After Quan Yuichi's figure completely disappeared from the iron gate of Tang Ze Shisui's small rental house, Tang Ze Shisui's figure still stood in front of the door, and his eyes seemed to see Mr. Quan walking further and further away through the iron gate, corridor, house, and trees.

As if she was watching him go away, or she was placing her dependence and love in this way, she had not moved her body for a long time.

Tang Ze Shisui is very careful about his love, because he deeply understands that he should know how to give to the person he likes, so he should give it without reservation in all directions and desire that the other party can stay.

It seems that in her eyes, she has never been good at asking for a time-consuming hug or kiss from her.

As long as you can be by her side and as long as you can leave a small place in her heart, you can do anything.

That's why she thanked Quan Youyi so much, and felt unprecedented cherishing of the almost doting love. She carefully hid the other person's love in her heart, held it in her palm and cared for it, for fear of letting the other person down, for fear of making the other person unhappy...

If you want the other person to feel happy and happy because of getting along with him, Shisui Tang Ze is not a fool. Of course, you can understand and understand the efforts of Yuichi Izumi for her - that you want to walk out of this small world by yourself and want to live and interact like other normal people...

That's why I let myself go out with Mr. Quan, and let myself eat and sleep well.

Once upon a time, in Tang Ze Shisui's heart, she actually wanted to make a good friend, have someone to talk, go out to play normally with friends without feeling nervous, and talk about some popular topics recently, instead of being able to stammer when she talks...

She hates such a person, and wants to change but has no idea how to start.

Her family and growing environment have pushed her heart to death. No one has ever told her what to do. No one cares whether she dies, disappears, or what happens.

Whether her father disliked herself or drove herself out of her country house; she came to Tokyo alone to look for her mother, but found that she also hated her as a burden. She had not yet enjoyed the taste of maternal love and was forced to leave her new family; she finally had a friend in high school, but had to drop out of school...

She survived all these sad, sad, and desperate moments...

Even if you cry and shed tears, no one can see it...

This is the same this time. After accidentally seeing the comments that insulted me in the comment section, Shisui Tang Ze’s first thought was not that she felt the atmosphere and doubts, but that she really thought that she had drawn something wrong...

The misogynistic they talk about... Although they know nothing about this thing, if the other party says it, they might have inadvertently drawn the wrong one?

Tang Ze Shisui's inherent thinking is like this. Even if she sometimes feels aggrieved and sad, she still thinks it is her own problem...

People often say that if a person has experienced too many unlucky things, people will either become angry or become numb, but this is not the case with Shisui Tang Ze...

If you want to explain the reasons for these things in detail, it is all your fault, right?

If parents can bravely stand up and persuade them to reconcile when they are quarreling, their parents will not be separated.

If you can explain clearly to your classmates and teachers, you will not be dropped out of school.

If I could keep in touch with Shuzi, I wouldn't have lost this only friend.

If you are more careful when drawing, you will not be disliked by readers...

Everything seems to be covered by the self-blame behind that simple "if"...

But I can't refuse Mr. Quan's encouragement and kindness, because I can understand the other party's thoughts of making me better, so even if I know so much blame and insult, I have to pretend that nothing is wrong.

Tang Ze Shisui stood at the door and waited for a long time. After she could not feel the figure and breath of Izumi Yuichi from afar, she hesitated to capture the warmth he had just left in the room...

It was as if he was still here, as if the other party was still comforting himself who was a little sad after being insulted and sarcastic...

She pursed her lips and ran to the soft bed secretly, then covered her bedding tightly without any gaps.

Like a cute snail, she retracted her soft and fragile body into a hard shell. Every time she felt sad and happy, she would do this, in the darkness and warmth of the bedding, she silently endured everything alone.

But today, those insults that you can't forget at a glance still popped up in your mind from time to time.

"It's so disgusting. I don't know what kind of person the writer who draws this kind of comics..."

"Resolutely resist misogynistic comics and resolutely resist misogynistic comics!"

Lines of text emerged, just like the real person behind the computer screen shouting and insulting at her, a hint of coldness quietly emerged, and even hiding in the bedding could not avoid such feelings and sadness...

A person can't see the place, and his eyes were quietly dyed with a wet red color. The tears were like the shaking raindrops in the sky, making people feel sore...

"Don't cry, don't cry..."

She wiped her eyes, then buried her head in the place where Izumi Yuichi slept before, then got up and adjusted the quilt with her hands, like a broad big hand covering half of her body...

If this is the case, Mr. Quan slept with his pillow as his body, and he likes to hide it in his arms the most, quietly feeling his hot temperature and heartbeat...

Just such a simple fantasy can satisfy her and give her a lot of security...

If he had acted coquettishly to Mr. Quan at that time, he would have asked him to stay with him for a while... it would have been a good idea. Tang Ze Shisui was fantasizing in her heart...

Because it is a fantasy, you can be bolder and think about things that cannot happen in reality - she cannot disrupt Mr. Quan's arrangements and plans just because she wants to alleviate the little sadness in her heart.

After rubbing against the pillow of Izumi Yuichi, she suddenly remembered something and blinded her eyes with her fingers, so that she could not see the comments on the computer screen.

"Ding" ran barefoot to the front of the computer desk, blocking his eyes and turning off the computer's host...

Then he pursed his lips and came to the window, and took down the sunny doll made by Quan Youyi...

The soft fingers rubbed the texture of the doll's surface, and the cute and warm feeling surged into my heart, just as lovely as the sunshine before...

After getting the doll, she ran back to her bed, hugged the little sunny doll in the dark space covered by the bedding...

It was like hugging Quan Yuichi, although he couldn't speak.

She closed her eyes and secretly kissed the doll's surface, enduring the wet cry in her murmur, as if comforting herself, and as if she was telling her thoughts to the sunny doll representing Izumi Yuichi.
Chapter completed!