One day at 3:30 am Beijing time, it was a night shift break. I was writing something with sleepiness...

The fat beast and I had separate tasks, so he got off work before two o'clock. Later, several other people in the same group also got off work. In the end, I was the only one left to continue working.

It's great. Anyway, I'll have a meeting the next morning. Even if I go back, I'll have to come here in the morning. I don't have to worry, just keep a steady mind and work.

The weather during the day is very good, so good that I regret not going on a small trip. But I believe that there will be gains when there is any mistake. Although I missed this opportunity to go on a small trip, I will also gain. That is, I have sorted out my little world and renewed the Internet. In short, there will be fewer trivial matters in the near future, because I have already taken measures in advance.

Although it is very tiring to organize the small world, I like to see it change its mood. When it changes its mood, my mood also changes. Many things suddenly become more and more open...

Just like, my aunt would never be with my uncle on her birthday, I originally felt that there was always an inexplicable upset. But at that time, my downturn was my problem.

My aunt is a more traditional person and is very sensitive to many things to avoid. What's more, the target of avoiding is my uncle. My uncle had a physical condition before, and the whole family didn't know how scared he was. Now he has such a difficult time to adjust his body. With my aunt's sensitive heart, why don't he want my uncle to be healthy all the time?

My aunt told me on her birthday that she would avoid it twice a year, and it would be a good luck all year!

When I heard it, I didn’t feel anything. Maybe it was because my emotions were not stable.

But when I think back, I feel so touched! Yes, I think, in this world, no one loves my uncle more than my aunt. Even my aunt does not love my uncle.

The grandma has several children, but my aunt only has my uncle and her husband. The grandma’s love for her children is divided into many parts, but my aunt’s love for her is only one part. There is no comparison...there are different natures.

I thought that no matter what my aunt did, it was for my uncle to be healthy. Perhaps fortune tellers were just confusing people, but my aunt would rather believe in it than believe in it. Why? It’s not that my aunt was stupid, but because of love! If it’s true, what if it’s true? Then at least avoid it. If it’s true, but what’s false? That doesn’t matter. At least you can know that there are no bad things. If you don’t believe it, but it’s true? How can you save it?

My aunt just hopes that my uncle will be healthy and does not want to let go of any opportunity. Whether it is scientific health or non-scientific worship of God, my aunt will catch them all! Just for my uncle's health! This is love! My aunt's love for my uncle! I am very grateful to God for letting me be born in such a loving home!

So, you can feel calmer, look at problems and think about things differently.

After I woke up after going back to sleep for a day after I woke up, a heavy rain came. Unexpectedly, it turned out that it was so clear that it would rain even if it was so clear...

The strong wind and the showers kill, causing panic. The cauliflower falls and the green leaves fall, hurting my heart. This is how life is. If God wants to destroy you, no matter what method is used, it will destroy you. If you don’t want to destroy you, then even if it changes more methods, it will not destroy you. Unless you are destroyed by yourself.

Although the cauliflower has been broken several times by the wind and rain, it has not stopped growing. However, the storm that came quickly and harshly, and the cauliflower was broken even more severely. In addition, the cauliflower bears fruit quickly and no longer blooms much, so it is almost over its life.

I see this growth process from the seeds to the time when they sprout to slowly grow into flowering and fruiting vegetables. It is its beautiful life. Although it is likely to wither completely in the near future, its meaning of life will be left behind. For example, the seeds it leaves may continue to take root and sprout, and the withered leaves will turn into nutrients, making the soil more fertile. There is nothing in its life, the life I like.

Think about the meaning of cauliflower and look at my own life. In fact, nothing is in vain.

I got off work at four o'clock the morning the day before yesterday, and an idea flashed through my mind: go to the square where no one is ice skating.

I said that many of my adventures come from this flash of thought. So, I went back to Xiaotiandi and picked up the single-row pulley shoes that I had bought for several months, and set out towards the square.

Why choose a time period when no one is there? Because, I am a beginner. I don’t want others to see how they learn to skate, in other words, they love face.

For ice skating, I only slid twice, and the total time of slid was no more than two hours. It can be said that I am a complete novice.

Therefore, after I went to the square to change into pulley shoes, I was filled with fear even when I stood up. The shaking and crumbling feeling was really terrifying! In fact, it was not that exaggerated, it was just that my psychological effect exaggerated that kind of fear.

When I tried to skate a few times bravely, I felt a little bit like I didn’t fall. The one I fell more often when I first learned how to learn, but the second time I only fell one at most. It’s not that I became more powerful, but I just slipped for five minutes and then refused to leave.

When I was the third time I skating, I planned to break through, at least I had to slid like a skating.

Finally, I fell! I fell to the ground with my butt. The strong tremor really made me feel so painful!

However, a miracle happened so much!

After I stood up with difficulty, I told myself that it’s okay, but if I don’t fall, how can I learn to escape?

Then, I continued to slim. After that slim, I felt like I wanted to be reborn. I suddenly found the feeling of learning to slim slowly for the first time. Everything I learned and felt before slim slim seemed to have been recovered all of a sudden. I slim slim slim really looked like I did. Although it was not very fast, it was really a big improvement!

The feeling of slipping by before has never been lost, but it only exists in the depths of the subconscious mind. As long as they are awakened one day, they will come back. It’s like I fell and then I feel like I’m back.

If you fall, you can't actually make the feeling come back. It's fear, fear will restrict you. As long as you overcome the fear and relax your body, the natural feeling will come back.

When I was walking, I was too afraid of falling, so I didn’t dare to slip. But when I really fell and found that there was nothing, the fear in my heart was not that great, so I naturally felt more relaxed, so I felt like I was back.

This made me very relieved. The ice I slipped past gave me the feeling that it was always there, which was really surprising.

So after thinking about it, can life be full of meaning?

Many times, when I do something that I don’t like to do, I feel like I’m wasting my time. In fact, when a person is doing something, some of the abilities required for that thing have already made people subconsciously remember it.

For example, I called a child who was too lazy to move and didn't have much strength to help me carry a bucket of water for five meters. The weight of the bucket of water was suitable for being lifted with the child's full strength. The child might not want to help me, but I used candy to lure him to help me lift. Although he could not resist the temptation to help me lift, lifting water was indeed not what he liked to do. He really didn't have much strength, and it took a lot of effort to lift the bucket of water for five meters bit by bit. During this process, although the child felt that except for eating candy, everything else was wasted time and physical strength, his subconscious mind had already remembered the situation of his whole body in the process of lifting water. So after a while, I asked him to lift the same weight of water with the same temptation, and he would find that lifting it was a little easier than last time and it became less difficult.

This is the power of the subconscious. Every time a person breaks through his own limitations, the subconscious will increase his ability to that level. In other words, there is nothing behind the vain, and there is a subconscious at work.

I don’t know if my subconscious is working in the experience of love... (To be continued)
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