Chapter 248 Because I Love Him
Song Xiaojing didn't expect that Song Anle could explain her intentions so bluntly. It was obvious that she was not because of some concern. Perhaps to be precise, she was just for the supreme title, but she still said with relief: "You are finally no longer obsessed with the promises you once made, I am really happy for you."
Song Xiaojing's words seemed to remind Song Anle that since she was not obsessed with those meaningless promises, does it also mean that Bai Huaqing can also boldly pursue her own happiness?
Song Anle couldn't explain the truth, so she just said meaningfully: "What I am persistent in is never a promise. Maybe one day, I will also selfishly pursue happiness."
She didn't mean to imply something, but she just hoped that in the next day, they would understand that everything she did was not because of those promises, but just that complicated relationship. But she also revealed that maybe she would give up living for others and pursue her own happiness when she was tired that day.
"No matter what, I will bless you." Song Xiaojing couldn't fully pay attention to Song Anle's words, but she firmly believed that she would figure it out, which was the biggest shortcoming of her curiosity.
"Thank you, then I'll leave first." Song Anle said, and stood up to leave.
Song Xiaojing nodded, "Be careful."
Song Anle left with a smile. When she walked out of this kind of palace, she felt inexplicably relaxed. Perhaps every link in Song Xiaojing was too cautious, so she was so depressed that it made her unable to breathe.
After finally absorbing the comfortable air, Song Anle walked alone in the garden, facing the budding stamens in the garden, she seemed to see the former ones from it.
At that time, they all had a girlish feeling, yearned for different futures, recalled every time they passed, and moved towards an unknown future. Even so, they could live carefree.
That time that is not distinguished from you and me is like the flower stamens waiting to be released in front of you. They are in a delicate time, but they do not compete with you and me, nor do they distinguish between beauty. Only you are next to me, and I snuggle with your expectations.
It’s a pity that the beauty they once expected has become different today, perhaps because they once imagined that they loved beauty, or because they have changed too much now, so she is always unwilling to accept it.
Walking around without realizing it, Song Anle had deviated from the route and did not want to welcome a familiar figure. She looked blankly. This was the first time she had seen Gao Yuanyi again since the talent show, but he was no longer alone, but accompanied by Shen Xiaoya.
"Anle." Although Shen Xiaoya noticed Song Anle's gaze at Gao Yuanyi, she still felt very surprised to welcome her because she disappeared for a long time.
"Xiaoya." Song Anle also greeted Shen Xiaoya, but in front of Gao Yuanyi, she nodded and said, "See King Yong."
Without waiting for Gao Yuanyi to say anything, Shen Xiaoya held Song Anle's hand intimately and said happily: "I miss you so much for so long."
Song Anlia smiled calmly and said, "I miss you too, but I haven't had the right opportunity to see you. How are you doing? Are you still used to it?"
Shen Xiaoya pouted and said unhappily: "I'm still like that. As long as I have food and play, it's the same everywhere. It's just that you are missing by your side, which is a bit boring."
"When I have determined my residence, you will always come to see me in the future."
Listening to Song Anle's words, Chen Xiaoya said in surprise: "Why, do you have no place to live now? Haven't you been given a gift as a refill? Do they dare to abuse the people given by the Empress?"
Song Anle didn't know how to explain, and Gao Yuanyi stood beside him, so they couldn't ignore him directly, so she said embarrassedly: "No, it's not, I'm not sure where to live for the time being."
"Oh..." Chen Xiaoya nodded thoughtfully and suddenly said in surprise: "By the way, are you also running for the position of the eldest prince's imperial concubine?"
Song Anle subconsciously glanced at Gao Yuanyi. She was already ashamed of his affection. It would be a bit bad if she was talking about Gao Yuanshang in front of him.
Even if Gao Yuanyi had any prejudice against Song Anle, when facing her, he couldn't help but want to help her rescue, so he stepped forward and said, "Xiaoya, aren't you going to visit Concubine Jing? You go there first, I will come later."
Chen Xiaoya saw some of the connection between them, but she nodded a little slow and said, "Oh, then I'll go there first. Anle, you must come to see me if you have time."
Song Anle also nodded and said, "I can do it, take good care of myself."
After sending Chen Xiaoya away, the two of them fell into silence. Song Anle had a long time of trouble. Because she didn't know how to speak, so after a while, Gao Yuanyi took the initiative to say, "Can you go together?"
"King Yong, I..." Even though Song Anle was broken, she still couldn't explain.
Gao Yuanyi only started now, avoiding Song Anle's embarrassment and hiding the gloom in his expression.
The two walked a long way, but still had no words, as if they were walking side by side, and the endless front was what they wanted.
"You don't have to make things difficult for me to explain the pearl hairpin to me. Xiaoya told me." Gao Yuanyi said calmly as he walked. In fact, after the misunderstanding was resolved, he had no barriers to Song Anle, but he couldn't accept it. In a blink of an eye, the woman who should have belonged to Gao Yuanshang's name.
Song Anle paused for a moment, and she still felt guilty when she looked at his silhouette. No matter what, Chen Xiaoya became Gao Yuanyi's person because of their mistakes. Even if they were not their own wishes, Song Anle still said lightly: "Xiaoya is also a good girl. I hope you can take care of her more."
Gao Yuanyi was in a state of silence. Song Anle knew that his heart was on her, but he still cruelly pushed him to another woman. So he said childishly: "What about you, is it your own thing to stay in Yongfu Palace?"
Song Anle couldn't explain her inner suffering, so she said lightly: "No matter what, I have the reason for staying. Maybe one day, I will tell you everything, but now is not the time."
Gao Yuanyi was also unable to figure out the relationship between her and Gao Yuanshang, as well as Bai Huaqing, but he would have the confidence to figure it out. By then, maybe everything was not as complicated as the status quo, so he said firmly: "Then I'll wait for you that day."
Song Anle knew that he could not give it to him, but he was waiting for the future, but he couldn't bear to wait for him, so she said with a serious and melancholy look on her face: "There are thousands of good women in the world, why do you have to wait for me, a worthless person?"
Gao Yuanyi looked calm and calm. Compared to Song Anle's melancholy, he said indifferently and boredly: "Just you said, maybe one day I will find that you are not worthy of my waiting, but at least I am willing to wait for you now."
Song Anle's tense heart was still touched. She couldn't make up her mind to decide him. She didn't dare to imagine whether it was cruel or beautiful after waiting for them. So she still said sadly: "If one day I let you down, please don't remember me."
Gao Yuanyi frowned slightly, and his heart suddenly hurt. He had never thought about this question. Now he was suddenly mentioned. He only had an answer in his consciousness. If he could not have her, he could at least hide her in his memories. But if he wanted to forget her, he would rather die first because he could not imagine the day he would completely lose her.
So he said solemnly: "If there was really a day, I would rather die."
"No." Song Anle grabbed his arm excitedly. Because she experienced the loss of family affection and the loss of relatives, she deeply felt the helplessness of losing, so she threw herself into Gao Yuanyi's arms in a wandering manner and said low and helplessly: "Promise me, no matter when, you must live well, even for me."
Gao Yuanyi comforted her wandering mind. Although he didn't know what Song Anle was saying, he felt the heavy burden in her heart, but she would rather bear it alone than say it and let him take it for her to bear it.
Because Song Anle's mood was so low, Gao Yuanyi didn't want to stay in this topic, so he said in a low voice: "It's too early to say this now, because I still have a chance to win you back."
Song Anle also moved out of his arms, looking at his firm attitude and expression, his inner persistence was revealed. Song Anle suddenly became ruthless and she said coldly: "Don't be persistent for me, I can't belong to you."
Gao Yuanyi was deeply locked in his eyebrows. He didn't intend to get involved with her. However, he accidentally discovered that Gao Yuanshang and Gao Yuankang were coming from not far away. So he grabbed Song Anle's shoulders and said excitedly: "Why? Tell me why?"
"Because I love Gao Yuanshang." Song Anle also excitedly broke away from his hand. Since she was cruel to refuse, she said ruthlessly: "I love him, so I am willing to wait for him. Are you satisfied with this?"
Gao Yuanyi seemed to hear his heartbreak. The sounds of broken sounds were like sharp needles, deeply piercing into every cell of his cell. Perhaps only in this way can Song Anle be forced to tell the truth, at least let Gao Yuanshang know that Song Anle loves him.
After fulfilling others and breaking his heart, Gao Yuanyi subconsciously glanced at Gao Yuanshang behind her, and then left alone with his scarred body.
Song Anle also left tears of heartache when Gao Yuanyi turned around. She seemed to see his broken heart from Gao Yuanyi's injured eyes. It was a trace of her own crushing hand and could never be repaired again.
Chapter completed!