Sometimes, the thoughts are very messy, just because of a negation.

Negation is actually not a problem. The problem is that I actually doubt myself because of this negation. Although there is a philosophical saying "self-denial".

The path I took was chosen by spending a long time fighting on my mind. It was completely in line with my own psychology and mentality at that time, as well as my growth pattern. But how could I get confused because of a denial?

Doing doubts about yourself is an insult to your soul. When I took this path with confidence, I was easily shaken by an external factor. How ironic it is to myself...

Perhaps, moods can easily make people lose themselves, whether it is joy or sorrow.

Since I began to doubt whether I had taken the wrong path during that period, I was extremely tired and seemed to have no motivation at all. Even my mental state was in a state of depression, as if I had lost my soul. It seemed that my body and mind were extremely despised and doubted myself. This shouldn't be...

I finally stayed up until the evening and accidentally saw some words on the Internet that inspired me. I realized how ridiculous I was. For example, when I was riding on the road quickly, someone on the roadside didn’t know that I was racing. Seeing that I was riding so fast, I advised me not to ride so fast, as safety first! So I became messy. Should I ride faster and win the competition, or ride more slowly?

Therefore, what others see and understand is only what others see and understand, not necessarily what others see and understand.

I am always immersed in my own world, which was not formed later. It was a happy pattern that I had become accustomed to when I was a child.

When I was a child, I liked to play with toys alone, then act as a director, and arrange the plot of the toys. In fact, when I was a child, I had more imagination than I am now. In short, most of me are very intoxicated by immersed in my own world because it can also help me grow. However, this growth is introverted and focuses on internal improvement. Compared with extroverted growth, there is a lack of expansion. Each has its own advantages, but there is no absolute advantage.

Since I like to immerse myself in my own world so much, why do I have to doubt it?

Because I have changed, now I am a little bit self-deceiving when I am immersed in my own world. This all stems from a relationship.

Love broke my self-intoxicated inner world for the first time, making me less and less comfortable with being alone. Sometimes I get confused. Will that love make me better or make me more decadent? It’s all right, at least I’m still growing.

Now I long for someone to accompany me, but I can’t come. So I feel uncomfortable, so I feel inferior, so I think randomly.

Even so, growth cannot stop and still needs to continue. I can only control my emotions well and try not to hinder my growth, no matter what method I use.

God knows what I have paid for my growth and endured.

Don’t doubt yourself casually. If you even doubt the path you have chosen carefully, then what else is there to look forward to and believe in?

The road is always there, continue walking. (To be continued)
Chapter completed!