During my first half of my life, although I was sad because of my mother's early death.

But when I was five years old, I was taken from the palace full of white spiritual banners by my father to the queen's Kunning Palace by my mother. When I saw the tall figure of the girl known as the morning light of the empire, when she stretched out her still slender and tender hand to hold my hand, and showed me a gentle and dazzling smile, my ignorant sadness seemed to be the mist on the water, gradually dissipating.

She squatted down, held me in her arms, and said gently in my ear: "Young lady, don't cry. My elder sister will take care of you for your mother in the future, and she will never bully you for the rest of her life."

I will always remember how warm her hug was, which was warmer than the mother who always cared about dressing up and was looking forward to the arrival of her father.

I could only touch the gorgeous and cold pearls on my mother's body. She was always afraid that hugging us would mess up her hair and wrinkle her clothes. I could no longer remember the last time she hugged us.

But the eldest sister always has only the fragrance of sunshine and warm body temperature. She never cares about us pulling off her hairpin and pulling her head crown.

...

Even that year, she was a girl who was only ten years old, but she was already on the shoulders of the guards and could easily pick up the five-year-old me, and even picked up the thin and small Yuzhi who always likes to cry but doesn't like to eat.

Queen Nan has been in poor health after giving birth to her younger brother. She was a gentle woman. Although she was not as beautiful as her mother, I think she was more like a gentle mother than her mother.

She didn't like Yuzhi and me so much, and she also had to take care of her second brother, who was in poor health and the youngest Yuzhi, so she rarely came to our side hall to see us.

The wet nurse said that I would learn to please Empress Nan, but I would rather spend such time following the elder sister, even if I just looked at her, I would feel warmth.

This kind of thing that pleases Empress Nan is more suitable for crying Bao Yuzhi.

He is also willing to do it.

But I just want to follow my elder sister.

The eldest sister is very busy every day. Everyone knows that the eldest sister wants to inherit the throne, and will be named the crown prince before she gets the ceremony.

Every day, she has to learn a lot of things with the Grand Tutor, and it depends on how her father handles political affairs.

But she never gets impatient. Even if Yuzhi and I were crying and cheating, she would patiently embrace and comfort us, as if no one in this world could make her angry.

But no one dared to make her angry, not only the palace servants, but also me and Yuzhi.

My brother has always been jealous of Yuzhi and I for the most care we have from my elder sister. Although he is his own sister, he already has Empress Nan, so why do you still have to compete with me for my elder sister?

In other words, not only my brothers, but all my brothers and sisters were jealous of Yuzhi and I forgot the most attention of my elder sister.

But I was very proud. Yuzhi and I were the only princes and princess who were qualified to live in Kunning Palace. We lived in the side hall of the eldest sister and could have breakfast with our eldest sister every day.

The eldest sister is always like the brightest morning glow, and no one is more suitable to become the future empress than her.

So the thirteen-year-old enthronement ceremony was as grand as expected. Yuzhidu and I prepared our favorite gift to give to our elder sister.

I still remember that the elder sister stood in a red robe on the golden hall, still with childishness, but increasingly beautiful and heroic face, the gentle and grand smile on her face, the red cherry blossom mark on her lower lips was bright and beautiful, and her eyes overlooking the courtiers and us were distant and deep, dazzling but not dazzling, completely different from us, the children who were yellow-mouthed.

At that moment, I suddenly felt that there was no title like Empire Morning Light that was more suitable for the elder sister.

All our brothers and sisters knelt happily and looked up at our elder sister, who was born to sit on the Golden Throne.

That year, Yuzhi and I were both eight years old...

Mr. has begun to teach us history.

The royal struggles in history books, the tragic flesh and blood, and the tragic flesh and feet will never happen in our homes.

Yes, I call that cold, distinctive palace home.

Even if I vaguely understand from the nanny that the death of my mother was not so simple, it is said that the men of the Tian family are so dazzling, but our mother, Concubine Shen, has a bright appearance, and is the only one in the palace that is more dazzling than the appearance of his father when he was young.

I know that my father likes his mother very much, but his love for her mother made her ambitions expand too much.

She is the only concubine in the palace who gave birth to twins for hundreds of years, and the Imperial Heavenly Prison praised it as a sign of good luck.

The only one who gave birth to twins in the Dayuan Dynasty was the founding empress.

The ‘Good Omen’ represented by Yuzhi made her think that some of us could replace our elder sister.

But how could Queen Nan, that gentle woman, and that first wife who was not so loving but respected her very much, watch her elder sister be indifferent to being harmed by her mother?

She could tolerate her mother taking away the love of her father, but she would never allow her children to be touched.

The mother's mother only has unparalleled beauty, but she is not the rival of Queen Nan and the Nan family, so she died.

hehe……

A long time later, I learned all the truth, and I just wanted to smile. The nanny looked at me like I was a cold-blooded monster, because I was not sad at all.

The wet nurse is stupid and vulgar.

She didn't understand how a person like her eldest sister could be replaced. No one could replace her, whether it was me or Yuzhi.

As long as the elder sister is still there, the court that killed the mother's mother is the warmest home for me and Yuzhi.

The father was sad for a long time because of his mother's death. He no longer had the chance to be lucky to be a new concubine. In fact, according to the standards of a historical emperor, he only had Empress Nan, and our concubine's mother, Xian Zhaoyi and a man who didn't even have a title. Li Guipin, who was promoted from a palace servant, was already a rare infatuated emperor.

Fortunately, this wife and three concubines gave birth to many children for him. Queen Guangnan and my mother had five children, Xian Zhaoyi and Li Guipin also had six children, so he did not lack children.

But because of the death of his mother, he treated me and Yuzhi better than other children.

Because of the elder sister, no one dared to look down on us. Even Queen Nan took care of us a little more and showed her rare tenderness. Even if she killed our mother, we were still the most beloved children in the palace besides the legitimate prince.

I have to admit that Queen Nan is a qualified queen, and it is natural that her mother cannot beat her.

In my long and short childhood before I was fourteen, I was as happy as a carefree bird. In my world, only my elder sister and my crybaby twin brother, Yuzhi.

My elder sister has always been a promise, and she has fulfilled her promise. The elder sister is like a mother. In those years, she gave me and Yuzhi more than our mothers.

The eldest sister is our master, our sister, and our friend. She never thinks our childish words are ridiculous.

Even after she moved to the Eastern Palace when she was thirteen years old, Yuzhi and I were forced to follow her to the Eastern Palace by force. She tried to persuade Queen Nan and our father, and even blocked the courtiers' discussion.

She said that we are the "auspicious" from the sky and will surely protect the East Palace and the dynasty. She said that Yuzhi and I were only eight years old, but just ignorant children.

But at that time she didn't know, her father didn't know, Empress Nan didn't know, court officials didn't know, people in the world didn't know, and Emperor Empress Tu didn't know.

We are not auspicious or simple children at all. We do not protect anyone. We are a sign of disaster!

Especially my twin brother, Qiu Yuzhi.

He doesn't look like me at all. He has a special good appearance, or to put it more bluntly - he has a confusing beauty.

From the father and from our mother.

As he grew up, this beauty became more and more dazzling and attracted everyone's attention.

And as he grew up, his viciousness became more and more obvious.

During my long and tormented life, I always recalled it again and again.

What exactly is it that makes him look terrible.

He was such a crying and weak person when he was young.

Later, I thought, maybe some people were born in a poisonous pond and started to rot like mud from the bottom of their hearts.

Qiu Yuzhi is the evil flower in the poisonous pond.

The more gorgeous it is, the more toxic it is.

...

And in the long nights that followed, I regretted it every time I dreamed of it at midnight, and I felt so regretful that I trembled all over.

Why, why didn’t you strangle him to death earlier!

He was obviously so thin and so weak before he was fourteen years old.

Why, why didn’t I remind my elder sister earlier that he is such a terrible monster?

Maybe, I told my elder sister earlier that I would kill him earlier, or send him to the palace, or ban him in the circle, wouldn’t there be so many tragic things that would not have happened later, without those bloody storms?

Will my brothers and sisters not die?

And can my favorite elder sister survive?

Always be with us forever.

When did you start to discover his viciousness?

Did it start with him crying and breaking a kitten's neck?

Did it start when he cut open the belly of the little pigeon that his second brother gave him and pushed it onto my head with an innocent look on his face?

Did it start with the throat of the old eunuch who used a knife to cut open the throat of his beautiful face?

Did it start with him digging down the eyes of the little palace maid who looked at him more?

Or start with him trying to push his youngest brother, who was held in his elder sister's arms, out of the pond?

ah--

...

Every night, every midnight dream, I tossed and turned, and woke up in tears.

Why was I so cowardly back then, why was I threatened by him?

That year, that day was my fourteenth birthday. The moment before, I was wearing a fire-like robe used by the eldest sister, the eldest sister, and held her hand and acted coquettishly, begged her to draw a painting for me as a gift for her birthday.

No one in the court knew that the Emperor Taiwo of Ming Lie was a master of calligraphy and painting master Yan, who was a rare master of calligraphy and painting in a century, and also missionaries from the West, were very good at painting.

I looked at the elder sister's heroic face and gentle and focused expression. I fantasized that the prince consort I found in the future must always be kind to me like the elder sister, be gentle to me, tolerate me, love me, and be as good-looking as the elder sister!
To be continued...