My brain was thinking quickly. At that moment, I thought a lot, a lot.

I like Lin Ling in my heart, or you can say I love her. She is a few years older than me, she is from Fujian, she is used to drinking Tieguanyin, she likes to sing Minnan songs, she likes to cook soup for me, she wants to

When we stayed in Chengdu, she wanted to sing to me every day. What about me? A seventeen-year-old poor boy with nothing, living on an upper floor with mud-tile walls and bamboo fences, pulling pigweed, catching loaches, and working as a street kid.

What can I do to give her happiness? If she leaves her hometown and comes to Sichuan all alone for me, does this mean she loves her? If she is with me, Aunt Chen will not object, but what about Uncle Chen? Originally

Their relationship is relatively tense, and I am afraid that it will cause "restlessness" and "father-daughter antagonism". Love is selfish, but to selfishly possess a weak woman in this way, but to cut off her way back to her parents' home, I think it is wrong.

.As for me, I may live with her in Chengdu for the rest of my life, guarding the three-foot counter, buying goods, selling goods, having children... I am not ready yet. I have not thought clearly about my choice.

What kind of life.

There has been word in the family for a long time. It was from the second aunt, a distant relative who is doing business in Hehua Pond. She said that she introduced the daughter of a person from my hometown to me. That family is also doing small electronic product wholesale business in Hehu Pond. If we get married,

Just take one of the current stalls and build it for us. We don’t need to pay the cost. They pay for the stall fees. We take the goods from them. If we sell them, we give them the capital. The two of us will make the profit. What the adults are saying is, it’s not good.

Despite the good intentions and face of my relatives, I must think carefully. Their conditions are very good. If this can be done, the pressure on the family will be reduced a lot, and everyone will be able to stick to it. The family is

There is no money for me to get a wife, and there is no money for me to build a house. I have to seize the opportunity. So it is very difficult for me. The difficulty is that my family has considered it very carefully, and it is also true in front of me.

Reality. It seems that a "good life" is "at your fingertips" as long as you grasp this "marriage", and you can "transform yourself" into a "boss". But that is not what I think in my heart. My life is not like this, although in

I haven't figured out in my mind what kind of life I want to live, but this is not the life I want.

I heard from the adults that some relatives and sisters had a hard time when they were young, and their parents died early. The eldest brother, who we call "uncle", came out first to make a living. When he broke out, he took the second aunt, third aunt, and uncle

They were all dragged out to do business. Now my uncle's business is the largest and his wealth is said to be in the tens of millions. The second aunt and third aunt's family are smaller, and they are also in the millions. The youngest uncle's family is close to one million.

The third uncle used to be a teacher in his hometown, but then the third aunt forced him to take a leave of absence without pay to start a business, and then he simply resigned.

What I see is their hard work and their struggle for life. What I want to learn is their fighting spirit, but not to follow the path they took. Are they relying on the "business" of "marriage" to make a fortune?

Ah? They should have succeeded by relying on the spirit of "husband and wife work together to make a difference"! Life is hard, but taking a "shortcut" may not be a "shortcut" in life.

I still remember one time when my third uncle took me to his house for dinner. We had a conversation. What impressed me most was that my third uncle had so much money, lived in such a nice house, had two children, and a car, and could eat whatever he wanted.

What, but he was still unhappy. He said something to me, and I think this sentence had a great impact on my life. He said: "No matter how you live, it will last a lifetime. If life can never be the same, I would rather myself

Be a teacher."

At that time, I didn't understand what he said. Now, holding Lin Ling, I don't know why I thought of this sentence. But what I thought more about was that I didn't want to miss Sister Lin Ling's happiness. On her terms,

Go back to your hometown to take over the factory, and then marry the person arranged by Uncle Chen. I believe that Uncle Chen has a good eye for people who can be attracted by him. She will be able to live a peaceful and happy life. What is love?

Ah, it still has to be built on a material basis. She may not understand "poor and lowly couples are miserable", but I understand. Because I have seen too much. These too many sufferings in life have made me feel deeply melancholy.

Although I thought a lot about it on the train, I didn't have a firm decision in my heart.

Now, I think I have figured it out. I gently let go of Sister Lin Ling. I wiped my tears and said to her with a smile: "Good sister, my brother understands your affection. It's just that I'm afraid I can't give it to you."

Happiness. Let’s always be good siblings, okay?”

Lin Ling said: "No, it hurts my heart very much when you say this. Do you know that?"

I said: "I'm sorry."

Lin Ling said: "I haven't heard you sing well yet. Please sing a song for me."

I thought about it, and I really can’t sing. I remembered the “weekly song” in the class when I was studying. It seemed that there was “Love Like Tide” written by Zhang Xinzhe, and I could barely sing it. So I said, okay. I’ll find one.

Come and sing.

The two of us found Jeff Chang's album in the CD folder. We put the disc in and started singing along with the melody.

Don’t ask why you shed tears

I don't care who else is in your heart

let me give you comfort

No matter the ending is happy or sad

Traveled through thousands of mountains and rivers

In my heart you are always so beautiful

Yeah yeah

Since you love me, you won’t regret it

No matter how much hardship I have, I am willing to bear it

my love is like a tide

Love is like a tide pushing me towards you

follow closely

Love is like a tide that surrounds you and me

I never want to see you get drunk late at night again

You don’t want other men to see your charm

You should know this would break my heart

Promise me you won't wander around late at night from now on

Don't try the taste of indulgence easily

Do you know this will break my heart

...

I sang with great concentration, and she listened attentively. When I finished singing, I saw her with tears streaming down her face.

I went to give her some boiling water. She said no more, and she went to take a bath. After washing and changing clothes, we went out to play.

She changed into a white dress and put on a pair of white pointed leather shoes.

We went out to the amusement park to play.

Merry-go-round, pirate ship, roller coaster... it was fun and exciting, as if the sadness of parting had been diluted by the excitement.

Tired of playing and crazy enough, the sky is getting dark.

I said, "Let's go have dinner."

She said: "I don't want to eat. You can take a taxi to take me back. I have to catch a flight in the evening."

I was stunned for a long time. "Didn't I say I wouldn't leave until after the Mid-Autumn Festival?"

She said: "We have had a very happy and unforgettable Mid-Autumn Festival."

Seeing that I didn't say anything, she added, "Isn't it true? I am very happy today. I want to bring today's beautiful memories back to Zhangzhou to accompany me throughout my life."

Just as we were talking, a taxi stopped in front of us, and the taxi driver asked: "Are you leaving?"

Sister Lin Ling said, "I'm leaving, Master, please wait for me." After saying that, she hugged me and said, "In the future, come to Zhangzhou to see me. I'll make soup for you."

My unsatisfactory tears couldn't help but flow down.

She said: "Fool, just smile."

I forced a smile, but I knew that smile must be uglier than crying. Sister Lin Ling kissed me, turned around and got in the car, and drifted away in the confusion...

I was left standing alone on the empty street. It seemed like I was the only one left in the whole world.

I was so lost that I didn't know where to go.
Chapter completed!