Don’t let the future you hate yourself now.

We must let our future self be grateful to you now.

The present me is the future me in the past. Although I missed a lot in the past, those are the price of growth, and I don’t blame him. Moreover, I am very grateful to him!

He did something very important - to write something.

Now, after a period of low time, I finally see clearly what is not mine and what is mine.

When I lose my job, the most vivid material wealth - money, will continue to decrease, will lose, will not think about staying, and will not have too many memories.

Even if I have been working hard day and night for it, in the end, when I am tired and want to take a break, it will turn around and leave without a slight hesitation.

Looking at it, although there is a hint of excitement, there is no sense of security at all. It seems that in the blink of an eye, it is passing by.

When it seems like a lot, the whole person feels that the world belongs to him and even forgets the way life looks. When it is left with a trace, it feels that the whole world is about to collapse, and is even afraid to face the life that has been forgotten by him.

If I am the king of a country in my heart, then it is a beauty that will bring disaster to the world, and a smile can make the country beautiful. The country is easy to change, but the nature is difficult to change. I don’t love the country, but I love beauty. In the end, my whole heart falls...

I thought that having it was really possession. It turned out that it was just my own wishful thinking.

After I lost my job, I was in a low point and couldn't extricate myself many times. What gave me motivation and a little hope was my spiritual wealth - something I wrote for several years.

After losing my job, I was in a confused and desolate place and didn’t know what I could do. There was no direction, no guidance, and no sense of existence.

But when I look at what I have written for several years, I feel a special touch. It is the crystallization of my growth process. Even if the money goes away, it won’t leave, no matter how worrying my situation is…

It is mine, it is mine. Although it will not bring me material wealth now, with it in my heart, I will feel very safe! Because it will not lie to me, will not fool me, and will not leave me...

Its existence is my hope! It seems that it can also make me feel that I exist.

I am confused, it can give me direction;

I was scared, it could give me courage;

I am lost, it can comfort me;

I gave up, it can support me;

I insisted, it can cheer me up;

I'm rebellious, it can give me trust.

When I feel that the world no longer trusts me, it will still quietly coax me next to my heart...

So, now I am very grateful to myself for writing about more than 600,000 words of things in the past. Every time I feel these more than 600,000 words of things, I really feel that my world is still my world.

Recently I read a very good book called "When Your Talent Can't Support Your Dreams".

There is a passage in this book: Bonnie Bonnie said that we must find something that can make us stand firmly with our feet besides love. Today I suddenly realized that we also need to find something that can make us feel our existence besides work. This thing may be a hobby, a habit, or anything. But no matter what it is, it must be something that you feel sad and lost when you work for eight hours, or even lose your job, and even when you think about it in the dark night, which can make you fall asleep with tears, and can say "it's okay" to yourself when you wake up the next day.

I think what I wrote is such a thing to me.

I don’t know whether the future self will hate the present me. Because the present self is also gambled for the future self. Whether to lose or win, can only let time give us the answer.

But at least, now I don’t regret my choice. Even though I don’t get the recognition of my family and have led to rebellion, I still have to take this bet.

I am not afraid of the future self-loving self-loving hate this, why I gambled this, what I am afraid of is that I regret this, why I gambled this, now I gambled this.

So, I am selfish... (To be continued)
Chapter completed!