"When you are on the other side of the mountain and ridge, I am on the lonely road without an end..." Listening to "Missing is a disease", the beginning of my article...

Today's sky started to rain again.

The rain had been filled with unnecessary sorrow, the vision caused by the eyes, and the lost heart had no room for nothing.

What is true possession?

Is it when reality owns it, or even though it has lost it, it does not seem to have left it?

I rely heavily on the possession of reality, but when I can't feel that I have it, I feel that it's loss.

Just like what I write, the paintings I draw, and the songs I write, there must be something that can save them before I feel that I have it without losing it.

I once carefully maintained the QQ space of my first QQ, thinking that it would not be lost without accidents. However, if there was an accident, it was reported and permanently closed, and a large amount of spiritual wealth could not be found.

The feeling of falling from possession to loss is like a roller coaster who rushed from the highest point to the lowest point in an instant, and was not prepared or not.

Well, I don't like that feeling, but it's possible to encounter it anytime in the unknown future.

The world sometimes likes irony...

I only said yesterday that I wanted to recycle negative energy and release positive energy. As a result, I got a message that made me feel a sense of difference again.

My work has been blocked because it involves many sensitive topics and needs rectification.

I changed the chapters that needed rectification very early and submitted a request to lift the ban, but there was no reply. When there was finally an echo, the whole thing was blocked.

I felt a little hollow in my heart.

I spent a lot of effort on the 1.17 million words of things and invested a lot of emotions...

But suddenly I was blocked...

What else can you really have?

This kind of possession, which is limited by external conditions, is like walking on the edge of a cliff, but some good luck has not fallen.

External possession may be a kind of nothingness, and inner growth is the real possession.

Just like when the things you write, paintings, and songs you write cannot be preserved, or if the preserved one is lost, you can write and draw again. The key is that you already have them in your heart. What you can express is nothing more than form. True possession is invisible, but it exists.

So, I figured it out.

I will still try to modify this item and request it to be lifted. If it is not lifted in the end, I will still write my items and save them on my computer. In the future, I will have the opportunity to revise them into books and keep them for myself, or upload them on other websites. Anyway, I cannot give up them.

Yesterday was a really bad day.

In addition to this thing being blocked, other unsuccessful things also came to me one after another, as if they were aiming to defeat me by saying "Recycle negative energy and release positive energy".

Last night I watched the variety show "This is Street Dance Season 2", in which Ye Yin's group danced a dance about dreams, and the soundtrack was "Mission is a Disease".

At first, I didn't know.

But when the music sounded, and with their themes and dances, my eyes became wet...

This is the second time I was moved by my dream this year. I thought of myself... and the first time I was moved by Zhang Chi in "Flying Life"...

So, I searched for songs based on the lyrics I heard, and the song I found was "Mission is a Disease".

Currently, it's my single loop for the time being.

Listening to this song, I felt relieved a lot.

It will only make sense to pursue your own dreams.

So, so what if I am blocked? My pace will continue to move forward!

I am still like this: Recycle negative energy and release positive energy!

"I won't ask the world to stop turning. I know that escaping is useless... Maybe God gave me a trial, but this wound will take some time..." Continue to listen to "Longing is a disease".

Come on! Dear yourself! (To be continued)
Chapter completed!