The night is the wolf's deep eyes, waiting for dawn alone.

This time was the longest big holiday I had for myself after I came out of social work, and I started to feel confused. For more than half a month, it seemed that I had passed so fast that I had no sense of existence. In other words, a holiday without a sense of reality.

The new little world has been perfected, but my heart is so messy. Did my thoughts deceive my body?

My thought is to quickly build a new small world so that my body can change back to its original rhythm. However, the new small world is back, but my body cannot feel happy. A kind of nothingness is constantly swallowing the expectation of the future in my heart, and gradually, some heart-like smell floated out...

This completely free vacation is something I longed for in the past! But why, during such a completely free vacation, I can't feel the joy brought by enjoying freedom? Moreover, there is a decadent and depravity that is entwining my body hard, making me unable to see hope.

A spiritual world with sunshine, which was originally a sunny spirit, gradually turned into a dark and dull ruin. Such changes were beyond my expectations. It seemed that I was deceived by myself...

This so-called complete freedom is not freedom at all, but another terrible bond that cannot be seen. Without the sunny heart, no matter how much time and space there is, you will not feel freedom. True freedom is in the heart, not in time and space.

So, when I see the happiness of office workers on holidays, I am very envious. That is freedom! At the beginning, I also had... In the future, there should be...

When my spiritual world is not rotating normally or there is no one in my mind and body on the road, that proves that I am on a downhill or in a low point.

I was in a low period during this period and was in a very bad mood, so I stayed up for a lot of nights...

However, I do not reject the trough period. I used to be very resistant, but now I can accept it. Because, this is normal. Life has ups and downs. Just like the mountains ahead, there are highs and lows. There are many subtle things that are thought of in the trough. In the trough, you can see a lot, whether it is a person or a thing...

It is not scary to spend the middle of a trough period. What is scary is that I am used to spending the middle of a trough period and do not want to climb up. I am scared of this.

Therefore, we need to awaken and re-turn the spiritual world.

In the world, relatives and friends can bring you strength, but the only one who can truly save you is yourself. Just like that, if you are not brave, who will be strong for you?

Huh, I have drunk so much of the heart chicken soup, but it is not a waste. Even if I can't drink it, I won't make my face pale and thin. The heart chicken soup is not poisonous, and I don't know how to drink it, so it is poisonous.

After self-salvation, I focused on the singing part of the spiritual world that day. Well, I sang on the National K-sing. In fact, I am used to singing a cappella. If I sing with music, it is difficult for me to sing, unless the song is very low.

However, it was really surprising that day. I was scared by myself! I could actually sing a song that was a bit high notes for me, and I also got an S rating. For me, I could really say that I was looking up at me at that time from the perspective of looking up.

As for why I can sing, maybe it’s because I sing my own songs from time to time, so I have practiced my throat. Well, nothing is in vain!

Late that night, riding "Xiao Perfect" to the bank to buy a kettle with money, and then went to "March Feng" for a while. On the way, there was no one, and I saw a lonely back from afar.

That back was the back of a girl, shoulder-length hair, white dress and pajamas, wearing big headphones... The feeling of walking seemed to tell her worries. It seemed that she was a girl close to the state of a broken heart...

Well, my "thinking too much" has become sick again...

Huh, there is more than one lonely person.

After buying a kettle and returning to Xinxiaotiandi, as soon as I closed the door, it rained heavily outside immediately! So, well, my luck is still great!

However, in less than two minutes, the drain was burned off after using a kettle... Well, my luck is indeed great! It must be reminding me not to use cheap and inferior products, safety first! If I am not lucky, the drain might catch fire and cause a fire!

This is reasonable, I really believe...

Huh, I always feel that the new little world is awkward to call, change to a more innovative and sexy name...

OK! With it! Call me...heart heaven and earth!

Well... I'm sorry, I don't know him...

Time continues to go.

During this period, whenever someone asks me that sentence, I feel very confused.

That's it, have you found a job?

I don’t know why, but I just don’t want to hear that sentence. I also know that escaping is useless. What you should face, sooner or later. And I just need a process to uncover myself...

The sense of gap is really hard to control.

I could have developed steadily in Xidesheng, but under the dual effects of adventure and temptation, I never dreamed of leaving the country for more than half a year. In that half a year, I didn’t learn the same skills that could support myself, but I had a little more knowledge. When I returned to the same place, although I was still the place I liked at the time, my sense of psychological gap could no longer allow me to face this place with the same mentality as I did at the time...

At the beginning, the Beast Squad Leader advised me to stay and not go so far, it was so dangerous... But I still smiled and said that I would go out and see the outside world.

After seeing the outside world a little, I came back, but I didn’t know how to face Xidesheng…

In the final analysis, it is my psychological effect, or perhaps it is face that is causing trouble. Everyone knows that face is not worth it. However, a kind of "face view" instilled by the family since childhood means that if you don't care, you can ignore it? Therefore, I need a process to relieve myself. What others can't help is because it is a heart disease, and I have to overcome it by myself.

Perhaps, it's like love too.

For example, a boy was originally with a very real girl and lived happily. Later, the boy met a beautiful and rich girl in a special opportunity. So the boy broke up with the real girl and lived a faraway place with the beautiful and rich girl. During the half year of their life, the boy gradually realized that he was not happy and would miss the kindness of the real girl to him from time to time. So, he broke up with the beautiful and rich girl. However, he no longer knew what identity to face the real girl. Looking at her from afar, he felt that it was a wound in his heart...

Therefore, when someone asks me if I have found a job, it is like asking me if I have found a girlfriend. Huh, don't... I want to be quiet...

Of course, the nature of work and love is different. I just suddenly felt like connecting them.

I have my plans. Although I can't say for sure when I will find a job, I have a time limit in my mind, but I just don't want to say it.

As the heart and world become more and more perfect, my spiritual world will give me spiritual strength.

Thinking too much is a very serious disease! Because it can corrode a person's inner hope and deepen people's fear of the future.

In this regard, there is only one way to cure the disease of "thinking too much"!

Hum? What method?

The method is to not think too much.

Can I chat happily?

Yes, if you suddenly smile, do you feel that you have forgotten a little fear?

Well...probably...it seems...

When you think about the questions I asked seriously, you have not thought too much.

Oh? Could it be...

That’s right, I came out tonight and actually forgot to bring the money!!

Ah?!You...

Let's go back... The wind is so cool tonight!

Haha, I understand.

Haha, do you really understand?

I understand... I really understand...

OK, I love you! (To be continued)
Chapter completed!