Maybe, I really reached another turning point in my life, otherwise, I wouldn't have become like this: I didn't dare to be interested in anything, even the most basic desire, and even the things I like to write the most were interrupted for almost two months. I felt so powerless and had no sense of existence...

Well, God may not want to see me so depraved, so he always creates conditions for me to write something so that I can cheer me up. But I always wait a moment, even if I feel like writing something, and after a while, I will feel decadent again. If I had helped others like this and others responded to me in this state, I would really have anger of "hate the iron but not the steel"!

However, God was not angry, nor gave up on me. He still carefully created conditions for me, and the conditions he created were better and better, making me want to write more, or could only let me write something.

Well, this time, the conditions created by God for me are almost perfect!

On Monday of the new week, the power was cut off and no one repaired it. So what should I do? Well, I have brushed all the short videos I want to watch and done everything I want to do, and I have already started to feel bored. At this time, writing things is undoubtedly the most suitable thing for me to do now. So, I was rescued by God!

After almost two months, I finally started writing something again.

I have been through these two months really hard, so I feel very emotional. I haven’t written anything because I can’t overcome the obstacles in my heart and I can’t comfort myself. And others don’t know what I’m thinking and enduring in my heart. Everything has to be digested by my own heart.

That's why I became so numb and lost my feelings about the beauty of the world.

However, I still believe that writing things can help me regain my energy, because it is really the pillar of my spiritual world. As long as it does not fall, there will be energy in my heart that allows me to face difficulties and reality.

Therefore, for me, the most difficult thing is not the difficulties in life. Instead, I have no motivation to write something. If I don’t write something, I will not have the energy of my mind.

As long as I can write something, no matter what I write, I can find positive spiritual energy in my own words and revitalize the vitality of the psychological world.

Just like now, my mind is starting to generate energy!

Then, come on, write everything I want to write in the past two months, but this time I write it will be simpler because I don’t want to fall into some emotions too deeply. I will pass it after it’s over, let it pass it lightly…

Enter small segment mode.

The first paragraph:

Once upon a time, there was a very sincere "feeling" in front of me, and I cherish it very much until...

There is an uncle who delivers food. I don’t know if it’s fate or what happened. Many times he received my orders, so he was already familiar with my position. Every time he came, he pushed the door directly in, and then smiled and delivered the food to me, as if he was going back to his house. Sometimes, he would make a few jokes, and I would respond politely to "thank you" every time...

I thought that this fate could continue in harmony...

However, today the uncle, he changed...

When he quickly pushed open the door and came in, he had already nagged a few words in his mouth, and after putting the takeaway directly on the table, he immediately complained clearly and turned around and pushed the door and left: "This is the last time I have accepted this order. I won't take it next time. I'm so hot when I come here! He's!"

His operation made me feel a little confused and depressed...

If you don’t answer, you won’t answer. Why are you swearing? It’s not what I asked you to answer...

Huh, if I could add another deadline to this "feeling", I hope it is, bye bye, no see.

However, a few days later, he received the order and delivered the takeaway.

Well, so, don’t talk too hard, leave some way out for yourself.

Second paragraph:

In 2014, there was a small member of my teeth who had “multiple teeth”. At that time, it was still very small and could only see white as the size of soybeans. Later, it was nutritious and grew fast, and it turned into a big pointed teeth, which was sharper than other teeth, not very sharp.

At that time, I ignored it and felt that it would not affect me. So, I acquiesced to join my teeth members.

So, for eight years, my tongue has adapted to the existence of that multi-grown tooth. However, it still has many bad effects on me, such as easy to plug teeth, easy to scrape the tongue, and also has the potential for tooth decay.

Well, considering this, I went to the dental clinic to remove it.

After pulling it out, I looked at it a few times, and I felt quite emotional. After all, there were many profound memories of my life during the days it was there. Just like the year when it first came out, my uncle was still smiling at me...

So, I posted a message.

When I first discovered you in 2014, you were still a multi-grown tooth the size of a soybean... At that time, many of the beauty around me were still there...

Over the past eight years, you have grown up, and my tongue is often scratched by you and it feels uncomfortable... With this, more and more beauty has disappeared... I can't catch it at all...

Tonight, I finally pulled you out.

But the beauty I miss will never come back...

I don't want to dreamy miracles, I just hope that I can regain my mentality of making myself happy like I did before, that's all.

The third paragraph:

When I was about to get off work, I saw a flower mosquito sucking blood on my left foot wearing slippers!

Logically, if I were the ones I used to be, I would slowly bend down and then quickly slap it with my palms!

But at that time, for some reason, I suddenly stepped on my left foot with my right foot. The whole movement was done in one go, flowing without a trace of hesitation!

Oh, I was a little shocked! This is the first time I have stepped on mosquitoes with my feet!

Moreover, the mosquito was really trampled into another world by me.

Well, it seems that this is the body's own will, and it has also been fed up with the harassment of the flower mosquito!

From then on, I had another skill - killing mosquito feet!

The fourth paragraph:

After get off work in the evening, I rode home on the "Da Luck".

The road was a long way, and the road was very large and there were few cars. I rode on the side of the road because I rode on the road faster. There were too many bricks on the sidewalk above and no one had built it for a long time. It was uneven and the riding felt bad and steep, so I chose to ride on the side of the road.

But, luck was so great that night that I met the traffic police to check the car.

If I were caught by the traffic police and walked on the motor vehicle lane by a bicycle, I would have been taught loudly.

However, this time it's different.

The one who stopped me was a handsome traffic policeman. He shouted to me gently: "Little handsome guy, come here and stop."

Well, to be honest, I was quite panicked at that time...

However, he spoke politely throughout the whole process, and his tone made me feel like a child who made a mistake in front of him. Finally, he gently warned me...

I was punished very much, not next time.

Although I was punished, I was quite happy because he called me "Little handsome guy"!

Hahaha...Hahaha...

The fifth paragraph:

When I got off work, it started to rain heavily.

Well, I really don't like riding a bike to and from get off work on rainy days.

But, so what if I don’t like it? Compared to taking the bus on rainy days, riding a bike on rainy days makes me feel a little more comfortable.

So, put on a raincoat and ride home in the heavy rain.

On the road, the rain was getting heavier and heavier, just like the difficulties and challenges that life gave me were getting bigger and bigger, but I didn't stop to shelter from the rain. I knew that I was going home, and these difficulties couldn't help me, so I broke through the heavy rain range and rode to the cloudy area.

And, it feels full of vitality.

It was a feeling of bitterness and sweetness at first, and I liked it.

So although it is difficult at the moment, I cannot give up. Even if I am in a bad mood, I cannot give up. I have to endure step by step, and I have to break through that difficult circle and break through for myself!

Believe in yourself, believe in bitterness first and then sweetness!

The sixth paragraph:

When riding a bicycle, keep pace.

Whether it's a flat road or a uphill ride.

If you adapt to the strength of the flat road and ride according to the strength of the flat road when you are uphill, you will be very tired and feel that it is difficult for you to ride on that slope, thereby reducing your speed.

In fact, if you are about to enter the uphill section of the flat road and slightly increase your strength and speed, you will not be so tired when riding uphill, because there is a force of inertia that is changing your strength. When that force of inertia begins to weaken, you must slowly exert force on the uphill. As the slope rises, the force will also slowly rise, so that a trace of inertia can be maintained. Even if it is kept short, it is enough to make a good transition for the next force, as long as you do not give up. Of course, this is just in a good physical condition.

This is like working hard to do something. When you are used to your daily efforts, you should also increase the intensity of your efforts appropriately, so that you will not get used to it. Because once you get used to it, your heart will relax according to the normal trend, and thus slowly retreat without knowing it while maintaining it.

Under the appropriate conditions, if you work harder and harder, you will gradually become stronger and unaware of it in nature.

Just like, I used six gears to climb the hill, but one day, I didn’t feel tired even when I used seven gears to climb the hill, but I always thought I was using six gears.

This kind of unconscious growth is sometimes a small surprise.

Section 7:

This matter is a big deal that bothers me and is also a very troubled thing for me.

That night, I took leave and went back to my hometown. When I was sitting on the bus, I suddenly received a message from Xiaoyu.

He said that our company's funds cannot be turned over, and our department may have to be dissolved, and then I will pay my salary, giving me more than ten days to find my next job.

At that time, it was a bolt from the blue!

Huh, I thought he would play this move one day, but I didn't expect it to play so quickly.

I didn't reply to him, I just wanted to be quiet...

After returning to my hometown to do the work and then going to Shenzhen, I talked to him again, saying that according to the Labor Law, if he wanted to let me leave like this, in addition to paying my original salary, he would also have to compensate me for one month's salary.

He said that the department was just disbanded and no additional compensation was required.

Then, I took a screenshot online for him to see, and the dissolution of the department will also require additional compensation.

So, he and I had a face-to-face conversation.

Maybe he is unable to compensate me for another month's salary at the moment, so he said that we will change the model and continue to do it for a few months to see the results and see the results on New Year's Day.
To be continued...