The new week has arrived as scheduled, and the weather is good again on Monday.

It's almost April, and the sun comes out earlier than before. The window of Yuanjia's room faces east, and it's already bright.

At 6:50 in the morning, he had already opened his eyes, and his alarm clock was set fifteen minutes early.

After waking up, I didn't get up immediately, but lay in bed waiting for something.

One minute, two minutes... Ten minutes later, seven o'clock sharp.

The ringtone of the mobile phone is ringing from low to high. It is not an alarm sound, but a phone call.

Caller's note: Gardenia.

That's right, it was a call from Gardenia.

Yuan Jia turned over and sat up, and answered the phone three seconds later.

"Yuan...Yuanjia..."

"Well, good morning, Gardenia."

"Good...morning...good..."

Yuan Jia could hear Gardenia's nervousness on the phone, as if he could see her current appearance through the phone.

She must be scratching her head and head in anxiety, but it is a huge improvement if she can make this call!

Yuanjia must take her out of her comfort zone step by step and at the same time expand her safety zone. This is the core of desensitization therapy, otherwise efforts will always remain in words.

This is the first time Xu Nanzhi has called someone in a long time.

Gardenia woke up an hour ago and has been thinking about how to make this call.

I was as nervous as if I was about to take the college entrance examination.

Fortunately, Yuanjia gave her exam answers last night and even thought up her lines for her. She only had to say five words in total, "Good morning Yuanjia," just like she would say to Yuanjia every morning on QQ.

That's what it said.

Gardenia's enthusiasm was reflected in her actions, her palms were so nervous that they were sweating, and she kept telling herself that this was what she wanted to do. She wanted to talk to Yuanjia on the phone and say hello to him in person, just like when she was studying.

Yuan Jia would say hello to her every day when he came to school.

"Yuanjia...good morning..."

Gardenia repeated it again, this time much more fluently than before.

Yuan Jia also smiled and replied: "Good morning, Gardenia."

Listening to Yuan Jia's words, Gardenia was in a trance, as if she was dreaming. She really did it!

This real-time phone communication seemed to bring the two people closer in an instant. Listening to his voice ringing in her ears, such a close feeling made Gardenia's heart beat wildly.

She hadn't been so close to someone in a long, long time.

Moreover, this is the boy she likes, so her challenge received positive feedback and she reaped huge benefits.

"Yuanjia, good morning..."

She repeated it for the third time, feeling dizzy and unreal. At the same time, her heart was full of expectations. The initial nervousness gradually faded away, leaving only sweet happiness.

Yuan Jia was not impatient and imitated her, saying softly: "Gardenia, good morning~"

Gardenia wanted to say something else to him, but her mind was so confused that she didn't know what to say. She clutched the phone tightly and hesitated for a long time, and finally repeated: "Yuanjia, good morning."

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It seemed like she could only speak these five words, but Yuanjia had already heard a lot from these five words.

"You want to tell me that you are very happy and have many unspeakable feelings, right?"

"Well...I...I..."

"Don't worry, you have successfully taken the first step! I feel full of energy now. Your good morning has given me energy for the day!"

Gardenia was listening to his words. Originally, she was worried that her clumsiness would annoy him. But after hearing what he said, she naturally felt at ease and no longer worried about her performance.

"Yuanjia..."

Gardenia whispered his name.

"I am here."

"Yuanjia...good morning..."

"The same to you."

Yuanjia could feel that Gardenia had a lot to say to him, just like a girl who couldn't wait to share her feelings. She had a lot of things to say, and she had been holding back for ten years, but it was just too much for a moment.

I was excited, my mood was too complicated, and my brain was a bit overwhelmed.

She hadn't spoken to anyone other than her parents in ten years, and she couldn't adapt to this change for a while.

Just like what she wrote in her diary last night, she really wanted to talk to Yuan Jia, really wanted to see him, but if she really stood in front of him suddenly, she would be so excited that she fainted.

Gardenia couldn't say anything else and was unwilling to hang up the phone, so she held the phone blankly and pressed it tightly to her ear.

Because of too much force, the tender auricles turned red.

The red color rose from the neck, and the whole face was as red as a ripe tomato, which was about to fall off the branches when the wind blew gently.

Just like the painting of a little raccoon she gave to Yuanjia on his desk, the little raccoon was hiding behind a big tree. It didn't dare to come out, but it cautiously stretched out its little paws and touched Yuanjia's fingertips.

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"I'm very happy to receive your call. Now I'm going to pause today's call. Let's chat on QQ."

"kindness……"

Her voice was very small. Yuan Jia didn't hesitate much. After counting to three, he hung up the phone. This process was also designed during the chat last night. Not only was Gardenia's lines planned, but also who would hang up first.

It's all agreed upon, and only if the plan is so detailed, she won't feel too much pressure when she calls.

Yuanjia had very low requirements for Gardenia. He originally thought that if she could make this call today, even if she succeeded, it would not matter if she said hello or not, so he woke up early this morning and waited for her call.

Unexpectedly, Gardenia's performance was very good. She was naturally very nervous, but she still said hello to Yuan Jia intermittently, and she became more and more fluent.

After ending the call, Xu Nanzhi breathed a sigh of relief. This was a physical reaction, but he was quite reluctant to give up consciously. He even wanted to call Yuan Jia back immediately, like a little ant who had just tasted the sweetness.

, can’t wait to try it again.

When I came back to my senses, I realized that my palms were sweating a lot.

I got up and washed my hands and face again. After I completely calmed down, I felt a great feeling of relaxation and success.

It was like holding a banana fan and fanning away a large area of ​​the dense fog surrounding me, and I suddenly became enlightened.

It's like a sprinter practicing with weights. He took off the sandbags on his body and jumped lightly. He felt so light that he was about to fly.

The message light of the mobile phone was on, and Gardenia quickly ran over to click on the message.

Yuanjia: "How do you feel now?"

Gardenia: “Extremely happy!!”

Gardenia had a lot to say on the phone just now, but she didn't say anything out loud. Now she was chattering to Yuan Jia.

She typed very quickly, typing many words at once, all of which were what she wanted to say but didn't say.

Gardenia: "Yuanjia, can I count this as a success..."

Yuan Jia: "Of course, forget it. Are you still willing to call me?"

Of course Xu Xigua is willing!

The battle between self-awareness and subconsciousness is extremely difficult to win.

For example, your subconscious mind thinks that "water is poisonous" and your conscious mind is very clear that water cannot be poisonous. But when the water is actually in your mouth, you will not be able to swallow it, and the violent reaction of your body will make you vomit it immediately.

Gardenia's social fear and agoraphobia come from her subconscious. She naturally knows better than anyone else that the outside world is safe, but she just can't control her body's violent reactions.

The core of systematic desensitization therapy is to correct Gardenia's subconscious cognition bit by bit. This process must be long and painful.

She is like a watermelon seedling growing in the ground. For safety, she digs her roots deep into the soil.

But no matter how deep the roots were, she was still willing to cut them off bit by bit, and then run towards him with the big leaves on her head.

Gardenia: "Yes!"
Chapter completed!