Maybe I hope to shine too much, so God satisfies my hope and brings me to the trough of darkness. The greater the hope in my heart, the deeper the trough will be, because the darker the light will be, the more visible the light it emits, although it is weak...

On the evening of April 5, 2017, Aunt called me from her hometown and chatted with me...

About love, about longing for the future, about helplessness in the arrangement of fate, about everything that is afraid of being too late...

The countdown seemed to be getting closer. As a child, what I was most worried about at that time was Uncle's physical health and his mentality...

Actually, I'm so scared...

I was so afraid to hear my aunt say that my uncle was afraid, and I was afraid that my aunt said that my uncle was sad and sad. I said that as long as my uncle is not afraid, I will not be afraid. But if my uncle is afraid, I will feel so painful...

Before the phone call, I asked my aunt to ask my uncle what else I hadn't fulfilled...

So, Auntie is going to answer me.

Aunt said with a little choked: "I asked your uncle what other wishes he would like to fulfill. Your uncle said, I hope Jinlong can have three sons and two daughters, that's enough.

Then, he said, if God could give me more than ten years of life, or three more years, but...

I told him in tears, "Yes, I can live for more than ten or twenty years!"

He also said in tears that he was going to travel...

I grabbed his hand and said, If you are going to travel, then take me with you! I will follow you all my life, wherever you go, I will go!

He shook his head and said, "No, you can't go." You have to help Jinlong take care of the children in the future, at least take them to junior high school."

I……"

As I was talking, Auntie's mood became even more depressed, and I was already a crying person...

Uncle’s wish is just a wish that many parents hope to have, but I can’t do it…

I have forgotten how the call ended. That night, it was so dark...

On the evening of April 7, 2017, my sister Sanjia asked me on QQ: "Have you ever thought about how to hold a wedding?"

I replied blankly: "I don't know."

She suggested: "Or, you and Xiaoshi can try traveling and getting married, it's very popular now."

I was a little surprised: "Travel and get married?"

She replied: "Yes, you can see the scenery and take beautiful wedding photos."

I was a little moved: "It seems to be good."

Afterwards, I also talked to Xiaoshi about travel and marriage.

She felt good, and she was looking forward to it!

But life is not always satisfactory...

She also has many worries, from her family, career, love, and future...

Her cousin had the idea of ​​opening a bakery, but her cousin did not know the operation of the bakery, and Xiaoshi was more experienced in this industry. Therefore, her cousin discussed that if she opened a store, she would let Xiaoshi be responsible for the operation details of the bakery.

However, Xiaoshi will soon marry me. Once she marry me, she will naturally live with me. If she opens a store, we will be together for a long time.

At the same time, she was not confident enough about the graphic design she learned. She was confused and didn't know whether it was suitable for her. She was afraid that she would not be able to find a job after learning.

On the other hand, her previous manager often asked her to go back to be a store manager on WeChat, because she opened a new store and lacked staff and ordinary employees were unable to become a store manager. So she asked Xiaoshi to go back to be a store manager, and her salary could increase and benefits could be increased.

Also, she couldn't help anything when her uncle and aunt were in her hometown. I was in a low mood, and she felt that she could not comfort me by my side and blamed herself.

When all of these are combined, she is very disappointed.

In fact, if she hadn't chosen to be with me at the beginning, or if she had lived the strong woman she liked in her career, because of me, she gave up the jobs she was good at...

So, should I love her more to make up for her giving up?

I have thought of giving her a romantic wedding, putting a meaningful ring on her, and taking her around to travel and play...

But the pain of reality overwhelms all this...

It was noon on April 10, 2017. Aunt called me who was having lunch at the time and said that my uncle needed to go to a large hospital to get a pulmonary slough...

At that time, there was no news, it was good news. Once there was news, it was probably bad news...

I immediately went into the workshop to write a leave note and asked the cold-faced boss for two weeks. When he saw me asking for leave, his first reaction was that he refused to approve it. What's more, it took two weeks to request it.

However, this is a false statement.

He still criticized him by moving him with emotion and understanding him with reason.

Facing the supervisor, he also moved him with emotion and reason. He also criticized him clearly.

So, I became the only person in the workshop who has the most leave and must be approved for leave. What I didn’t expect was that this was the last time I took a leave on DSSX…

Because my uncle's physical condition is getting less and less optimistic, my wedding date with Xiaoshi can only change.

I hope my uncle is healthy, but my uncle's health is getting worse day by day; I hope to give Xiaoshi a romantic wedding, but I lose my initial touch due to the constant changes of various factors; I hope to improve myself in dsx, and finally let the cold-faced boss change me and can break through his own abilities, but I have no choice but to quit...

The light I hoped for was raging into the darkness I feared...

The deeper I fell, the darker I became...

Gradually, I couldn't see myself anymore, and even forgot that I was going to shine... (To be continued)
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