Chapter 823: Fool yourself first(1/2)
There wasn't much to say about Lao Zhou's funeral. It was ordinary, simple and ordinary.
There was no great dignity. After the cremation, I came back with the urn and simply built a funeral shed in the courtyard of the old house.
There were not many relatives and friends to say goodbye. The old Zhou family who came from Guandong had no relatives in Jichun.
When things go wrong here, Guangzi Film mainly relies on its neighbors. There are not many neighbors who come to Lao Zhou's house, only the nearest few neighbors who live there.
I don’t have many friends, and those who came here as friends are Cai Xiaoguang and Zhou Bingkun’s three friends.
"Dongmei, please go back and have a good rest. You still have work to do in the hospital."
"Guangming, the worship is over, you should take your sister and children and go home to rest. I can be here alone."
"Feng Yue, you should go back with your dad. There is no need to stay here."
Zhou Bingyi sent away Hao Dongmei, Zhou Bingkun sent away his family, Zhou Rong also sent away Feng Huacheng and Feng Yue, leaving only Li Suhua and his three siblings in the Zhou family's old house.
Li Suhua was mourning in the house, and Zhou Bingkun and the other two were mourning in the mourning shed in the courtyard.
"Bingyi, Zhou Rong, Bingkun, in such a cold weather, there is no need to keep vigil outside. You all should go back to your house and sleep."
At around nine o'clock, Li Suhua came out of the house and asked people to go back to the house.
It has passed the winter solstice, and it is already the coldest time of the year. Winter nights in Jichun often reach minus 30 to 40 degrees below zero, and it is unbearable for people to be outside, even if they light a stove.
"Okay, let's all go inside. This is not the time for those who are filial and unfilial."
Zhou Bingkun responded and was the first to get up and go back to the house.
There is no one left, and it doesn't make much sense to have to stay outside in the cold to show filial piety.
Zhou Bingkun felt that he had no guilt towards Lao Zhou and had done the best he could to Lao Zhou.
At this time, I returned home without any worries.
Zhou Bingkun ensured that Lao Zhou had no worries about food and clothing and had a later life without having to worry about money.
This is a state that many old men and women cannot get what they want.
First, he took Lao Zhou to the capital for medical treatment. After Lao Zhou died, Zhou Bingkun paid for a nanny to take care of him.
Lao Zhou doesn't have to do anything at home and has a nanny to take care of him.
There are thousands of households in Guangzhou, but few old men and women can live a good life.
As for Lao Zhou's treatment in his later years, which old man or lady wouldn't express envy when she saw it?
Lao Zhou felt that his poor life in his later years was mostly due to Lao Zhou himself.
After being unable to work at the construction site, Lao Zhou did not develop any decent old age hobbies.
Looking for people to chat with, play chess, cards, mahjong, dance yangko, exercise, or walk around the alley, Lao Zhou doesn't have any such entertainment that can kill time.
Being passive and active all day without going out and staying at home will inevitably make you feel bored and tortured.
In addition, there are no children to come back to visit, and no children and grandchildren to surround one's knees. Naturally, one of the most important family happiness for the elderly is missing.
Lao Zhou will inevitably feel that his life in his later years is unhappy, unhappy, and has no sense of experience.
But for Lao Zhou's emotional problems, he should look to Zhou Bingyi, Zhou Rong, and Zhou Bingkun.
Zhou Bingyi and Zhou Rong were unwilling to give Lao Zhou emotional care, and they only blamed Lao Zhou's own education.
Lao Zhou taught two people to be selfish. If two people can be selfish and only pursue their own ideals and do what they like, Lao Zhou should have the greatest satisfaction.
Lao Zhou shouldn't be blamed because no one cares about his mental and emotional well-being.
Lao Zhou never gave Zhou Bingkun this aspect, and Zhou Bingkun naturally didn't need to give back in this aspect.
Zhou Bingkun came to visit Lao Zhou every day. Lao Zhou didn't care about Zhou Bingkun, and he couldn't make up for Lao Zhou's emotional shortcomings.
What Zhou Bingkun has to do is to repay Lao Zhou's upbringing in material terms. The main thing is to pay, pay, pay.
In terms of spending money, Zhou Bingkun has gone above and beyond his duty to do his best.
It was Lao Zhou who cared about face all his life and hoped that he could have a decent funeral and a grand burial.
In fact, Zhou Bingkun can also help Lao Zhou achieve it.
It's just that Zhou Bingyi decided to keep things simple, and Zhou Bingkun insisted on making big things happen. It was as if he wanted to deliberately harm Zhou Bingyi, so he didn't force it.
It's not worth Zhou Bingkun's quarrel with Zhou Bingyi to mourn Lao Zhou after his death.
"Let's go back to the house. Dad doesn't want to see us freezing outside."
Zhou Bingkun was in the best shape and couldn't bear the cold. Zhou Bingyi and Zhou Rong's bodies naturally couldn't bear it either. They entered the house a little later than Zhou Bingkun.
"Bingkun, why are you sitting at the door?"
Zhou Bingyi came in and saw Zhou Bingkun sitting on the lounge chair at the door, and asked in surprise.
"You guys go and rest on the kang. You are all old, in your fifties, over fifty, and you need to rest better. I will be guarding the stove at the door. It is warm here and you can still worry about it.
Click outside.”
Zhou Rong is fifty and Zhou Bingyi is fifty-two. In fact, these two are not young anymore.
Zhou Bingkun mentioned this because he didn't really care about these two people, or he was looking for an excuse to stay at the door.
The main thing is to guard against Li Suhua, the mastermind, and prevent Li Suhua from sneaking out at night.
"Okay, let's go to the back room to rest. If you can't hold it anymore, call me and I'll take your place." Zhou Bingyi said politely and went to the back room.
The two of them went to sleep on Li Suhua's kang, so that they could accompany and comfort Li Suhua.
Yesterday I spent a whole day on the road, and today I had another day of funeral arrangements.
These two days have been quite tiring, both physically and mentally.
After ten o'clock, Zhou Bingkun heard someone falling asleep in the back room.
Zhou Bingkun lay down on the recliner, covered himself with a coat, and fell asleep.
"Bingkun. Bingkun, it won't be cold if you sleep at the door. You'd better sleep on the kang."
When he was sleeping soundly, Zhou Bingkun felt someone filming him.
"Mom, I can sleep here. Why did you wake up? Did I heat the kang too hot and you couldn't sleep?"
"No, I'm thinking about your dad. I'll go outside and take a look."
Seeing that Zhou Bingyi and Zhou Rong were both snoring while sleeping, Li Suhua did not sleep well.
You know who cares most about Lao Zhou.
"It's so cold outside, you'd better not go out. I'll just go outside and look around for you."
Zhou Bingkun didn't let Li Suhua go out and ran outside to take a look.
The memorial shed was properly set up and was not blown away. Several wreaths and paper were placed outside.
After adding a stick of incense and some oil to the everlasting lamp, Zhou Bingkun returned to the house, while Li Suhua was still standing at the door.
"Mom, I went outside to take a look. Everything that needs to be done is done. You should go back and rest quickly."
"Hey, I want to go out and be with your dad, otherwise he would be so lonely."
Seeing Li Suhua dressed neatly, it really doesn't look like she just goes out to look around.
"Mom, why is it so cold outside? How could I let you go out? Our whole family is here, and it's the same with the old man in the house."
If you really don't care about Li Suhua, let Li Suhua go out to accompany Lao Zhou and freeze to death in front of Lao Zhou's soul.
Li Suhua died in love with Lao Zhou, which looks very touching and romantic.
But this incident was actually quite cruel, whether it was to Li Suhua or the rest of the old Zhou family.
The feeling of being frozen to death was absolutely uncomfortable. Li Suhua wanted to go with Lao Zhou, but it was just an impulse caused by a temporary burst of negative emotions.
In fact, no matter how great the pain is, it will become much smaller after the passage of time.
After the saddest period has passed, it is impossible for Li Suhua to have such thoughts again.
After a person seeking death is rescued, few people will have the second thought of seeking death.
It is enough to show that attachment to life is human instinct.
"Then mom will stay with you at the door. This is closer to your dad."
"Okay, I'll get your bedding. You can sleep on this recliner. I'll just move a chair to sit and have a rest."
At this time, Zhou Bingkun looked at his watch and saw that the time was just after two o'clock in the morning.
Li Suhua felt sad and couldn't sleep. Zhou Bingkun slept for a few hours and was not so sleepy.
So I accompanied Li Suhua and started chatting.
Li Suhua began to recall the past again, starting from when she married Lao Zhou in her hometown in Shandong.
Zhou Bingkun's main message is to persuade Li Suhua to be more open-minded.
Without Lao Zhou in her life, she would not be unable to survive. In the first dozen years of her life, Li Suhua actually lived quite well without Lao Zhou.
To be continued...