It was really a shameful memory, but compared to it, my first kiss was even more embarrassing. It was when I sent her home after watching a movie one night. At that time, more than a month had passed since we held hands for the first time, and I was worried about it. You should be able to progress to the next step.

In fact, I had had this idea for a long time, but it wasn't until that day that I had the courage to implement the plan. I chewed a piece of gum secretly on the way, wrapped it in tinfoil and spit it out when I was near her house.

I sent her downstairs in the community. Logically speaking, it was time to wave goodbye at this time. I quickly kissed her on the cheek, then quickly took two steps back, pretending to say goodbye as if nothing had happened.

I didn't dare to look at her, so I could only glance at her with my peripheral vision. She was stunned for a moment, her face was lifeless, and she smiled as usual and told me to pay attention to safety on the road.

So natural, so calm, as if everything fell into place.

I turned around and left. Her face was so soft, I felt like my heart was about to burst!

After walking a few steps, I couldn't help myself and couldn't help cheering "Yes". But in an instant, I felt that I had lost my composure and quickly looked back.

Fortunately, she had already gone upstairs.

Our relationship continued smoothly, but we have never done that last thing, even now.

I think that our relationship can go so smoothly because, in addition to the personalities of both parties, another important reason is that her parents are very satisfied with me.

I don’t mean to boast, but my conditions are indeed quite acceptable in our county. My parents both have their own small businesses. We have two houses and two storefronts for rent, with a rent of over 100,000 yuan a year. I

Although Qingshui has no future and can see the end of the job at a glance, he is still very free. He takes time to write novels on weekdays and earns several thousand extra dollars every month.

Of course, I know that my family's conditions, let alone on the Internet, cannot be said to be top-notch even in our small county. But in the eyes of ordinary people, this condition is indeed suitable for people who "want to live a good life."

In fact, most elders are like this. They do not require their children's significant other to be rich. A stable and well-off life is better than anything else.

So the two families got engaged smoothly last month, and the wedding was scheduled for the National Day holiday in October.

Her parents are quite open-minded, and the bride price is only 128,000 yuan, which is very common here and even a relatively low figure for both families. They also said that they would give her a car and give it to her to take home.

Home.

I used to read short essays about betrothal gifts from the perspective of men and women on the Internet. I was quite nervous before discussing this matter with her, worried that the two sides would argue back and forth, but the process went surprisingly smoothly.

On Children's Day this year, she gave me an Ultraman Tiga figure, along with a handwritten note, "I wish the child XXX (my name) will always be happy!"

When boys walk on the street, their hands are always busy. Some of them will imitate shooting movements, but I am a nerd and I don't play basketball. She asked me what I was doing with my hands, and I said I was shooting Ultra Laser. Maybe she

That's how it was written down.

Although I usually use Taro's Stream Ray, which is also known as "Taro's Light", she gave me the Tiga figure.

When I looked at the packaging, I was a little surprised. She said it was from Bandai. She said it was not genuine, but the merchant said it was genuine. I said Bandai was genuine.

She doesn't really care about my hobbies and has no interest in getting to know them. But at least she is careful and gentle. In today's world of boxers, such a girl is so rare, right?

But it was hard for me to be happy, and I became increasingly depressed. After the New Year, X invited me to a high school class reunion.

Originally, I didn’t want to attend the class reunion because I was a homebody in high school and didn’t have many friends. Besides, I was a liberal arts student and there were many girls among my classmates. I’ve never been very good at socializing with girls, and I didn’t have much interest in them. I just found them troublesome.

However,

When

But I don’t really want to take her there. Maybe it’s because of possessiveness, maybe because I’m afraid of being teased, or maybe because I have a low self-esteem and am afraid that she will be noticed by others. I feel like I’m a bit of a pick-up in being able to catch her.

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I know that I am not outstanding, and my classmates in high school are much better than me. For example,

I use my own products and save on store fees. In the past two years, I have been dating a college student, and my parents know each other.

But even though I didn't want to take her there, since X mentioned it, I still asked her.

In fact, it’s okay if I don’t ask, because

I told her that the people attending the party were all my classmates, all boys, and asked her if she wanted to go.

She smiled and said, "I don't know your classmates, so I won't go. You guys should have fun."

Very good, I said that on purpose, and this is the result I want.

On the day of the party,

It’s very easy to get along with boys, and I don’t have any worries about chatting. We went to eat barbecue first in the evening, and then went to KTV to sing. I am tone deaf and don’t really want to sing, but there is Mai Ba in the crowd, so I won’t sing even if I don’t.

Seem embarrassed.

All in all, at least until the end, the whole party was enjoyable.

After staying at KTV for two or three hours, someone suddenly said that he had seen the graduation video of our class at Station B a few days ago.

It was not an official photo taken by the school. It might have been secretly taken by a teacher or student from the school and asked if we wanted to watch it together.

Naturally, no one has any objections. This kind of thing is meant to be watched together at a class reunion, but one person cannot stand it alone.

The other party sent the video link in the group, and then several people gathered around X’s foldable screen phone to watch the video.

It can be seen that the person who shot the video was a novice, his camera skills were not very good, and the background noise was relatively heavy, although this is more realistic.

I saw the small lake at the entrance of the school, the lotus pond and vine corridor behind, the empty playground, the nostalgic furnishings in the noisy teaching building, and the vaguely remembered classmates from the same school.

Don't be frightened by the wine and fall into a heavy sleep in spring. Gambling and reading books will make the fragrance of tea splash away. I just said it was ordinary back then.

However, there is not much scenery in the video. As the birds fly across the sky, the camera turns to the people in the teaching building. The photographer seems to be very naughty, walking around the floors and saying "look at the camera, look at the camera" when he sees people.

The reactions of the people caught in the camera are also very interesting. Some people shy away and walk away, some say farewell words or dreams for the future to the camera, and some people make faces at the camera and do all kinds of funny poses.

While we were watching, we were chatting and laughing, reminiscing, or identifying acquaintances. About two-thirds of the way through the play, I saw her figure, wearing that green black and white school uniform, with the ponytail that I remembered.

I was stunned for a moment, and before I could react, I saw her boldly clinging to the tall and thin boy next to her, smiling sweetly at the camera: "I want to be with Brother Q forever!"

After saying this, she shyly hid her face half behind the boy, followed by high-pitched cheers from the classmates around her.

At that moment, I just felt a bang in my ear, and my whole body went numb, as if someone had slapped me hard in the face, and my face instantly became hot.

My mind went blank, I felt a little dizzy and felt like vomiting.

It was also at this moment that the people around me seemed to be quiet for an instant. Several eyes were directed at me almost subconsciously.

When I came back to my senses, I was filled with shame and hatred.

It was very dark in the KTV. I lowered my head and didn't say a word, thinking that others would not see my expression at the moment. I thought that nothing would happen, and I didn't see anything, or even if I did, I wouldn't see anything.

care.

"This paragraph...is the same as the previous one..."

X said and dragged the progress bar back, no one had any objections.

"Well, it feels almost the same from the back..."

X constantly dragged the progress bar. There were still about ten minutes of films. After reading it in less than a minute, no one said anything.

Sing, sing! As X said, they picked up the microphone again. As before, I accompanied them with a handbell.

I know they are taking care of me, but this is simply hiding something from others. I know that they are hiding something from others, and I also know that they know that I am hiding something from others.

It turns out that hiding one's ears and stealing the bell is not a fable, there really is such a joke in the world.

Maybe I drank too much water, and I wanted to go to the toilet, but I kept resisting going. I was afraid that they would talk about me behind my back as soon as I left, and I was afraid that they would think that I was going to adjust my mentality.

I was so obsessed with saving face that I just held on in the KTV, smiling all the time, until finally, the party ended smoothly.

We went home separately, and X walked with me, saying I would drive you off.

I said no, no, if you drink, don't drive, I can just take a taxi.

He was a little hesitant about what happened today...I said without looking back, it's okay, it's okay, it's okay!

He also said that just now xxx told me that he really didn't know that this part was in the video... I said it's okay, I'm going home first, and you drive carefully.

In fact, he didn't drink, and I wasn't angry with him.

I just stopped smiling and wanted to rest alone for a while.

I had known she had a boyfriend in high school, not because her mother mentioned it during the blind date, but because she was so famous in our school and had been gossiped about in high school.

Later,

It was completely unintentional when

But that was when I was in a fever, even if I was having dinner with X, I couldn’t help but mention her. Since I mentioned her,

Are they married? I really didn’t expect this couple to stay together for such a long time... I said they broke up, and X was very surprised and asked me how I knew.

Later, when she learned that I was dating her, X never mentioned it again.

So I vaguely knew that she had been dating someone else for a long time. It wasn't that I didn't really care, I just felt that I shouldn't care.

Who doesn’t want to hold hands with the person they like from the first time until they grow old together, but this is definitely unrealistic, right? What era are we in now?

As a loser, I have imagined that if I were a super handsome guy, I would have sex with beauties every day. If so, why should I ask other beauties to stay safe for me for more than twenty years just to wait for my "favor"?

Yes, everyone knows the truth, but after I got home, someone kept nagging in my ears.

They are all laughing at you behind your back. Are you too clown today?

Don’t be too self-aware and gossip behind other people’s backs when you have nothing to do!

She smiles so happily. Have you ever seen her look like this? This is true love!

The past is past, who hasn’t had a few relationships now, and who wasn’t naive when they were young?
To be continued...