At present, I am just like an unknown seed born in soil with poor internal and external conditions. The factors of the soil itself have made me unbelievable that I also have hope of breaking through the ground. The more wind and frost I have suffered from under the ruins of irresponsible irrigators have made me almost dying. Whether internally or physically, if I continue to torture like this, my final breathing may soon be static.

The desire to survive and the instinct of the sun made me question myself again. A judgment that is not too serious on the surface can be drawn without any effort. The most basic confrontation between war or flight, but is enough to determine the direction of life:

The former is a positive and bleak life game, while the latter is a new beginning to avoid the establishment of a new beginning. Should I take all these pains, or should I choose to avoid the new life?

I believe that after listening to my previous analysis, most people may choose the former, stand bravely at the forefront of the position, and fight against injustice head-on. It is because many people, including me at some time, especially young and energetic young men, all believe that everything must be faced directly to solve the problem. Everything needs to be tough on the ground and face difficulties above and become heroes, just like what I once said, "Escape is a common option for those who cannot defeat themselves, just like those of us who know that the action is very dangerous but still dare to hold high the banner of protest, they are indeed heroes who go against the light."

But everything is for continuing to play, you will surely win. Will you lose if you give up the chess game and open the game again?

The answer is obviously no.

Just use the standard Chinese chess game to make an example. If you can see at a glance that your side on the chessboard has already ended up in a completely inverted situation. Even if the chess player stubbornly uses all his strength to save it, the flesh and blood of the weak soldier cannot resist the enemy's powerful carts roaring over, and at most he will fight tenaciously for a few seconds. He will run around and dodge for a short time, but he still cannot escape the tragic ending of being wiped out.

Restarting the chess game means everything comes from the beginning. Both sides are evenly matched at the beginning. Five soldiers of our side raised their combat halberds at five enemy soldiers. Two big cars and two big cars of our side were nestled in the parking lots under heavy protection. The guardians of our side who protect the head coach and the guardians of the enemy protect the generals stood seriously by their respective leaders, fulfilling the work that the guard should do. Therefore, there will be no unstoppable situation of the disparity between the enemy and us when the war begins. The winning ratio is equal to five to five. If the arithmetic is used, it will be one to one.

After this judgment, what will I choose?

At this moment, I don’t want to do things based on the answer I just got with my passion, just because the importance of this answer cannot be underestimated. It concerns my future direction, life, and even the sixteenth year of my life to meet Satan or the Jehovah or not.

The caregiver's repeated changes made me realize that I was seriously injured and unable to guarantee what would happen again, and whether I would still wait for the opportunity to seek help from the outside world when there was a more serious conflict, and the probability of hasty escape back to the world from the hands of the god of death who was already ready to take me away. Even if I miserably recover a half-dead life, the scars that were cast in my heart would only increase and not decrease.

I admit that birth, old age, sickness and death are common things in life, and the withering of life is also the inevitable final destination of any creature. However, letting the conclusion of zeroing be frozen in the 16th year of life is clearly included in the category of premature death, and it will cause regrets from those who care about the separation, and it will be better than the sorrow of witnessing the death of a hundred-year-old person. It is obvious but realistic that ordinary people do not want such things to happen.

Let your physical and mental state get worse and worse, and let yourself be gradually hooked by the scythe of the god of death towards the insurmountable red line. Occasionally, you are willing to run towards the line that implies the end of life, and double-pushing to accelerate the process of death until it is only a railing that is not famous. As long as you are willing from the heart, you can cross it at any time. Only then will you stop thinking about it and stay for a moment. Such a tragic and sarcastic ending is the "glorious curtain call of life drama" I want?

The answer is obviously still no.

It's just because I've said many times that I don't want to die.

As a severely disabled person who is extremely willing to return to normal life, although I feel that I am helpless, I also want to follow the free and unrestrained wind to a beautiful place, settle down there, take root and sprout, farther away from this land that has not brought me many positive emotions and events, and even farther away, and never be affected by them.

If God really gives me the opportunity to escape successfully, and I can survive independently in the strange places I love through my own efforts, I would be very grateful. The person I am grateful for is not only God who was once thought impossible to stand on my side, but also myself who was reborn after working hard.

Just because they no longer meet with dirty soil and irresponsible irrigators, this may be called the best choice to restore the body and mind. However, it is not a simple matter to completely cut off contact with them. First, the most important thing is to gradually learn to take care of yourself by relying on your own abilities, and secondly, to escape to a place that even if they try their best, find a job that can earn a stable income, and live quietly in a busy city.

Just because you don’t get 100% physical and mental freedom by getting rid of your home. If you rely solely on the assistance funds and the help of others, you will still be easily limited and controlled by others. When you meet those impatient guys, you may even have a high probability of repeating the pain of the same mistake. For me, this situation cannot be considered independent at all. It can only be said that you will continue to suffer the sins you have suffered from in another place.

But I also know that my ability is extremely limited now. Not to mention using my own money to buy a plane ticket to Nanshan and Tianshan, I can go to a big city that is hundreds of times farther away than the ground to the sky, even if I step out of my house and go around the community twice, or go downstairs, it is difficult. This is why the escape plan has been brewing in my mind for a long time and almost formed, but I have been enduring the physical violence and emotional destruction of my family, but I have not set off to escape far away.

But if others help you, what will happen?

... "If you come here, I can help you."

Lying on the ground, I was still gathering my mental power to check my friend's messages, and I was almost forgetting the pain in reality. However, outside the door, there was a sound of very quality footsteps, and the polite and crisp knocking on the door that came immediately afterwards, and the sound of tentatively calling my name in standard Mandarin, which instantly pulled my thoughts back to reality. I subconsciously and rebounded loudly: "I am here, my physical condition has given me the sign of prohibiting moving forward. Please help me!"

The rescuers who knew my situation were not helpless. When I heard that I was unable to open the door by myself, the first aid they specially equipped began to play a huge role. They stuffed it into the lock several times and tried to open it tentatively. However, because the key and the key hole were not matched, the door could not be opened successfully even if there was a clear "click" sound. However, they did not give up outside the door, and did not forget to soothe my emotions at the same time. From time to time, they shouted loudly into the door: "Persevere, it's good soon!"

I tried my best to increase the sound. Even though my current physical condition made me unable to pronounce it hard, I did not puff the breath I was holding, and the weak and weak tremor mixed with the sound that barely raised half a step but was still dying, together: "...I'm waiting for you!"

Click.

When another key was replaced and inserted into the door lock, the sound of the door lock being turned away quietly. He wore a black work clothes and a suit of the same color, and a red striped bow tie with gray background. From a distance, Li Yingqi, who looked like a domineering president who appeared from the novel, took the lead in opening the door. His slender legs were not dragging the door at all. Following closely were two ordinary support team members wearing ordinary white work clothes and white suits and deep-sea ties. They were also excellent in figure, light in movement, and agile in their hands.

...Huh, their eyes and I finally met.
Chapter completed!