sad... At night, the corners of my eyes are wet...

She doesn't understand me, I don't know whether I understand her... In short, life continues like this.

In her opinion, I seem to live a casual and happy day every day.

But my truly happy smile rarely appears. Not all smiles can represent happiness.

So, if someone asks me, “Are you happy?”

I really don't know how to answer...

However, I am a person who lives to this day by luck. A large part of my luck comes from my optimism.

Therefore, I will still cherish my marriage. Although sometimes, I am not happy, I will also be happy.

Then think about the joyful things more, and think about the unhappy things less, and then you can spend the ordinary day in your life naturally.

If possible, I hope I can laugh as happily as before.

But if I can't, I will try my best to make myself feel happy, just like now, I have written another article.

Huh, it's not bad, come on!

Tomorrow is a new day!

Good night.
Chapter completed!